May 3, 2008

May 3, 2008

Five months ago, I was enjoying my all-nighter with all my friends. Now life is totally different. It sucks! I’m at the cabin now. Kinda sad, lonely and bored. I’ll try and write down everything I’m thinking. So, we get up to the cabin around 2:30ish and we see Aaron in his driveway pulling in on his atv with a bobcat behind him. And he looks at me. So, we get here and me and Eddie go for a walk down to the boat landing. And I see Aaron leave his house and go down to Tori’s. So, a little while later dad gets here with our bikes, so I’m hyped to go bike riding FINALLY here at the cabin. So, Aaron had come back to his driveway, and we were riding bikes right in front of his house, so he goes back over to Tori’s and we decide to ride our bikes over past there and kind of around the lake. And when we passed, I saw him standing with people there and it just stung me. So yeah. Obviously, I still like him. Which is NOT good, and I don’t know what to do about it. So, I came back inside tried to call Hannah, but she wasn’t available. I texted Tabitha, Beth and Paula. Tabitha is telling me; I shouldn’t like him anymore and just not being that supportive. Beth said oh that’s terrible! And Paula called me, and we talked about it more. Which actually helped. I think I’m just going to focus on this guy “Michael” at my school. Paula said I should accidentally throw a grape at him! I just might do that 😊 so I’ve gotta get over Aaron…ugh! This just sucks. I guess it’s hitting me so hard because I was close to having a boyfriend, but then it didn’t happen. Oh well. Maybe I’ll find someone when I get a job? I hope so.

<3 Ava Estelle

Present day me: Oh boys. There will certainly be many more!!