April 5, 2009
Another weekend gone by. Kind of a boring one. But didn’t have to go to the cabin! Yay! On Friday night (since I didn’t have any plans) Hannah and I went out. I drove and we went to Michael’s, Cold stone and the mall. It was good to just hang out with it just being the two of us. We went in the photo booth three times and to wet seal and tried on clothes. The whole time I was texting with Harry and Brad trying to get the low-down on where Brandon was hanging out that night. Turns out it was at Greg’s house. If it was someone’s house where I knew where they lived, then Hannah and I probably would of went over and crashed their party. But instead we hung out at the mall and I drove her home and we blasted music and rolled down the windows. And then on Saturday all 5 of us, my family, went to Aunt Brenda and Uncle Bill’s house for their son’s first birthday party. It was pretty boring. And today Meryl, Mom and I went to the mall and shopped. I handed in my applications and got new t-shirts. I had tried on a really hot dress at Yonkers and I put a picture of it on facebook and Brandon loves it. Hehe. I loved that dress too. But couldn’t buy it. Too bad. Maybe he will have a dream with me in it wearing the dress. 😊 hehe. Well I’m going to keep trying to get answers out of Devin.
Present day me: It’s comforting to read entries like this, just a regular weekend spent with friends and family.
April 1, 2009
April Fools Day!
Today was an okay day. Tabitha and I took all of Rhonda’s stuff out of her locker and put it in Tabitha’s. But Tabitha blew it after 6th hour. Oh well. After school I went to the mall with Delia. It was good. I got applications and we talked a lot about everyone in our group. She found out that I like Brandon and I found out that she still kind of likes Devin. So, we’re both going to talk to them and ask what they think of us. Hopefully it’ll go well. And we made a pact that if for prom no guys asks us out then we’ll ask them. It’s kind of a given everyone needs a date for prom. Maybe Brandon will be mine? Hehe. Who knows. So yeah, that was my day pretty much. Oh! And I’m going to have a party on April 17th!
<3 Ava Estelle <3
Present day me: I don’t remember this day in particular reading it as an adult. I do remember deciding on a date for prom. It didn’t end up being Brandon, unfortunately.
March 27, 2009
Ate at Famous Dave’s with Rhonda, Delia, Stacey, Ashley, Devin, Beth, Abby, Bridget, Carson, Brandon (sat across from me), Craig, Brad, Harry and Katie. It was a lot of fun. Brandon and I had thumb wars and Rhonda and I talked about him as “Ferrari.” Then it took him, Rhonda an Hannah to the school. We listened to the Vagina Song (by the Bloodhound Gang) and the bad touch. Brandon ended up paying for me because I only had a $20. And I dance with him, Harry, Hannah and everyone else. The music wasn’t very good but I had fun. I just felt like Brandon really likes me just a little bit more than the other girls. Sadly, Gwen was dancing with him the whole time, I told him about it while we were getting a drink and he had noticed, then after the dance him and I were walking to my car and he brought it up again almost saying like he wanted to dance with just me more and not her. Hehehe! So overall it was a good time with Ferrari, but I’m not sure how this is all going to turn out. We’ll just have to wait and see.
<3 Ava Estelle 😊
Present day me: I remember being so frustrated that Gwen was hogging Brandon during the dance and I didn’t have the confidence to just dance with him. Oh well, it’s a funny memory to look back on now. Morp was also the dance that was the anti-prom so we all wore random weird clothing and not dresses.
March 20, 2009
Recap of my amazing vacation to Hawaii!
