April 19, 2008

April 19, 2008

Saturday 11:44pm

Just got done making my Spanish project. It was a book of what we used to do when we were younger. So yeah. Stolen ipod: very depressed about it. I burned 23 CDs today. That’s how my music will be transmitted now. I rearranged my room too and I put my ipod speakers in my closet. I was really sad to see them go. Jeez, I talked to Hannah and Rhonda on the phone. Les asked Hannah out today over the phone, so she called me FIRST and told me all about it!! So, yeah. That was my day. Tomorrow: hang out with Rhonda and Hannah for a bit, go out for lunch? Do my English project and pray for my ipod to be returned. G’night. <3 not very happy with my life.

Ava Estelle

Present day me: I remember burning all of those CDs. I think in the beginning I tried to write the song titles on each one, but as it continued I decided to just number each CD. I was familiar with most of my music library so I figured I’d remember which was which eventually.

Also I remember Rhonda being upset that Hannah called me first to tell me about something “big.” I don’t miss those types of situations.

April 18, 2008

April 18, 2008

Friday

Well today started out alright. But during first hour gym some bitch stole my ipod touch out of my backpack in the locker room. I didn’t find it during second hour study hall, so I freaked out and texted mom, dad and Tabitha. So, I told the officer during lunch and he wrote down all my information and gave me a form to fill out. So, I have to have it back to him on Monday. My school ID is in my case and my ipod is so personalized to me. ALL of my contacts, and phone numbers, pictures and my beloved music. JEEZ! I hope whoever took it realizes how much that ipod belongs to me and just hand it into the office on Monday. But if I ever find out who did it… that won’t be pretty…well, more later. I’m pretty tired.

Ava Estelle

Present day me: I remember this day and feeling really stupid I left my backpack unlocked. The reality was I always left it unlocked, sitting on the bench by the lockers, nothing was ever stolen until that day. It really sucked!!

April 13, 2008

April 13, 2008

Sunday

I have gotten 2 messages from Courtney. Here’s what one said, subject: hi. I got it on April 6th. “Hi Ava, what is up sorry we have not talked lately it just seemed like you did not want to me very much please write back and maybe we could do something again. Courtney P.S. Please write back and what is your cell number”

I haven’t written her back. Then I received another one today. Subject: we should talk. Well, all it basically said was, if you want things to be good again between us you have to make the first move. I read it out loud to Meryl and she said it sounds like we’d broken up. Haha. Yeah, soooo I’m not going to message her back. A) I’m grounded from the computer still and B) I honestly don’t want to.

So, since it’s Sunday night it’s the end of another weekend. It had snowed here Friday night, but it was mostly gone this afternoon. So, we stayed at the cabin Saturday night. There was no sign of Aaron being home. So, no luck there. Oh well, probably after last weekend he’s too embarrassed? That would be pretty funny. Um, so I took him off my top 8 on myspace today. I think I’m just going to go slow, way slow. And only be obsessive to myself. Because everyone else makes fun of me. But whatever. I would totally go out with him, but I don’t know…  my impression of him isn’t what I thought he’d be like…but whatever. If he wants me, he can come and get me and if I happen to flirt or be some kind of bait I hope he’ll enjoy it! Even if he does have a girlfriend, I don’t care!

Present day me: Wow. Reading this at age 29, makes me feel bad for Courtney. I handled my friendship with her very poorly and back then I thought I was being cool and getting closer with other people. It was a mess. Thankfully I have been able to reconnect with Courtney as adults and I call her a good friend today.

I remember having thoughts of who’d have a crush on me, who’d be looking at me when and just feeling into boys so much and looking cute. Teenage years, sigh. I’m glad to have made it through those times.

April 6, 2008

April 6, 2008

Sunday 9:45pm

So, I’m supposed to be reading Jane Eyre for English class. 87 pages by tomorrow and I’m only on 30 something. Oh well. So today was an alright day. I was at the cabin this morning. Mom and dad went for a walk so me, Eddie and Meryl were playing catch and batting out in the street and guess who takes a break from working on his car and comes out and tries to bat with us! Aaron! Haha, yeah. He tries like four times – misses! But gets one. Me and him didn’t really talk like at all. He doesn’t bring up any conversation. I feel weird asking him questions, I asked him how school was going. *stupid* and he said it’s going slow. He hates it and I said yeah, I know what you mean. So yeah. Ttyl.

