2009 – Ava's Journal Entries!

September 5, 2009

NSFW entry!

Saturday

Went to work for 8 hours. Had breaks with Georgia. Saw Hunter and Eric. Kyle got there at 5 and I left at 5:15. So I went out to eat for dinner with Delia and then we went to see The Ugly Truth – rated R!! It was good and made a lot of dirty jokes. Then we visited Devin and Brad and played rock band. After that she dropped me off at the park where I met up with Derek. We fooled around and I let him in my pants this time. It was fun. He ate me out too. That felt good, too. We made out a little bit and then it was midnight. So, I had to go home. We walked together a bit and then parted. Came home, went on Facebook and got a friend request from Gil from work. Haha. We have no mutual friends, so I wasn’t sure who he was at first. So yeah, it’s 1:20am and I need to go to bed.

Pretty good day!

<3 Ava Estelle 😊

Present day me: ohh memories of my escapades from the beginning of my chapter with men!

September 1, 2009

NSFW entry!

Tuesday

Woke up to a text from Derek saying he had the house to himself. So I took a shower and such and walked over there. He made some eggs, and we watched tv, and played wii. Then we went up to his room. I didn’t let him under my pants, just everywhere else. I gave him a hand job through his shorts. He came, of course. Then it was 12:15 and I had gotten there at like 9:30. So I walked home in time for Delia to pick me up. We went out to eat and then went to hang with Andrea and give her camera back. We watched Degrassi and talked of course. After that Delia and I went to Coldstone and she brought me home. Dad took me to work, I walk into the break room and see Hunter, he was reading a book. I looked at the shift plan and then sat down and wrote on my time sheet. He then passed me an envelope with my name on it with a note saying: open when I’m at home or alone. And he left. So I worked my shift and went to Delia’s to watch 10 things I hate about you. I opened the letter at her house. It basically said he’s grateful for the time that he spent with me and told me Happy Birthday, and that he’s not going to try a relationship, friendship or communication with me. He also enclosed $100 in cash.

That’s it.

G’night! Very interesting day.

<3 Ava Estelle

Present day me: I remember opening the letter and reading it and being a tad confused by the perspective he wrote from. The letter itself was written in metaphors from a story he identified with from his experience with me. Then when I opened the envelope with the cash I was in shock. I remember calling Eric, who knew Hunter from school and work and asking him what he thought about this whole letter. He said he’s surprised but also knows Hunter is giving. So, it was a lucky time for me then.

August 31, 2009

Monday

NSFW entry!

Sat around all day. Went to work at 5. I was assigned to donations. Who was there? Kyle, Derek, and Hunter. Wow, right? I talked with Kyle. We took break together. Made out a little. Groped me a little. At the end Kyle helped me with floor recovery. It was nice to see him again. But he’s kind of annoying with his whole trying to be gangster shtick. He’s white, not gangster. On well, I’m thinking once he’s done at goodwill, I’ll be done with him and get my car back!

Kyle thought me and Gil have a thing. Nope. I think Gil has a girlfriend.

I told Kyle the only way we’d be able to hang out would be at footballs games. I’m not sure if he liked that idea.

So, I’m almost excited for school to start. New year, new boys to look at! 😊

<3 Ava Estelle

Present day me: At that point the team leaders/supervisors at goodwill didn’t know anything about who I’ve dated or spent time with outside of work so I was placed to work with all the guys I’ve been hanging out with that summer, what a day.

August 25, 2009

Tuesday

NSFW entry!

Had off of work today!

This morning I hung out with Derek, in his room, on his bed. He’s a lot more gentle than Kyle, but I think I like Kyle better. And that only lasted like 20 minutes, and I walked home. I got ready, Delia picked me up and we went to Kayla’s, Garret, Harry, Timmy, Devin, Brad, Brandon and Craig and Grace were there. We watched a movie and then played poker. Us four girls ate dinner out and then we decided to have the guys come back over to Kayla’s for some strip poker since her dad wasn’t home! So, it ended up being us girls, Grace, Devin, Brad and Harry, we played strip spoons. It was so much fun! Kayla, me, and Delia were down to our underwear and bras, after Devin and Brad left Harry had to strip down to his boxers. It was so awesome – then Delia had to take me home. So yeah. So great to see everyone again! And I’ll get to see them all and more on Saturday! I’m really excited! So yeah. I talked to Kyle on myspace last night for a bit and told him I still want him in my life and that I miss him, but he signed off in the middle of our conversation. So I messaged him and he told me if I want to talk to him I should call him. So I got his number again and will probably call him tomorrow. I have mixed feelings about this, part of me wants him back and part of me just doesn’t want to go there again. So yeah. That’s about it for now. So more latah!

<3 Ava Estelle

Present day me: I remember how fun it was to play strip spoons with everyone. We laughed a lot and it’s a great memory. It also entertaining to read about how I juggled boys at this time in my life.

August 24, 2009

Monday 11:45am

Bored at the cabin.