So, I had probably the best vacation ever this past week! When we were in the San Francisco airport for four hours I sat with a bunch of girls and we colored pictures for each other. And me, Rhonda and Hannah walked up and down the area and talked, we opened starbursts with our tongues and discussed the whole Beth and Nate situation because Beth ignored Nate for almost the whole trip, because she wanted this trip to be with friends not her boyfriend. Which is sad for him because he doesn’t like that idea at all so he started a notebook with Hannah and all they talk about is Beth. Anyway, the first night was sort of weird. We got there and had to go down to the lobby twice to reactivate our room keys. And it turns out that something in the door wasn’t activated so we finally got in and started unpacking. Then we went out to eat at subway and when Brandon saw us all the guys came and ate with us which was cool. We girls walked back by ourselves and finished unpacking and stayed up for a while talking about stuff including me and Brandon. 😊 I spent a lot of time with him on this trip, if he wasn’t such a player or flirt with so many girls I’m pretty sure him and I would be going out.
But anyway, the first full day there was good! We had the half day tour of Oahu and we stopped at various places to take pictures. Brandon and the guys were on a different bus than us, so we only got together at one of the stops during that. After that we had a free afternoon, so we went to the beach! Rhonda, Tabitha and I went straight into the water! We rode the waves and just enjoyed it. I was so happy to be swimming with friends in the ocean! Everyone else came over after they went out to eat. Rhonda, Tabitha, Brandon and I went back out into the waves. I tried to stay by Brandon, I think he liked my swimsuit. 😊 and like I wrote before, he carried me! Hehe. But he could have just been being nice… there were a lot of instances that week that steer toward he might like me. I found out him and I were in the same group for the scavenger hunt that night. Rhonda found out and she said, “It’s fate!” hehe. So that got me kind of excited for that night. Turns out though that I was completely exhausted during that so the scavenger hunt wasn’t that fun but hanging out with Brandon and Abby was.
The next day was the Polynesian Cultural Center. It was a long day. But fun. I pretty much explained all about today in the last pages, moving into the night of Tuesday (after we performed). We were all really hyper, so we went out shopping. Originally started all of us but we decided to have the girls and guys split up which was slightly awkward. I think Delia was jealous because the guys were hanging out with us more than her and Bridget. It’s not something we can control, Brandon just ends up tagging along with us when we leave the group. Honestly, I’m glad about that, but he can do whatever he likes. But while we went shopping that night I got pearls, a shell necklace and I think I was running a fever because I was insanely hot and I felt so tired, so we ended up going back and we went to bed. The next day (Wednesday) was snorkeling and the hike up to Diamondhead and that last night while we went shopping was probably the most fun I had with Brandon, him and I walked together and we kept bumping arms and flirting and the whole time Rhonda, Tabitha and Hannah were smiling at us. Maybe he is incredibly oblivious to my feelings for him…? Obviously Delia and Bridget aren’t, I just hope they don’t tell anyone because I don’t’ want people finding out and talking to me about it…. So, that’s pretty much my vacation. I wish I was still there.
Present day me: I love revisiting these journal entries about my band trip to Hawaii! It was an amazing trip and I made really great memories with my friends. It was also awesome to have a sort of flirtation-ship with Brandon during that week.
