May 24, 2008
Got in from a bonfire. Cathy and Hal are here along with Deb and Derek. Yeah, we made smores and pudgy pies. Today was an alright day. I did a bunch of scrapbooking and talked to Beth, Rhonda, and Tabitha on the phone. So yeah, I saw Aaron go over to Tori’s place but I’m okay with it. I’m finally not feeling depressed about it. Which is a big step for me. 😊 so, I got to drive out of town today! And back with mom! She said I did good. And then I got to drive back from the cabin with dad and Meryl. I like driving. And I don’t feel very tired. So, I’m not sure what to do. I can’t scrapbook because then I’d have to turn all the back lights on…oh well. My right knee hurts really bad from sitting like a frog for so long today. So tomorrow I’ll do more scrapbooking and homework. Whoo hoo!
Present day me: I used to sit with my legs outwards instead of inwards like a normal criss cross applesauce deal. It was comfortable for me, it helped me separate spaces on the floor when I did my scrapbooking. One space behind my left leg, next to my shin, and then my front space, then next to my right shin and lastly behind my leg. 5-6 piles of whatever I was working on and had to put in chronological order. It worked great! Nowadays, I can’t sit like that anymore and I can sit criss cross applesauce sometimes.
May 20, 2008
I got to drive for the first time today!!! SO FUN!!! Up at the cabin, did a Y-turn and went down the driveway. Eddie said I drove about 5 miles. But I don’t know for sure. It was really fun!!! I can’t wait to go again tomorrow. 😊
Ava Estelle <3<3<3
Present day me: I remember riding the brake a lot, since it was an automatic and I was just getting used to how the car felt while I was in the driver’s seat. Strangely, I don’t really remember this specific time very well. I remember a different time as my first time driving…. So this is helpful to take note of as my first time.
May 19, 2008
I got my temps today!!!! So now I can drive!! 😊😊 I don’t feel that excited just happy. It will be really weird to drive around. Hopefully dad will have someone come look at our pontoon boat tomorrow and so then I can drive a little up there.
Oh! And Tabitha found out “Michael’s” real name. He has a myspace, but I’m pretty sure he has a girlfriend. I can’t be lucky enough to like a guy and have them be single. Anywho, yeah, I hope I’ll be able to drive a little bit tomorrow. G’night for now.
<3 Ava Estelle
Present day me: The end of my pre-driving days. Bittersweet.
May 11, 2008
Sunday – Happy Mother’s Day!
Well, this past Friday was Rhonda’s birthday party. I went to drivers ed after school and then went to Rhonda’s house, then we had to rush to the bowling alley! It was really fun!! We couldn’t get bumpers, so we got a lot of gutter balls. It was me, Erin, Hannah and Rhonda on one lane/team and Beth, Tabitha, Grace and Richie were on the other. We had a game and half about and then we did cake! We got to all sign a bowling pin for Rhonda, too. We ate pizza, cake and ice cream and talked about pretty hilarious stuff. At about 8 we went back to her house and just hung out, did presents, and watched John Tucker Must Die. Erin and Beth had to leave at like 10, so at midnight we decided to make a Reese’s no-bake dessert thing. It was good. We ended up going to sleep around 3! We got up at 9 and ate breakfast. Then me and Hannah were the last ones there.
That’s pretty much the highlight of my weekend.
<3 Ava Estelle
Present day me: This was a fun birthday party I remember! The cake and ice cream, just the words, were an inside joke of ours. So, we had many things to make us laugh. I bet Rhonda’s parents would hear snippets and think, “what is so funny about Arby’s?” another inside joke of ours.
May 6, 2008
I GOT MY IPOD TOUCH BACK TODAY!!!!!
During third hour I got called down to the attendance office and was escorted to the school’s police officer’s office and I was thinking, “No way!” and believe it or not, it was there! He said, “How would you like it to be Christmas in May?” My face lit up. Today was one of the best days ever! And the person who stole it is a junior and he told me her first name. But my ipod was still the same as I left it. Wow. I am so happy!
<3 Ava Estelle
Present day me: I really feel like my hope helped get me my ipod returned. I did believe in God at that time, and I prayed for it. I feel so lucky even to this day to have gotten it back!
May 3, 2008
Five months ago, I was enjoying my all-nighter with all my friends. Now life is totally different. It sucks! I’m at the cabin now. Kinda sad, lonely and bored. I’ll try and write down everything I’m thinking. So, we get up to the cabin around 2:30ish and we see Aaron in his driveway pulling in on his atv with a bobcat behind him. And he looks at me. So, we get here and me and Eddie go for a walk down to the boat landing. And I see Aaron leave his house and go down to Tori’s. So, a little while later dad gets here with our bikes, so I’m hyped to go bike riding FINALLY here at the cabin. So, Aaron had come back to his driveway, and we were riding bikes right in front of his house, so he goes back over to Tori’s and we decide to ride our bikes over past there and kind of around the lake. And when we passed, I saw him standing with people there and it just stung me. So yeah. Obviously, I still like him. Which is NOT good, and I don’t know what to do about it. So, I came back inside tried to call Hannah, but she wasn’t available. I texted Tabitha, Beth and Paula. Tabitha is telling me; I shouldn’t like him anymore and just not being that supportive. Beth said oh that’s terrible! And Paula called me, and we talked about it more. Which actually helped. I think I’m just going to focus on this guy “Michael” at my school. Paula said I should accidentally throw a grape at him! I just might do that 😊 so I’ve gotta get over Aaron…ugh! This just sucks. I guess it’s hitting me so hard because I was close to having a boyfriend, but then it didn’t happen. Oh well. Maybe I’ll find someone when I get a job? I hope so.
