10th grade – Page 6 – Ava's Journal Entries!

October 29, 2008

Wednesday

Soooo going from creepy stalker guy to awesome, sweet guy.

I just got off the phone with David 😊 I had talked to him on aim last night, got his number and was texting him last night and today. We talked about like everything. We did like 20 questions, each of us took turns asking questions. I found out some things that I might have not needed to know….but he has promised to come to my town to hang out with me. He told me we have to cuddle and kiss…yeah. Not sure if I’d want to do that? Anyway, he called me and he said, “Hey sexy.” Yeah, sooo anywho. Not much else to report. I can write more later.

G’night! <3 Ava Estelle

Present day me: I remember feeling so cool to have all this attention from different guys at that age. David was a comfort to me, because we had dated online a few years earlier. So connecting with him at this age made it more real and I wasn’t sure if I was ready to actually take those next steps if he did come visit me in my town.

October 21, 2008

Tuesday

*SCARIEST DAY EVER!*

So, this past Thursday, the 16^th, I was on this website called Speeddate.com and I gave this guy (decent looking) my aim screenname. He’s 18 and said he’s from the town near my cabin. So, I sent him some pics of myself over aim and he sent me some of him…. He then said he really wanted to talk to me on the phone. I gave him my number but only to text me. I told him to call me the next night. I’d be at the homecoming football game for the other high school in town. So that night I texted Tabitha and told her about it. And I was like really freaked out, I couldn’t fall asleep that night. I even had a dream that he came to my house to meet me.

So, the next day I came to school freaked out about him calling me. I told Rhonda about it, and I texted him asking if he could send me a pic of him. He did, it’s not the greatest. That night at the game I texted him asking when he was going to call me.

Him: my phone is dying, so maybe later

Me: how much later?

Him: IDK

Me: I might be with my boyfriend later

Him: Oh okay

Me: What about your girlfriend?

Him: Since when do you have a boyfriend? You were single yesterday

Me: Should I just call you?

Him: No, I’m mad at you. You lied to me.

Me: Okay, whatever you want.

So, I wait a couple hours. I had asked Kyle Cash to be my boyfriend for the night to tell him off. If he did call me. But since he wasn’t calling me, Kyle called him. He pretended to be someone else saying, “Who dis? Where you at?” It was really funny. By the end of the game, I kind of felt bad for treating him like that. So, I texted him.

Me: OMG! I’m so sorry! One of my guy friends had my phone and had sent you all those texts.

Him: Right

Me: I’m serious! I just got my phone back. I’m really sorry.

Then he called me, asked me why my guy friend decided to text him. I said he’s the only person on my list he doesn’t know. Then this stalker said he was in Milwaukee chillen with his buddies. He told me how cool they are except when there’s a drive by. I told him I had to go because I was going to get picked up soon. He didn’t text me until Monday.

Him: Hi

Me: Hey!

Him: What’s up?

Me: Not much, at school. You?

Him: at home

Me: oh fun…

Him: Oh very…

Me: haha so how’s your day been?

Him: good wbu?

Me: eh…it’s been okay.

Him: why just okay?

Me: just been a normal day nothing special.

Him: that’s fun. You wanna hang out after school?

Me: How? Where?

Him: after school and idk where

Me: Oookay…

Him: Yup where you live again lol

Me: (says town name) you’d drive here?

Him: exactly and I’m in (other town) that aint that far at all

Me: Sorry my friend Andrea said I can’t hang out with you

Him: Okay whatever bye

Then he calls me and asks why exactly I can’t hang out with him. I just tell him because my friend said I can’t. He then tells me he’s in my town! Yeah. I asked him where, he said by a high school and grocery store. That’s really freaking close to my house! So, I told him sorry, but I couldn’t today. He hung up, I texted him saying if he worked in his town. He told me to call him if he wanted to talk to him (we were at Tabitha’s house) so I did. He said he’s unemployed. So anyway, he was just being a really big jerk about me not hanging out with him. Tabitha and I talked about it after he hung up and I decided to call Aaron and ask him if he knew this guy. So, like at 5 I called Aaron.