March 18, 2009 & March 19, 2009
Tabitha and I woke up at 6:00 am to go snorkeling, AND I wore a tampon for the first time! Snorkeling was a lot of fun! I hung out with Tabitha, Abby, Brandon, Brad, Craig and Devin. While we were in the water we saw turtles, eels, many fish and we saw dolphins swimming all over and jumping around. Sadly, I didn’t have my camera with me. After that we walked back to the hotel and got ready for the hike up to Diamondhead. Tabitha and I just booked it all the way to the top, took pictures and then walked down. It wasn’t that bad of a hike and the view was SO AWESOME!! We got to the bottom and rested with everyone else, drank water and just chilled out. Then we came back to the hotel and had free time until 4. We went to the beach and I got a smiley face on my tummy, it looks really cool! (with sunscreen and burnt skin) And we did some shopping. I finished buying stuff for everyone and then we went back to the hotel to get ready for the Beach BBQ. Both the guys and girls learned how to hula – pretty funny. And we just had a fun, relaxing last night. We all took pictures on the beach and then the four of us, (Tabitha, Rhonda, Hannah and me) went shopping. We stopped at the hotel to pick up Hannah and get our money first. It was a good night to spend with them. Brandon and I talked a lot and we had fun together while Rhonda was on the Diamondhead hike with Delia and Bridget. They talked about me liking Brandon. They said that they’ve noticed but they’re not mad, just told Rhonda that I shouldn’t get my hopes up because he’s all over too many girls. I know that. But they also said that he has actual feelings for more than one girl at a time. So that makes a ton of sense. I think I just have a crush on him and because I know who he is and his past and present I’m not going to go out with him because it’d be weird and I would probably turn into a really jealous girlfriend. So we went shopping in the marketplace and during that we met up with the rest of our group. Brandon hung out with them and the four of us spend some time together. Hannah and Rhonda got henna tattoos so during that Tabitha and I were sitting out on a bench and two guys come up to us and asked us to make out with them and to do drugs basically. It freaked both me and Tabitha out. So we went in and told the other two about it and then called the guys to see where they were, but they weren’t by us. So, we darted back to the hotel and invited the guys to our room to play cards. By the time the guys got here it was almost 11 so we just talked. I was laying on my bed with my hands on my sunburnt stomach and then Brandon was sitting on the bed, but then Hannah and Devin who were also on the bed got off so Brandon and I were the only ones there laying together. Except he was at the end parallel to the pillows and I was perpendicular to the pillows. Rhonda was looking at both of us and giving me a big smile. After the guys left Rhonda shouts, “Your head was right next to his dick!” it was so funny.
Thursday March 19, 2009
The four of us ate at iHop for breakfast! And we’ve been packing all morning. We sat on the beach for a while (just the girls) until the guys came and then us three went to starbucks and went back to the hotel to finish packing and leave.
Present day me: I wish I could relive these experiences again within my lifetime.
March 17, 2009
We had to get up at 6:30am! Got ready, loaded our instruments into the truck and drove to Pearl Harbor. We walked through the museum and went over to the U.S.S. Arizona Memorial after we watched a movie about the attack on Pearl Harbor. I was excited to perform because we finally got to do what we came here to do. After we went to the memorial we ate boxed lunch out at a park by the U.S.S. Missouri where we preformed. There were maybe 10 extra people there who listened to us. So that performance wasn’t that great. We had a picture taken in front of the U.S.S. Missouri and then we got to take a self-lead tour of the ship. It was so hot that day and we felt so beat. Me, Rhonda, and Tabitha walked around together. And then we finally went to the Ala Moana shopping center to do our other performance. On the bus ride over we all were really excited and hyper. So when we finally got there it was really fun! After we performed we all went to Bubba Gump’s for dinner. I barely ate because I wasn’t hungry, surprisingly. Oh, and guess who I ate with there – Tabitha, Rhonda and Brandon hehe. He has hung out with us a lot on this trip. After we ate we got to walk around the mall and see what was all there. It was the same three who I walked around with. There were really expensive stores there, Rhonda went into a store and looked at the price of a pair of pants and it was $1,350!! Yeah. And we walked through a Japanese saver’s type of place which was kind of awkward but fun and yeah that was our performance day. 😊
Present day me: I remember the adrenaline we all had being able to perform as a high school band in two new places in one day! It was quite an experience.
March 16, 2009 (2)
Polynesian Cultural Center
We went there today. It was pretty fun. We had an hour bus ride there and back. On the way there I sat by Samantha with Hannah and Kyle in front of us. It was weird and pretty much pointless. Kyle is such an asshole. So, when we arrived to this place we met up with the rest of our friends and at first had all eleven-ish of us together but we needed to split up into smaller groups so me, Rhonda and Tabitha did and also Brandon stayed with us. Is it a sign with that? Maybe… so we walked around the whole park all day. We really didn’t know what we were doing. But it was fun. We went fishing with bamboo sticks, got temporary tattoos on ourselves, saw a really hot guy carving wood and just walked around. Oh! And we went to an iMax show. After all that we got in line for the luau. Guess who sat at our table…Brandon! Hehe. But I think he missed everyone else. We had a good food – purple potatoes! Haha. Brandon and I had thumb wars. I won 😊 and there was a waiter there that looked just like an older version of Rhonda’s brother. And every time he walked by our table, he was staring at me. Creepy. But Rhonda and Tabitha got a picture with him.
