May 16, 2009
Just got back from Rhonda’s birthday party. It was an awesome party! I took Andrea and we went early, set up streamers and hung out until everyone got there. There were a lot of people there! We hung out in her backyard and played games with balls and played zumies. It seemed like (to me) Brandon always made sure where I was, and at first he stood by me a lot. I had him warm up my hands a few times. 😊 and he was wearing a ton of Phoenix. I could smell it from two feet away. Yeah. We had cake, pizza, played apples to apples, except Harry, Garrett, Dan, Delia and I played poker. After that a bunch of us went outside. Brandon and I were locked outside together along with Taylor, Craig and Garrett. Later I ended up being the only girl out there so Harry and Brandon carried me back to behind a bush. It was so weird, but kind of cool. I just end up spending a ton of time with Brandon and right before they carried me, Brandon was sitting on the bench and I sat down next to him and he put his arm around me. 😊 cute! So yeah, I’m thinking everyday him and I get closer. Which is exactly what I want. I gave him a ride home everyday this past week too. Soooo, let’s hope he’s not very oblivious to any of this. And please God, help him ask me out! 😊 because c’mon it’d be P-E-R-F-E-C-T!
Amen & Good night!
<3 Ava Estelle
Present day me: I remember having so much fun at Rhonda’s party. I took so many pictures with everyone and just enjoyed being around Brandon and everyone else.
May 15, 2009
Didn’t have to work today!
Today during school Brandon gave me a hug every time he saw me, which was nice 😊. And after school him and I went shopping and got stuff for Rhonda. It was good, none of that awkwardness and I felt like we were a couple kind of. He made fun of me in a flirty way, and we like had a good time. I took him home and then picked up Delia and we went out for dinner. It was really good! After that we went to Target and then Borders and then Garrett’s house with Harry and we learned to play poker! 😊 I took her home and got back home around 11. I had an awesome day. And Brandon and I have like three or four inside jokes, shit stick, blow job with your hand, you look so lonely in the rain – I’m hot – take your shirt off. This is our song – Hotel California. Any who I think and hope Brandon likes me, and maybe/hopefully will ask me out? Oh! And we went to Goodwill to get my check, while I was filling out my time off sheet in the break room I was talking to Derek, and later Brandon asked me who I was talking to while I was in there. Hehehe. 😊 so that’s about it. Tomorrow night is Rhonda’s birthday party!
<3 Ava Estelle 😊
Present day me: I remember learning how to play poker and thinking I was so cool!
May 10, 2009
Had a good weekend! Friday: took Rhonda, Brandon, Samantha and Harry home. I took Samantha and Rhonda home first and then Harry. He owes me $5. And then Brandon last, him and I sat in his driveway for like half an hour and talked. We talked about this whole Hannah thing. And he asked me flat out, “What do you want?” and I said, “I honestly don’t know what I want out of this.” I wanted to change the subject and say I want him, but I didn’t, oh well. I went to work from 5-9:30 and saw a cute guy, he seems like a hick. And then I drove up to the cabin, jammed out to music all the way up. Turned the bass up all the way and totally rocked out!
Saturday: had a parade to go to for Meryl. Rhonda and I hung out and talked to her about work and her confirmation. After, Meryl and I went shopping for mother’s day and spent the rest of my money. I had a movie night, too. Beth, Grace, Maddy, Kayla, Delia, Craig, and Garrett showed up. We watched 10 Things I Hate About You, The Uninvited (good horror movie) and She’s the Man. We went outside at the end and took a few pictures and played basketball. Then today: went out to eat at Northwoods and had a relaxing day.
<3 Ava Estelle 😊
Present day me: I wish I was more confident in myself to talk to Brandon about our relationship instead of friend drama. I also really like how I had a movie night with friends and we managed to watch three whole movies!
May 7, 2009
Last night was my last band concert ever! Yay! It was a lot of fun. Yesterday after school was really good. I took Brandon and Delia home. Brandon and I walked to my car, we talked about Rhonda. We drove back to the school and picked up Delia. We listened to Brandon’s zune. He has some strange music on that thing. Dropped him off. We went to my house to pick up some stuff and then went over to Delia’s. We stopped at Walgreens and I got eyebrow trimmers and bobby pins. I stopped to get gas and then got ready at Delia’s house. I wore her yellow skirt and a pretty dragonfly clip in my hair. We had brought a bunch of my scrapbooks over so we looked at those while we ate Culver’s for dinner. Then we went to the concert! We played first. Once that was done we got pie and went and looked at the art show. Brandon had a cool teapot. Tabitha had a pot thing too. There were a lot of cool pieces. Hannah had the painting of us four. Sort of awkward. She also had a self portrait. Really freaky. So I hung out with Delia, Brandon, Rhonda, Tabitha, Rayla and Brad. We took some good pictures. And afterwards Delia and I went to sonic and I took her home. Today it started raining in Ecuador. And I have to go to school tomorrow. It’s Rhonda’s birthday and I have to work. So yeah. That’s about it for now.