THANK GOD he was home and THANK GOD he knew this guy. He said this guy is a freaky guy. Aaron thought he was gay, and he’s gotten in trouble for sexually assaulting a girl. And this guy has stolen stereos and tv’s out of people’s houses. I told Aaron about my little situation. So, I was like freaking out while I was on the phone with him…. anyway. I cancelled my account on speeddate and took it off of my facebook. I called Tabitha and Rhonda and told them about it. Yeah, and this guy texted me like an hour ago saying, “so your going to ignore me now?” I’m not going to call or text him ever again. And if it gets worse, I’m going to ask one of my guy friends to tell him off. Hopefully he’ll get the hint and just stop contacting me.

Yeah, well my hand hurts.

G’night!

<3 Ava Estelle

Present day me: Wow, as a 29-year-old revisiting this entry it makes me laugh but also makes me feel cautious! I was lucky I had friends who were willing to help me in this situation. I knew I didn’t really want to hang out with him, but I also wanted attention from guys. So, this was a learning experience for young, naïve me. I got lucky!

October 10, 2008

Friday 12:11am

I went to Bailey’s birthday party tonight. Beth picked me up and drove me home because she got her license yesterday! Her party was fun. We went in her indoor inground hot tub, had pizza, cake and ice cream. Made prank calls of course and just hung out. We also sat by a fire, took pictures. 😊

This morning Meryl, mom and I got our teeth cleaned and then walked over to the mall. We went shopping at a couple stores and bought some clothes. I got to drive halfway home too!

<3 Ava Estelle

Present day me: It was really fun to go to these birthday parties to make more memories and inside jokes with my friends at that time!

October 8, 2008

Wednesday 10:59pm

I just got back from Beth’s sweet 16 birthday party! It was just at her house. We had pizza, played air hockey, hung out outside, talked, sang Stacey’s Mom. But instead, it was Beth’s mom. We decorated t shirts and played Never Have I Ever. We did the cupid shuffle, which I now know how to do. We sang songs and danced. I almost lost my breath. We took pictures of course. I could have stayed over but we’re going out of town tomorrow, so I had to come home. Me and Katie were the only ones that didn’t stay over. The people who were there: Tabitha, Rhonda, Delia, Casey, Stacey, Hannah, Grace, Jessica, Becca, Andrea, Bridget, and Bailey. I think that was everyone. Well, that’s about it for now.

<3 Ava Estelle

Present day me: I remember this birthday party. It was fun! We didn’t get to hang out at Beth’s house very often and when we did it was awesome! She had air hockey, a large basement for dancing and a backyard with a great sledding hill!

October 5, 2008

Sunday 8:07pm

So, this past weekend was homecoming! Friday was spirit day at school, so everyone dressed up in their school attire and beads. I painted my nails while and purple. They looked so cool. Friday night was the parade and game. We marched in the parade, played Ghost Busters. It ended at the park, and we hung out there, had dinner and got in free at the game. It got really cold, Tabitha and I were freezing. We got hot chocolate, stood in the stands, and danced to the drumline and marching band. Midge hung out with me, Tabitha, and Rhonda. Dad picked me up from the game and I came home to Brenda, Bill, Elaine and John. I did a puzzle with Elaine. Then went to bed. The next morning, we went to the parade for the university and ate lunch at Erbert & Gerbert’s. I got home and got ready for the dance, curled my hair, painted all my nails white and took a few pictures.

Then went over to Erin’s. We get there, take pictures, and then go to Panera. Only me, Rhonda, Tabitha and Erin go to Panera because Hannah went over to Derek’s for dinner. We also went to Coldstone. Then mom picked us up to take us to the dance. We had to wait in line for a bit. The dance was alright. The music wasn’t that good. I got a few pictures. Then left with Erin around 11. I was so tired. And it started raining in Ecuador today. So, I might not go to school tomorrow. 😊

<3 Ava Estelle

Present day me: The term raining in Ecuador meant it was my time of the month. My friends and I would say that to each other, except the country would be different for each person. I like revisiting this entry because it’s about a time in my life where friends were my top priority and we all had fun together.

September 27, 2008

Saturday 10:08pm

Today we had a massive garage sale. Our family got a total of $394.97! Rhonda came over for the day, too. We walked around the neighborhood, talked about my freshman buddy, and lots of other things. We called Aaron but he was sleeping. So, then Rhonda left, and the sale was pretty much ending so I helped move some more stuff by the street. And we had a bonfire, we got pasta for dinner. And then guess who called me back: Aaron! Haha we only talked for 5 minutes – school, told him we sold our green, nasty chair that we had at the cabin. Spencer had come over to his house, so he had to go. So, I called Rhonda and we talked about getting Aaron to go to homecoming with us. He could bring Tori if he’d want. Yeah, then we got done talking. I went out by the fire, and we listened to the dirty/funny songs I have on my ipod. We did the cha cha slide and I texted with Tabitha and Tori. That’s about it.