After the luau we had a little bit of time to chill out until we had to go to the Horizons show. Guess who partnered up with me and we tried to find a spot to put his pineapple to take a picture – Brandon! So, we did that and us girls got a picture of us touching his pineapple. Then we had to go to the Horizons show and I almost fell asleep there. But it was a good show. On the bus ride back, I just zoned out and listened to my ipod.
Present day me: Brandon had an actual pineapple with him, it was not an innuendo. This was a really fun day with my high school friends!
March 16, 2009
Day 3 in Hawaii!
Saturday night we arrived in Hawaii around 5:30pm. It’s 5 hours earlier here than Wisconsin, so we had a 23 hour day on Saturday. We got to the hotel (crappy compared to Mexico) and unpacked, before we could get into our room, which is #869! We had to go down to the lobby twice! Because our keys weren’t working. But we made it in, unpacked and went out for dinner. We were all starving and just wanted something light and easy, so we ate at subway! Haha. Right before we entered subway we saw the guys, (Brandon, Craig, Devin and Brad) and we ate with them. The guys left for the hotel earlier than us, so we had some creepy Hawaiian guys make creepy remarks to us. We made it back to the hotel and finished unpacking. Talked a whole bunch about Beth and Nate (she’s ignoring him) Hannah and Kyle (he was kind of ignoring her) AND I told them that I like Brandon. And I think he likes me too. While we were in the San Franscisco airport Brandon was sitting next to me with a notebook and he drew me as wonder woman! Haha. He didn’t draw anyone else and then when we met the guys at subway it seemed like Brandon just saw me and he decided that he wants to hang out with us to eat. All three of them were happy when I told them that I like him. My feelings for him aren’t strong, yet. But that could change.
So yesterday we woke up and got ready to go on the Best of Oahu Half-Day Tour. We were on our original 3 buses taking a tour and seeing/stopping to take pictures at Diamond Head Crater from the outside – Kahala – Hawaii Kai – Hanauma Bay – Halona Blow Hole – Famous Beach called Sandy’s – Makapuu Point – Waimanalo – Pali Lookout. I got some good pictures with everyone and some good scenery shots. We got finished up with that around 11:30. And we had the rest of the day of free time! So, we went to the beach! We all changed into our suits and walked down there with our big group of friends. We went swimming and tanned. It was amazing to be in the ocean with my friends instead of my family. Brandon, Tabitha, Rhonda and I swam way out to a sandbar over a ton of rough rocks which I hit my leg on coming back. I kind of tried to swim by Brandon most of the time. 😊 and on the way back I complained to him how my leg hurt, and he picked me up and carried me through the water. Rhonda and Tabitha saw, and Rhonda made a face. But he ended up dropping me and I got water up my nose. After we went swimming and tanning for a while we were starving because we had no food that whole day. So, us four, and six other girls all walked down to a restaurant called Cheeseburger in Paradise. It was really good. After that Hannah, me, Beth and Abby walked on the beach and took some pictures and then we had the Waikiki scavenger hunt. I was in a group with Brandon (cool!), Erin, Abby and a girl from gym class. The whole thing was pretty lame I talked mostly with Abby and Brandon. And by the time that was over, I was totally out of it. I desperately needed sleep. So, Tabitha ended up finishing first out of the four of us so I had to let her into our room when I got back and we ended up talking about a bunch of stuff. I was glad that I got to hang out with Brandon but It wasn’t like a total flirting session. We were just buddy-buddy because I was so exhausted. So yeah.