<3 Ava Estelle
Present day me: Oh boys. There will certainly be many more!!
May 2, 2008
So, at home. Just chillen out. Went to school, then drivers ed, then went to the mall with mom. Eh, it was okay. I got a new outfit and a dress for a school trip. Which was good. So, tomorrow we’re going up to the cabin…I do not want to go! This is the first time I haven’t wanted to go to the cabin since I met Aaron. Ugh! So I’ve been commenting with Tori….hehehehe. She asked me if she knew me, and if I went to her school. I said, no but I’ve seen you up by the lake because I have my cabin up there. But she hasn’t commented back yet. Anyway… I was on myspace before, and I have never liked my about me sections….so! I’m going to try and write a good one!
<3 Ava *Feeling better about life!
Present day me: Oh myspace comments. Lol.
April 26, 2008
Saturday at the cabin. 7:50pm Listening to Bust a Move.
So today was a day of realization, I guess. I found out both Aaron and Tori like each other. And duh, there’s nothing I can do about it. So, I’m going to move on, completely. Me and him have like nothing in common. So, I don’t think me and him would work out. Jeez, I really want to talk to like David about all this. I talked to Tabitha and Hannah about it and a little bit with Rhonda. But I really wish I had other candidates for a boyfriend. But I don’t. Oh well, there is this one boy that I’ve seen around school, I think he’s a sophomore. He has curly dark hair, and he sits at the lunch table next to ours. He sits by Hannah’s “Henry” (the guy that looks like her dream guy she’s drawn in her sketchbook) so me and Hannah made my guy’s name be “Michael.” I really like that name. But I just wish I could talk to David and get his opinion and see what went wrong. Maybe me and Aaron just need to get to know each other better?? Well, I guess I’ll just have to wait and see what happens like over the summer. Have another amazing party and have Aaron attend. 😊 I can still flirt with him, right?? I need Hannah to give me tips on that. Sooo, anyway I’m still really bummed without an ipod. But me and Rhonda and maybe Tabitha or Hannah are going to have a baby-sitting business this summer and I’m thinking of working at DQ so that’s all for now.
<3 Ava Estelle
Present day me: I got myself so hung up on liking certain boys and finding comfort in it. Typical teenage angst. I’m really thankful I had so many friends to talk to about things.
April 21, 2008
Monday – 8:57pm
So today, back at school without my ipod ☹ Yeah. I really miss it. I thought about stealing someone else’s ipod but then decided not to. So, I got home from school rode bikes to DQ with Eddie, got home and started my homework. I ate dinner then went up to the lake. Me, Meryl and Dad went. So, me and Meryl were playing badminton in the yard and Aaron rides his atv over and me and him talk to for like two seconds. Find out he didn’t have school today and he was on his way over to I’m guessing Tori’s place. She lives down the street in the blue house with the trampoline if I’m right. So, I get home and call Rhonda, talk to her about seeing Aaron and then finish my homework.
So yeah, I didn’t feel any pangs of jealousy when I saw Aaron and (I’m guessing) Tori laying on her trampoline. And I didn’t feel any like pangs when I was talking to him so, I don’t have a crush on him anymore. Which is good, I guess.
<3 Ava out!
Present day me: I think I was just really disappointed that Aaron ended up seeing a girl that lived down the street and not me. She did live there full time, rather than me and my family going to the cabin on the weekends and sometimes during the week. I guess now that I’ve revisited these entries about Aaron, maybe he was interested in me for a second but decided I wasn’t a good choice for him for whatever reason. We did hang out as friends and he got to know my friends a little, which was pretty cool anyway.
April 20, 2008
It’s like 2 something in the afternoon and I’m sitting out in the yard in the sun, writing! Yeah, it’s really nice outside. So, I’m writing in here and going to work on my story. One of the cats has fleas again! So, he’s out here with me. He is too cute! So yeah. I’ll write more later.
So now it’s 9:04pm. I ended up not really doing anything today. I’m kind of depressed overall. Since my ipod got stolen, that was my most prized possession and the sad thing is, is that I keep thinking that I’ll get it back, there is still some hope. But I really don’t think I’ll get it back. $300 wasted. And I won’t be able to buy another one for a looooooong time. This just really sucks. And since I haven’t talked to Aaron in a long while, those little excited times I’ve had about him are like over. So, yeah, I don’t know what to do anymore. I’m just kind of depressed. And today Hannah and Beth went on a double date with their boyfriends. Ugh! I really want a boyfriend. This sucks! ☹
I guess that’s all I have to say. G’night.
Present day me: This is a humbling entry to revisit today. The ipod being stolen was one of the first really bad things to happen to me in my life, I’d say. Like something I’d never expect to happen but made sense that it did, because I left my things unlocked in the locker room during my gym class. So at the time it really sucked, but having the life experience that I have now, this makes me laugh. The 15 year old wanting a boyfriend really bad makes me laugh too!