G’night!

<3 Ava Estelle

Present day me: I like this entry to share about a typical Saturday in 2008.

September 19, 2008

Friday 9:48pm

So today was the football game against both of the high schools, and I couldn’t go. Aunt Bea, Uncle Gill and Preston came to the cabin this weekend. Grr, I was so mad, mom was lenient on it, but dad wasn’t at all.

So yesterday after school right at 3 o’clock I had an interview at Michael’s for a job as a cashier. It lasted an hour, it went really well, I think. I had to fill out a personal survey and that took me like 20 minutes. So, after that I just interviewed by a really nice, laid back lady. Everyone there was really nice and chill. I told her about how much I love scrapbooking and everything in the store. I also shared about the upcoming vacations in January and March. I was planning on going to Wal-Mart to pick up my pictures, but dad said he’d take me today. Did he? No. Another reason why I was pissed at him today.

Anyway, dad picked me up from school today. Took me home and I packed up. Eddie got home and I got to drive to the motel Aunt Bea and Uncle Gill are staying at. We met them there then showed them the way here.

Basically, all we’ve done is give them the tour, talked, ate dinner and Meryl and I went for a walk. Oh! And Eddie took me for a ride on Aaron’s trail. Yeah, pretty much boring here. I wish I could have gone to the game.

G’night.

<3 Ava Estelle

Present day me: This entry is cathartic as a glimpse of my life when I had to do what my parents wanted me to do, to make the family happy rather than spend time with my friends at the high school football game.

September 14, 2008

Sunday 8:02pm

Last night was Tabitha’s 15^th birthday party. It was so much fun! We all got there around 7. I had made a cake, chocolate. There were 7 of us, Tabitha, Hannah, Rhonda, Bailey, Grace, Maddy and me. So, we just sit around her living room and all talk about stuff. Then at like 8:30 we must go to the grocery store to pick up more smores stuff and drumstix (ice cream cones) so Grace drives all of us in her van! We get to the store and kind of just all split up and get food. We knew this one fat guy who worked there, and he gave them the marshmallows and such. We took video and pictures while Rhonda, Bailey, Tabitha, and Hannah were buying the food. Grace, Maddy and I ran around the store telling everyone “Happy Saturday Night” that we saw. They didn’t like that very much. So, we get back to the cashiers and those four weren’t there so we wait next to the doors for them to come back in looking for us and three guys who look like seniors leave, they’re looking at us. We end up going out there and Grace is like, “They’re probably in the van, I left it unlocked.” Turns out they were. We all pile in and go back to Tabitha’s house. We unpack the drumstix and put in the CD that I made. We listened to the vagina song by the bloodhound gang. Then tried to find the music video on youtube but we found other *ahem* music videos. Then we ate my cake, and put chocolate frosting on our faces, took pictures, danced to the music. Then we kinda chilled out for a bit and played Never Have I Ever, right before Rhonda left. After she left, we all went outside and over to the elementary school nearby to play night games. We walk over to the playground and see three guys playing frisbee in the parking lot. Grace walks over to them and asks to play, then we realized they were the same guys who were at the grocery store. They said they were 22 and 23. We told them our real ages. Then they left, we just stand there on the edge of the grass. Then two guys and a girl come over to us and ask which middle school we went to. We walked away from them; they were smoking something. Grace yells back at them, “we’re from out of town!” they just insulted us while we were walking away. They were following us and then they left. We didn’t want to walk directly to her house, so we just stood by the batting net for a while and talked, then went and walked around her house the long way, in the shadows. We go back in and just sit and talk and chilled. We all went to sleep around 3 and woke up at like 8ish. And I was the last one there, we also had smores for breakfast. It was a really fun party!

<3 Ava Estelle

Present day me: The town I grew up in had weird people in it. This memory was a fun one to revisit. I remember telling strangers “Happy Saturday Night” and my two new friends finding it so funny and entertaining to do. I felt so cool!