Present day me: this is fun reading about a band trip to Hawaii that I have lots of good memories of.
March 10, 2009
Today wasn’t very good. Beth is mad at Rhonda, Tabitha and me because she thinks Rhonda and I hate her. She had told Hannah that me and Rhonda were head of “the plan” to break up Kyle and Hannah, but that isn’t true. Beth and Samantha are the heads of that. I talked to Hannah about it and told her the truth. Yeah and Rhonda and I were in the conversation about “the plan” but we never had any ideas for it. Tabitha wrote in the notebook of hers and Beth’s asking her about it and why Beth lied. She said that she’s never said anything bad about us, and that she would be more devastated if she lost Tabitha as a friend than Rhonda. “She knows for a fact that Rhonda hates her, and I (Ava) just follow her along” is what Tabitha told me. And! Those texts I got from her on Saturday was basically her getting my side of the whole Hannah and Kyle thing and Beth is mad at us because we’ve excluded her from all our parties. And that we’ve (Rhonda and I) hated her ever since she joined spirit line. I have NO CLUE where she’s coming up with this stuff. She’s making a big deal out of absolutely nothing! And today and yesterday she’s ignored us. Yeah, so tomorrow morning I’m going to talk to her before school. I hope she actually talks and doesn’t avoid me. Oh, fyi everything is good with Hannah, just not Beth.
Present day me: more teenage drama brought up by insecurities and different perspectives.
March 7, 2009
Saturday at the cabin.
DRAMA DRAMA DRAMA! I hate it. Wow. Something really complicated that I’ve gone over a million times in my head. I have to write it down because there is so much to this drama and so many possibilities and outcomes. So, Hannah and Kyle got back together, which nobody is happy about. But she obviously doesn’t care, because this is what she has wanted ever since they broke up. When they did break up, she was devastated, and that first weekend Rhonda, Hannah and I went to the Kalahari to celebrate Hannah’s 16th birthday. Us three talked a lot about Kyle and how him and her weren’t that great of a couple. We said that she wanted that relationship with him more than he did. So, we came to a conclusion that they were better off apart. Well, I thought we did. We also talked about sex, and she said that she wanted to have sex with him, well she had thought about it. But we said she can do better than that. All Kyle cares about is “getting some” and she wants a real relationship, along with “getting some.” So ever since then she’s still liked him and been trying desperately to get him back. And it just turned out that because she was trying so hard for that she put her flirting all the way to the top, that ditzy personality and she turns everything into sexual innuendo, and I mean EVERYTHING. Which can get slightly annoying after a while.
So, Rhonda and I have realized all this and aren’t happy with Kyle and Hannah going out again. We know what kind of guy she wants – someone who worships her and wears the pants in the relationship and treats her right. Kyle doesn’t do any of that. He doesn’t wear the pants; she puts more effort into it than him. These two have nothing in common, except their both dirty minded. That’s all they talk about. Anyway, through all this and her becoming desperate to have him back and getting back together the girls of our group have been thinking of a plan to break them up. Find another guy for her and another girl for him. Just got to find those two. But Rhonda and I (her two closest friends) have lost our respect for her, she sank down to the lowest to get him back when she knows he’s not worth it, but she is still attracted to him.
And Rhonda and I think she’s been taking us for granted because she thinks we’ll always be friends, but she drops us anytime, anywhere for Kyle. It’s gross. She’s done it in mid-sentence to Rhonda! Umm, I’ll write more later. Beth is texting me saying Rhonda and I have been ignoring her and she understands Hannah’s side of this. Yeah. I need to talk to Rhonda.
Present day me: reliving this entry isn’t very much fun. I find it somewhat nauseating I was that involved with another person’s relationship but we were teenagers and we were trying to protect our friend in a way.