Ava Estelle

Present day me: I think at this point I was way over Aaron and was surprised to have him try and bat with us. So I didn’t try very hard when he was around.

April 5, 2008

April 5, 2008

Saturday

So its about 11 o’clock pm and everyone is in bed. I’m still awake because I’ve been scrapbooking for the past like three hours. Yeah, we’re at the cabin. I didn’t see Aaron at all today but I was really tempted to call him. But Rhonda is telling me not to be obsessive of him and I’m fine really. I’m not feeling weird about not trying to hang out with him while I’m up here. So my new motto is: if he wants me he can come and get me. 😊

So I’m going to stop commenting him and calling him and see how he feels about that! Haha! Suck on that!

Present day me: I’m proud of myself for not becoming too obsessive over this guy.

April 2, 2008

April 2, 2008

Wednesday 8:48pm

Just got done making a scrapbook of Morp! It is pretty awesome!

So, yesterday was April Fool’s Day! And guess what, we had a snow day! Our third snow day. So now we have to make up a day at the end of the year. So, since we had a day off I made cookies, did laundry and talked on the phone with Rhonda for about 2 hours. We talked about Aaron mostly. And we analyzed all my convos with him. It was interesting. But Rhonda told me to stop commenting him and just give him space. So, I just should try and stop thinking about him. Me and him didn’t get to hang out last weekend. But this weekend Saturday night we’ll be at the cabin, so maybe? I don’t know. I’m thinking of scrapbooking with all the pics I have up there. So yeah. I guess that’s all for now. TTYL!

<3 Ava Estelle

Present day me: I really was helped by talking with my friends, especially Rhonda about my Aaron predicament. Also, Morp was  dance my school had that was opposite of Prom.

March 15, 2008

March 15, 2008

First Saturday of spring break!

I’m just chillen at the cabin watching Charmed and sitting in my room. Last night I watched Dan in Real Life with mom and dad. It was an okay movie. Then I just watched some more tv and went to bed. Oh! And Paula called me last night asking if I would want to come with her and her parents to Chicago from Monday to Thursday and I can!!! I’m really excited! I just need to get some money for souvenirs and things. 😊 Yeah, so I’m kind of bored, I want to call Aaron and see if he’s home but I’m afraid his mom would pick up the phone or he isn’t home. It is a really nice day out so he might be at Spencer’s house or Spencer might be over there. I guess I’ll just keep chillen.

9:42pm

Just got done hanging out with Aaron! He brought over his wii and we played games. Bowling, boxing, tennis and the guys played golf. But it kind of sucks because he has no plans for spring break, and I do. But oh well. I guess though, what I really want to happen is me and him hang out a lot and then when we don’t hang out, he misses me and I miss him and like we become really close. But I guess tonight wasn’t the best. Eddie and his friend were taking over the wii. I guess I’ll just keep hoping me and Aaron become good friends. Oh! And he was wearing camo boxers! Whoo hoo! Hahaha. Can’t wait to tell everyone about this! 😊

Present day me: I enjoyed reading this entry and reliving it. As a fifteen-year-old at that time, seeing a cute guy’s boxers peaking out was like the highlight of my life hahahaha. Also, I didn’t write a lot about our trip to Chicago because it didn’t revolve around boys. Go figure.

February 29, 2008

February 29, 2008

At the cabin. The Ktown clan came up to visit. 18 people here in total! So, Aaron came over and I hung out with him. I showed him my picture additions to my room and then showed him part of the DVD. We played cards, just us two. Egyptian Rats Crew, War and Speed. Then we just talked. We looked through a photo album. And then had some food. After that we went outside to ride on the atvs and the snowmobile. It was pretty cool. And yeah, we hung out outside for a loooong while and then my dad said that riding was over for the night, so Aaron left along with his dog and us four girls hung out. Ha! So, the parents were playing Lines of Laughter in the back room below us. We were in the loft laying down. And Rob was way buzzed so I yelled at him to say Obama so he said, “Osama Bin Laden,” then I told him to say, asscrack, dreamsicle and hippopotamus. So yeah. Then I finally got to sleep at like 3ish. So, I’m way tired now. But it was a pretty good night.