<3 Ava Estelle 😊
OH! And Erin and Nate are going out.
APRIL -> Bad friendship month.
MAY -> good relationship month! Hayley & Elliott, Erin & Nate, Devin & Kimberley, am I next??? Maybe???
Present day me: I really enjoyed being in band! I miss it nowadays. I remember taking lots of pictures that night and putting them in a scrapbook. The term, raining in Ecuador, means that my period started. Back then, I would have really heavy flow the second day and I would try to stay home from school every time.
April 30, 2009
So last night I hung out with Ashley. We went to TJ Maxx to get some stuff for her bathroom and then we ate dinner at Pad Thai. I had egg rolls which were really good. It was good to hang out with just her. She is so funny and a great person to talk to about stuff. I told her I like Brandon and she supports that which makes me happy and then we went to the park and walked around. We sang along to Cobra Starship songs in the car, it was so much fun!
And today. I had asked Rhonda to talk to Brandon to tell him that he should talk to me during lunch. She did. But I chickened out and didn’t talk to him. I want to ask him about just dating instead of a serious relationship. Haha or friends with benefits 😊. But who knows. I want answers but am afraid to get them. Ugh!
Anyway, I haven’t talked to Hannah in ages or seen her even. Whatever though.
<3 Ava Estelle 😊
Present day me: Even though I had all of these friends to hang out with I was still shy at times…
April 26, 2009
YESTERDAY! Pretty great day!
I went to the mall with Brandon and Delia. I picked up Brandon at his house and we met Delia there. He wanted to get boxers, so we went all over. At Old Navy we found some with crabs on them, which I thought were so funny! And then we saw Hannah with Stacey! Weird, we thought Stacey hated her. They found us in Hot Topic. And Hannah stupid bitched with Stacey the whole two seconds we were talking with them. Brandon had gone to the back to look at stuff so us four girls were talking. Delia and I turned around to look for Brandon and those two just left without saying bye. It was awkward. We were walking down by Maurice’s and Riley (from middle school) comes up to us and gives us all hugs, she was with her boyfriend. That was weird, too. So, after the mall we went to Border’s. Brandon got a zombie magazine. Then we went to Target and looked at boxers there. There was a pair with “I <3 some girl’s name.” Delia and I are going to get that pair and put our names on it for his birthday along with the crab pair. After Target I had to take Bradon home because he was invited to go to Abby’s to see Gabby. Yeah. Bad, but he didn’t’ seem like he really wanted to go there. After that Delia and I were just driving around and we decided to go to Perkins. We picked up Andrea because we wanted a third person.
So we ate there and then went to Coldstone and sat in the car and ate our ice cream and talked, two people we knew were working at Coldstone, so that was kinda weird to see them. Then we went to drop off Andrea. We ended up staying there and talking for like two hours. And Delia helped me realize something about Brandon. We analyzed his past relationships and figured he had been pressured into all of them and I should talk to him saying that I don’t want to pressure him, I want to know what he’s feeling but I don’t want him to pull this “I don’t know how I feel” or “I have to think about it” because that isn’t a good answer. But whatever. I’m thinking of having him teach me how to play videogames – then we’d have something in common. 😊
Well that’s it for now.
<3 Ava Estelle
Present day me: The stupid bitch saying was used when one person would try and talk at the same time as another person, usually the end of the sentence or talking part. It made some of us laugh when we had a name for it and realized how much Hannah did that with everyone she was around. Brandon DID end up dating Gabby, after this date. So knowing he had spent all day with me and Delia, then seeing Gabby was telling…. This is a comforting entry to revisit as an adult. I had so much packed into one day!
April 22, 2009
Today was a pretty good day. I didn’t have to work! So I had a free day. (work is going pretty good, btw). So I went out to eat with Delia and Grace at Texas Roadhouse. It was pretty good. We talked about people and the guys and stuff. After we ate we stood outside for a little while and talked, and then Grace had to go home and clean so Delia and I decided to drive around, we got gas and then drove up by Rhonda’s house and ended up stopping at Brandon’s and talked to him for a while. So yeah. It was a good day. And I think hopefully Brandon and I will finally get to that shopping trip on Saturday. If mom and dad let me go. Of course. so yeah that’s about it for now.
<3 Ava Estelle
Present day me: I miss having so many friends to do things with and make memories with.
April 19, 2009
I have a ton to write!
