May 3, 2008

May 3, 2008

Five months ago, I was enjoying my all-nighter with all my friends. Now life is totally different. It sucks! I’m at the cabin now. Kinda sad, lonely and bored. I’ll try and write down everything I’m thinking. So, we get up to the cabin around 2:30ish and we see Aaron in his driveway pulling in on his atv with a bobcat behind him. And he looks at me. So, we get here and me and Eddie go for a walk down to the boat landing. And I see Aaron leave his house and go down to Tori’s. So, a little while later dad gets here with our bikes, so I’m hyped to go bike riding FINALLY here at the cabin. So, Aaron had come back to his driveway, and we were riding bikes right in front of his house, so he goes back over to Tori’s and we decide to ride our bikes over past there and kind of around the lake. And when we passed, I saw him standing with people there and it just stung me. So yeah. Obviously, I still like him. Which is NOT good, and I don’t know what to do about it. So, I came back inside tried to call Hannah, but she wasn’t available. I texted Tabitha, Beth and Paula. Tabitha is telling me; I shouldn’t like him anymore and just not being that supportive. Beth said oh that’s terrible! And Paula called me, and we talked about it more. Which actually helped. I think I’m just going to focus on this guy “Michael” at my school. Paula said I should accidentally throw a grape at him! I just might do that 😊 so I’ve gotta get over Aaron…ugh! This just sucks. I guess it’s hitting me so hard because I was close to having a boyfriend, but then it didn’t happen. Oh well. Maybe I’ll find someone when I get a job? I hope so.

<3 Ava Estelle

Present day me: Oh boys. There will certainly be many more!!

April 5, 2008

April 5, 2008

Saturday

So its about 11 o’clock pm and everyone is in bed. I’m still awake because I’ve been scrapbooking for the past like three hours. Yeah, we’re at the cabin. I didn’t see Aaron at all today but I was really tempted to call him. But Rhonda is telling me not to be obsessive of him and I’m fine really. I’m not feeling weird about not trying to hang out with him while I’m up here. So my new motto is: if he wants me he can come and get me. 😊

So I’m going to stop commenting him and calling him and see how he feels about that! Haha! Suck on that!

Present day me: I’m proud of myself for not becoming too obsessive over this guy.

April 2, 2008

April 2, 2008

Wednesday 8:48pm

Just got done making a scrapbook of Morp! It is pretty awesome!

So, yesterday was April Fool’s Day! And guess what, we had a snow day! Our third snow day. So now we have to make up a day at the end of the year. So, since we had a day off I made cookies, did laundry and talked on the phone with Rhonda for about 2 hours. We talked about Aaron mostly. And we analyzed all my convos with him. It was interesting. But Rhonda told me to stop commenting him and just give him space. So, I just should try and stop thinking about him. Me and him didn’t get to hang out last weekend. But this weekend Saturday night we’ll be at the cabin, so maybe? I don’t know. I’m thinking of scrapbooking with all the pics I have up there. So yeah. I guess that’s all for now. TTYL!

<3 Ava Estelle

Present day me: I really was helped by talking with my friends, especially Rhonda about my Aaron predicament. Also, Morp was  dance my school had that was opposite of Prom.

January 22, 2008

January 22, 2008

Tuesday 9:51pm

So today after school I went up to the cabin to give Aaron his invitation to Hannah’s birthday party! I got up there and as we were driving down the road their bus drove by but I didn’t see them get off and go into their house, so I just stayed inside for a little bit. Then I saw a white beatdown car driving down the road really slowly. I thought it was him, so I decided to call him. 😊 (First time calling him without my friends there with me.) So, I was like, “Can you guess who this is?” he said, “no.” I said, “This is Ava,” and then I said, “Can you guess where I am?” he said, “I don’t know.” So, I said, “I’m at my cabin walking down the driveway!” He perked up a bit at that and I told him I had something for him, and we met outside in his driveway. I gave him the envelope and we just started talking. He talked about cars mostly and I had no clue what he was talking about. But I was trying to understand. So yeah, he said he could go to the party, and we could go together!! But he said he didn’t want to drive…? I don’t know? So, we talked for like a half hour and then we got way too cold so we parted. But it was overall good and not awkward just having it be me and him together.

Ava Estelle

Present day me: I remember being confused why he didn’t want to drive us. I never learned the reason why. This is a fun memory to look back on as an adult because it was the beginning time of me and boys. Hahahahah!