Oma and Opa are here, I’m extremely bored and just want to see my friends. I miss them so much. I talked to Rhonda today and told her about this past week. It was a week ago today that I met Kyle and now it’s all over. It was a lot of fun while it lasted, that’s for sure. But it’s almost better that it ended the way that it did because I know in the back of my mind my relationship with him wouldn’t have really lasted once school started and then I’d have had to break up with him and yeah. We went out for about 24 hours. Oh well, now I move on and focus on school. I have my birthday party on Saturday! I’m so excited for that! And I’m thinking it’ll be even better than last year! And tomorrow I’m going to Kayla’s creek with people, so that’ll be good. So, I’m still being hopeful through it all, things will get better. I’ll get my parents to trust me again and I’ll get my car back and it’ll all be fine. And hopefully when school starts I’ll meet a new guy, and now I better be done writing, Eddie and Meryl will probably come find me soon. More later.

<3 Ava Estelle

Present day me: This was a period where I was thinking about my actions and how I lied to my parents and was caught. I definitely learned from this experience but it was still a struggle between my parents and I when it came to me hanging out with people who I met at work.

August 22, 2009

NSFW entry!

Saturday 9:31am

Need to write down about the last couple of days.

Wednesday – I had the house to myself, so Kyle came over and we hung out. We got hot n heavy in my bed and cuddled. We both put on the Team Blue 5XL shirt. I got ready for work and stopped at the mall and got food, chicken teriyaki and we shared it. We took break together in my car. Then after work I drove home to change and then his Grandma’s house to get some food and to get his stuff from that morning. He ended up leaving it there because mom called me. I told her I was at home watching tv and she told me to go downstairs to listen to the messages. Fuck that. So we rushed home, I called mom back and told her I was in the bathroom and wasn’t feeling good, so she wanted to sit on the phone with me and talk to me about what I’ve eaten that day, I told her I was tired and just wanted to go to bed. So, she said good night and hung up. I laid in my bed with Kyle. We fooled around more, didn’t have sex though. I could be ready, but don’t want to risk it yet. Around midnight we went into the kitchen and looked through the booze. We took some shots of whiskey and crème de cacao. It tasted nasty. We went back upstairs and in bed again. Then around 3 am he got really hungry, so I ended up driving up to the gas station with him. He bought Flipz and stole other things. Came home, ate food, fooled around, and fell asleep together. It was nice. I made him cum during the day and it was a lot faster than Derek. And he said he’d only came from a hand job twice – counting that time. So yeah.

Thursday – we woke up around 11. I took a quick shower and then mom called to tell me they were coming home in a half an hour to pick me up and go to the mall with them. Uhmmm, I was really sore, it hurt to walk and sit down. So, I got off the phone with her, woke up Kyle, went to the bank, then got gas and dropped him off at home. I came home, told mom I was really tired and needed to take a nap, so I stayed home. Called Kyle, went to pick him up, we stopped at his friend’s house. Then came back here. We fooled around and “took naps”, got ready for work and went. I couldn’t work in donations because Kyle was back there, so I was out on the floor. Grr, oh well. After work I stopped at home and then picked up Kyle and we went to the gas station together, ate food, made out, and I took him home and drove up to the cabin. I was greeted by the adults, and we had a long talk about Kyle, saying he’s not good for me because he drinks and does drugs, and has gotten in trouble. But dad wanted to know what he did to get community service – he was in the wrong place at the wrong time – so I went to bed. Exhausted beyond belief.

Friday – (Great day!) Woke up, came home with Meryl, mom came home like an hour later. I called Kyle and we talked for about an hour. I had a talk with mom about Kyle. She knows he stayed over, but we didn’t have sex. And she just thinks that if I go out with him my reputation at school would be shot, because I’d be going out with that type of guy, I kind of understand what she’s saying, but I don’t agree with her and dad, “You’re only as good as the people you hang out with,” <- lame. I know my friends are amazing people, but my life is changing. I’m meeting other people, and everything happens for a reason. I really like Kyle, he’s fun and outgoing and has a life as opposed to Hunter. And like with Hunter I agreed with mom and dad and what they were saying, now with Kyle I don’t agree. So, mom and Meryl went with me to run errands – bank, michael’s, mall and goodwill – got some awesome boots! After that the four of us went out to eat at Milwaukee burger with Oma and Opa. It was so long. I told mom there was a movie night at Delia’s, so I went to that once we made it home. I picked up Kyle, we went to a park. It was a park on the other side of town with a big cliff over the river. So awesome! There were two guys there fishing, a 10-year-old and a freshman. Kyle messed with them by making them jump off with the rope. It got dark out and we walked back to my car on the way he asked me out, we were holding hands and I said yes! 😊 we went in the back seat of my car and uhm, fooled around and then went to the gas station to get some drinks. He drove my car down there. I got 2 mountain dews and some candy, and he stole a colt 45. We went to a school and hung out in my car and then to his grandma’s house to pick up his stuff and then I took him home – came home 20 minutes late. Mom sat me down and talked to me, she didn’t believe I was at Delia’s. I smelled like Kyle’s cologne. I told her I was at movie night and that I thought about what her and I had talked about earlier and it’d be better if I just was friends with Kyle. And I think she believed me. So yeah, came up stairs, laid in bed, called Kyle, told him everything and we want to hang out tonight after work but I don’t know how to cover that up. So yeah. We had phone sex kind of and I was tired so I fell asleep after I hung up with him.