Last Thursday Andrea told me about something Hannah had said in Hawaii to Rhonda, about me. Rhonda had told Andrea, who told Bridget, who told Samantha. So, in biology Andrea and Samantha told me what she said. Rhonda and her had been talking about me and Brandon and how we’d be cute together and Hannah said, “Well, Ava has a nice smile and beautiful eyes and just a pretty face but I don’t think Brandon would go out with her because she doesn’t have a body as perfect as mine.” Yeah. So, I’m pissed off at her. After all that I’ve done for her, staying a true friend through everything. She just says that and yeah. I’m done with defending her and being her “best” friend. I knew she was superficial and selfish, but I didn’t think it was this bad. So, Rhonda is as pissed off about this as I am. Rhonda wanted to slap her when she said that. So, her and I and pretty much everyone else is going to ignore her tomorrow. Which will be interesting. Friday came and went. Hannah wasn’t at school so I recruited people for my plan to ignore her, which worked good. I had to work for three hours. It was a long three hours. But I made it through…. Saturday was the band thrift sale. I picked up Rhonda and we hung out there for about an hour with Abby, Brandon and Craig. It was okay. I talked to Brandon about maybe hanging out that night. But he ended up having to stay home and do homework.
Rhonda and I went out to eat at Culver’s for lunch and we sat at the high school and talked until her mom came to pick her up. Since I had a car and some money, I did some shopping. I got page protectors for my summer scrapbook. Which is so awesome! And came home and chilled until about 7 o’clock. I called Rhonda and Brandon and decided to go up to Rhonda’s neighborhood to hang out with Rhonda and Brad and Devin. We walked over to the guys’ house and played Rock Band! I got to sing, it was fun. Devin and Brad were invited over to Garrett’s, so I gave them a ride with Rhonda. We hung out there for a bit and then I had to take Rhonda home but I had to go back to Garrett’s to get my phone. I ended up hanging out there for a couple hours with Harry, Timmy, Garrett, Devin and Brad. It was fun being the only girl. 😊 we had a ”talking circle” instead of the guys’ usual pow wow. I took Devin and Brad home and then came home. It was a fun night!
Today I went to self defense class with Grace and Maddy. That was fun too. And my hand hurts to more later!
WORK FOR 5 FRICKEN HOURS TOMORROW! UGH!!!
WORK SUCKS. LIFE IS ALRIGHT. Hopefully going to hang out with Brandon soon?
<3 Ava Estelle 😊
Present day me: I wish I wasn’t such a “mean girl” when I learned about what Hannah said about me. I think because so many other girls already knew before me and I was told by two girls who weren’t even hanging out with us in Hawaii, it made it more intense to react the way I did. I’m not proud of that choice. Ladies, especially in high school: communicate with your friends! If you find something out that you aren’t happy about TALK to your friend and get things straightened out!
April 13, 2009
Today was a boring day. But I got a job at Goodwill!!! 😊 So that’s good! I have to get a work permit and there’s orientation/training on Thursday at 4. So, I’m excited! And both of my parents are happy. We went out to eat at Pizza Hut with Cathy. Last night I mainly prayed for two things 1) to get this job! 2) Ferrari to ask me out. He wasn’t at school today, and I haven’t talked to him since Thursday. So maybe tomorrow he’ll be at school and talk to me? I hope so. At least to tell me how he feels about me. Even though I’d really like it if he’d ask me out. If that happened, life would be sweet! And everything would have a sort of purpose. 😊 But anyway, this past weekend was easter. We saw mom’s side. It was okay. I helped get easter dinner ready. Drove to Sentry 3 times in one day. And played wii! Oma had me, Meryl, Eddie and mom get her a wii. So she could have it and we could play it. My am is sore today from it. But it was a good weekend. I stayed at Delia’s house on Thursday night. We talked a lot about the guys and she is encouraging me to go out with Brandon. Which is good. 😊 and the next time the guys have a “dude night” her and I are going to crash it because we couldn’t that night. So yeah. That’s it for now. Party on Friday! Unless I have to work!
<3 Ava Estelle
Present day me: Oh remembering before I got my first job, before so many responsibilities, before entering late teenage years and into adulthood….
April 8, 2009
So last night I talked to Devin about Ferrari. He asked me if Brandon has talked to me yet. I said not yet…why? Devin said because Brandon just wants to talk to me about it instead of having Devin or anyone else in the middle. So, hearing this I get excited. I’m like so, do you think he likes me? He said, “I think he might, he’s just thinking about it and going to talk to you about it.” So, I went to bed last night thinking that he’ll be talking to me today. He didn’t. And he wasn’t online tonight either. I’m getting frustrated and almost like un-hopeful. I know I’m just over thinking it and overreacting. He’ll talk to me when he’s ready and it’ll hopefully be good. Man, if he says he doesn’t want to go out with me yeah, I’ll be crushed but I hope it won’t be awkward between us….? Who knows. Maybe we’ll go to the mall tomorrow night and hang out. I hope so. It’d be a lot of fun to hang out with him. I guess that’s it for now. I’ll go to bed. G’night.
<3 Ava Estelle
Present day me: I feel like Brandon really took his time with communicating how he felt about me. I remember asking his friends all the time about him because they all had cell phones and Brandon didn’t! I could only talk to him on AIM or call his home phone.