Oh, one last thing.

Aaron had his atv shining its headlights on the smaller atv because it wasn’t working. He was standing on the side and was rocking it back and forth. I was standing across from him looking at him and he said, “My girlfriend was sitting on here and I came up on here and started tipping it like this and freaked her out.”

Ava Estelle

Present day me: This was a good memory where everyone was together having a good time and I got some nice time in with Aaron. That was the first time he confessed to me about having a girlfriend, and he did it very nonchalantly. I think he thought of me as a friend and felt comfortable sharing that information with me at that point. I remember just being like, oh okay when he told me. It made a little more sense since he wasn’t asking me out or anything. But I was still happy to hang out with him.

February 24, 2008

February 24, 2008

Dream from last night.

Hannah was having a party, but it was up at my cabin. Aaron was over (of course) and it was winter out. The layout of the cabin was different though. So, I guess all we did at the party was lounge around in my room and have a treasure hunt with everyone. It was kind of cool. Then I had a dream that I was hanging out in my room here in town and I hear my dad come home and yell up the stairs, “Gram’s is here!” and I rushed down the stairs and saw her wearing the same outfit that she was wearing in the picture that I have of her on my whiteboard. So, I give her a big hug and tell her about my life.

So yesterday I went to see Definitely, Maybe with Rhonda at 1:30 and that ended around 4. We walked around the mall until Delia, Beth, Hannah and Tabitha were coming. So, they got there and we hung out til about 6. Then Hannah and Rhonda had to leave so it was just the four of us. We went to Deb and tried on dresses. Then we went to Inside Scoop and bought candy because we went to see the movie 27 Dresses! So I saw two movies in one day! They were both really really good! After 27 Dresses we went home. Tabitha gave me a ride home. Then today I played DDR a few times and just hung out. It was relaxing. G’night!

Ava Estelle

Present day me: I remember this being quite an awesome thing! To be able to see two movies at the same theater in one day, with different friends! I also remember having that dream about Gram. I still miss her very much. I believe when a soul that’s passed shows up in one of my dreams that is their way of connecting with me again. This was my first dream with her in it since her passing. I gave her the biggest hug I could when I reached her!

February 16, 2008

February 16, 2008

Hey! I stayed at Hannah’s last night along with Rhonda, and Beth. It was fun! On the car ride to her house we called Todd and Rhonda said she was Hannah and he believed it! And Hannah said she was Rhonda. Haha. I had to tell him who I was. We used my phone. When we got to Hannah’s we ate dinner and then went upstairs and took pictures and watched the new DVD she made! It is awesome! Yeah, then we watched movies and just talked. Today we woke up and talked. Beth had to leave kind of early, so it was just us 3. We ended up playing wii! It was so much fun! Then me and Rhonda had to leave at noon. I get home and take a shower and then we go over to the Smith’s for their daughter’s birthday party. Boring! I texted with Delia and Tabitha called me while I was over there. After that we came up here to the lake and Eddie was riding his atv around so then I got to ride on it and Aaron came over and we hung out with him. Aaron showed Eddie the trails he had behind his house. During that I called Rhonda and told her about all this. So, I kept getting atv rides from Eddie and then would talk to Aaron in between rides. It was pretty good. I asked him what he did today and he said he sat in a room and turned the heat up so he’d get hot. Idk??? It sounded weird. And his hair hasn’t grown any yet. Which kind of makes me mad. Because losing the cutie flip with his hair was a bad idea. That’s what I think at least. So, I told him about playing wii this morning and he said he had a wii!! And I told him he should bring it over and he said sure. So, we go inside and wait for 45 minutes. He doesn’t show up so me and Eddie walk over to his house and ask him if he’s coming over and he says no, his parents just got home, and he wants to spend time with them. Hmph. But he added he’ll be over tomorrow. I don’t think he’ll come over. But whatever. He can lie to us all he wants because I officially don’t have a crush on him anymore! But I can still daydream about him, right?

Ava Estelle

Present day me: this entry makes me laugh. He was so cute until he got that damn haircut. Then his attraction level plummeted.