August 24, 2008

Sunday 8:47pm

Yesterday I had my sweet sixteen birthday party. Paula arrived first around 1. We took our bubbles and went for a walk down the street without our shoes on. Bad idea. The blacktop was so hot, our feet are burning. We walk all the way down to the street just before the county highway. Then we walk back, and we see Tabitha, Catherine and Beth come down the street. They have music cranking. So, we all go down into the back room and have some snacks and talk for a little bit. Paula had blisters on her feet, and I was getting them. So, it’s about 2 o’clock and us 5 kinda chill out, take pictures, talk and just do whatever.

Then around 3:30-4 we see Aaron and Austin walk over to us in the driveway and they’re carrying one of their puppies! We all say hi, and we named the puppy Noah after the guy in The Notebook. Aaron didn’t like the name. But we stood there and talked for like 15 minutes, I guess. Then they leave. We go for another walk and Rhonda shows up. We tell her we had just seen Aaron and his puppy, so we walk over to his house. And when we get there, I told Rhonda to tell Aaron Thank You. AND she gave him a hug! It was good. I laughed so hard. After that we walked back, and Rhonda changed into her dress. We take a few more pictures and then go sit on the deck.

We play the game Never Have I Ever. After a little while the guys and Katie show up. We played a little while longer then went to the front of the house. We did presents and cake and dinner. We took walks in between all that too. And we just pretty much hung out by the firepit. Once it got dark everyone was getting cold, so we changed out of our dresses and into clothes and walked out into the street to play Truth or Dare. The worst er, most interesting thing was Brandon got dared to kiss me on the cheek and he did. Paula was sitting between us, so she leaned back. It was nice, I guess. We played around with the glow sticks I had given everyone, and made smiley faces, staring contests with them around our eyes, spelled words – boobs – and talked about explicit commercials we have seen. After a while we got really cold, so we huddled together.

I was between Brandon and Beth. Brandon was like grinding up against me and Paula and grabbing our butts. It was pretty funny. We kept having to move out of the way for cars, but after one I got to stand in the middle of everyone. I was inside the Circle of Warmth. It was sorta weird. Then it became 10 o’clock and the guys left along with Katie. I wish they didn’t have to leave. So, we go inside and lay down in the loft and talk about the night. Paula thinks me and Brandon would be a good couple…I don’t know…maybe? Rhonda, Tabitha, and I talked about Aaron and me. Rhonda asked me if he asked me out what would I say. I’d say yes, just to see what would happen. Like I obviously don’t like him as much as I did. So, yeah.

I’m actually glad Aaron couldn’t come for the whole time; it would have been awkward. So yeah, I think we finally all fell asleep at like 4am. Half of us wanted to sleep earlier but some of us kept everyone awake. We all woke up at quarter to 10. Went swimming, er skinnydipping! And this time, we had time to swim around naked. I did somersaults and stuff. We used one of the pink rafts to hold our suits. Everyone got naked except Rhonda and Tabitha. They didn’t go swimming. Then we got out and tanned/dried off out in the street. Our favorite place. Took pics, talked, figured out what time everyone was going to get picked up. Then we changed, packed up and they wrote on my board. It was the best birthday party I’ve ever had!

<3 Ava Estelle

Present day me: when we’d go skinnydipping we’d get into the water with our suits on, then remove them under the water and just be naked in the water. We then put our suits back on while in the water before getting out. It was a very freeing experience! This birthday party was the first time a few of my friends visited my cabin. It was a really awesome feeling to have so many people comfortable enough to drive 30 minutes out of town to spend my birthday with me.

August 12, 2008

Tuesday 10:17pm

Today I rode my bike down to the dog hut to meet Paula. She showed up and we walked over to the park. While we were walking, we heard a band playing, so when we arrived we walked over to the football field to see the concert band of my high school! So, I got to see Hannah, Bridget, Jessica and Erin. Then Paula and I went over by the big slides. We hung out at the playground for a bit. Then walked next to the lake looking for a place to dip our feet. We found one after a while then walked back to her house. We made peanut butter sandwiches with m&m’s and some mountain dew. Then we walked over to the middle school. We sat inside of door 1 and ate and talked for a while. Then we saw the principal get out of his car to come inside so we left. Got back to her house, watched Wayne’s World and then I left.

While we were walking back from the school we were talking about food and earlier I tried pickles dipped in mustard. So combined it’d be pustard!

<3 Ava Estelle

Present day me: lol, pustard. This is a cathartic memory where I was spending one on one time with a friend who went to a different high school than me. I’m really grateful for the friendship we continued with after middle school for a few years.