So that’s been my week, pretty great. I really like him and he really likes me, we have fun together and I’d like him to meet my friends like at a poker night or something. And at this very moment mom and dad are talking about meeting him tonight after work 😊. I think dad is a little easier about it than mom. So, I’m hoping for the best.

I’ll write more later.

<3 Ava Estelle

Present day me: it’s fun to read about the shenanigans I got into as a teenager. I knew Kyle wasn’t a good influence but at that point I did care. He was around my age, cute and liked to have fun.

August 17, 2009

Monday

Had to drive up to the cabin and back to pick up the cats because The Phillips’ and their dog came up today. But I am staying in town all week because I have to work every night except Friday. So I think I’m going up there tomorrow during the day, dad will probably make me. So today at work I saw this cute community service worker. I didn’t find out his name, but he’s 17. I got to help in donations with Eric and him for about an hour and a half. And during that Shelby called me up to the registers to take her hanger boxes back and I told her I thought that kid was cute and she agreed. After I was done in donations I went out on the floor and found Craig and Brandon! They followed me around for a little while, which was fun. I told them about the cute kid and they saw him. I had to get my drawer counted down so they left and left me a note on my car saying they waited for half an hour and had to leave. So around 9 I went up to Shelby’s register and asked her if she knew community service’s name and she said, “no, bit he’s got a hickey.” I repeated it and he was behind me! But he left at that time. While in donations he told me he thought I was 20. But no, I’m 16, almost 17! Yay! My birthday party is in less than 2 weeks! Yay! I’m so excited! Well that’s about it for now.

G’night!

<3 Ava Estelle

Present day me: I remember this day and how I was being eyed by this guy and how I thought to myself wow, another good looking guy who’s also into me!

August 16, 2009

Sunday 12:30pm

Yesterday I came back into town and went to Delia’s house then met up with Paula, Devin, Brad, Harry and Craig at the soccer park. We just hung out for a while and then went to Sonic for some ice cream. It was a lot of fun to hang out with them again. Then I drove back to the soccer park with Harry, Brad and Devin while Craig went with Delia. It was fun to be in a car with three guys. Even though Harry tickled me from the side and Brad got me from behind. We did donuts in the parking lot and then I switched cars and got into Delia’s. We went back to her house, and I stayed the night. Eric called me on our way back to her house asking if I’d want to go on a walk with him and Taylor, yeah, I decided not to. Then Taylor texted me asking if I had a crush on Eric, I don’t and I asked her if he had a crush on me and he doesn’t. Just friends – easy. And this morning Devin texted me what I think of him – er how attractive he is. I answered and told him he ranked 8.5 on a scale 1-10. I asked the same question and he answered, “Your eyes are absolutely beautiful, and your hair is also very nice. Your short and that’s good because guys like girls who are shorter than they are, and you’re not a stick which is a plus because contrary to what most girls think guys don’t like girls who are skinny. We like them normal. You’re very nice and you flirt which isn’t a bad thing, you like to be with friends and like to keep things fun. Overall, I’d say you’re very attractive about an 8.75.” So yeah, that took up four texts and made me smile. And that’s about it. I better cover a new journal now. Yay! Another one filled up. 😊

MUCH LOVE TO THE FUTURE ME! <- That’s kind of weird to think about.

<3 Ava Estelle

Present day me: I think I was in my prime and had so many different people around me boosting my self confidence.

August 15, 2009

Saturday – at the cabin

So last night I went to work, ended up being me, Shelby and Jake closing. Both Andrea and Derek called in sick so I couldn’t hang out with him after work. We ended up getting out at 10. But I hung out with Eric and Taylor at the park. It wasn’t really fun, just good to get out. Eric walked me to the van before I left and we hugged. I don’t know what his feelings are for me, he always says hi to me at work and stuff. I’d say we’re just good friends and today I came up to the cabin with Meryl. I will hopefully go back into town for night games with everyone, so yeah. I’m going to have to start a new journal soon. There is only one page left. Wow. And I’d have to say this journal has some juicy stuff in it! My summer of rebellion! Sweet!! That’s it for now.

<3 Ava Estelle

Present day me: Not much to say about this entry other than just remembering simple things from that time. The times between the exciting stuff.

August 12, 2009

NSFW entry!

Wednesday

Hung out with Derek after work. I said I was at Kayla’s playing night games. We went into the woods at the park with the jump. There was a small opening, he laid his jacket on the ground and I laid on top of it. He rubbed my radish and he actually fingered me this time. I gave him a hand job too and made him cum, again 😊. It felt weird, not bad, kind of good, it’ll probably feel better as we do it more. We walked back to the park and talked for about an hour. He walked me back to my car and I drove home. While he was fingering me, my hands got really tingly and my legs did too. I don’t know what that is supposed to mean, so yeah. We might hang out tomorrow or Friday after work. Hopefully it’ll only get better 😊

G’night!

Ava Estelle

Present day me: I really don’t like the word pussy so I use the word radish instead. This interaction was another fun experience for me to learn about my body and his!