September 7, 2009

September 7, 2009

Labor Day

Monday

NSFW entry!

Yesterday I worked for 8 more hours. I had my pm break with Hunter but luckily Aimee showed up at 1 and I told her to take her break with me at 3. So we talked about my summer happenings and she knows Aaron and Tori because she’s a senior at their school. So I got out at 6 and mom picked me up and brought me to the cabin, Oma, Opa, Uncle Pat, Aunt Blanche, Phoebe and Ryan were here. It was awkward. Most boring thing ever! Anyway, I might buy Delia’s mom’s laptop for $250. So that would be sweet! I don’t know what else to write. School tomorrow. Not excited, started raining in Ecuador today. Great. Oh well, it had to come sometime. I can’t believe it’s only been a month since I started fooling around with Derek. Hehe. And the other night was probably the best. Even though his breath smelt so bad after, and he said I tasted good, so that’s weird to think about. But kind of cool that it happened. If I was 18 I’d have sex with him. Oh well! One more year, but let’s hope I won’t be fooling around with him still in a year. Well I guess that’s it. More later!

<3 Ava Estelle

Present day me: the term raining in Ecuador was a code phrase my friends and I used when it was our time of the month. It’s really funny I wrote hopefully I don’t be still fooling around with Derek in a year….

September 5, 2009

September 5, 2009

NSFW entry!

Saturday

Went to work for 8 hours. Had breaks with Georgia. Saw Hunter and Eric. Kyle got there at 5 and I left at 5:15. So I went out to eat for dinner with Delia and then we went to see The Ugly Truth – rated R!! It was good and made a lot of dirty jokes. Then we visited Devin and Brad and played rock band. After that she dropped me off at the park where I met up with Derek. We fooled around and I let him in my pants this time. It was fun. He ate me out too. That felt good, too. We made out a little bit and then it was midnight. So, I had to go home. We walked together a bit and then parted. Came home, went on Facebook and got a friend request from Gil from work. Haha. We have no mutual friends, so I wasn’t sure who he was at first. So yeah, it’s 1:20am and I need to go to bed.

Pretty good day!

<3 Ava Estelle 😊

Present day me: ohh memories of my escapades from the beginning of my chapter with men!

September 1, 2009

September 1, 2009

NSFW entry!

Tuesday

Woke up to a text from Derek saying he had the house to himself. So I took a shower and such and walked over there. He made some eggs, and we watched tv, and played wii. Then we went up to his room. I didn’t let him under my pants, just everywhere else. I gave him a hand job through his shorts. He came, of course. Then it was 12:15 and I had gotten there at like 9:30. So I walked home in time for Delia  to pick me up. We went out to eat and then went to hang with Andrea and give her camera back. We watched Degrassi and talked of course. After that Delia and I went to Coldstone and she brought me home. Dad took me to work, I walk into the break room and see Hunter, he was reading a book. I looked at the shift plan and then sat down and wrote on my time sheet. He then passed me an envelope with my name on it with a note saying: open when I’m at home or alone. And he left. So I worked my shift and went to Delia’s to watch 10 things I hate about you. I opened the letter at her house. It basically said he’s grateful for the time that he spent with me and told me Happy Birthday, and that he’s not going to try a relationship, friendship or communication with me. He also enclosed $100 in cash.

That’s it.

G’night! Very interesting day.

<3 Ava Estelle

Present day me: I remember opening the letter and reading it and being a tad confused by the perspective he wrote from. The letter itself was written in metaphors from a story he identified with from his experience with me. Then when I opened the envelope with the cash I was in shock. I remember calling Eric, who knew Hunter from school and work and asking him what he thought about this whole letter. He said he’s surprised but also knows Hunter is giving. So, it was a lucky time for me then.

August 31, 2009

August 31, 2009

Monday

NSFW entry!

Sat around all day. Went to work at 5. I was assigned to donations. Who was there? Kyle, Derek, and Hunter. Wow, right? I talked with Kyle. We took break together. Made out a little. Groped me a little. At the end Kyle helped me with floor recovery. It was nice to see him again. But he’s kind of annoying with his whole trying to be gangster shtick. He’s white, not gangster. On well, I’m thinking once he’s done at goodwill, I’ll be done with him and get my car back!

Kyle thought me and Gil have a thing. Nope. I think Gil has a girlfriend.

I told Kyle the only way we’d be able to hang out would be at footballs games. I’m not sure if he liked that idea.

So, I’m almost excited for school to start. New year, new boys to look at! 😊

<3 Ava Estelle

Present day me: At that point the team leaders/supervisors at goodwill didn’t know anything about who I’ve dated or spent time with outside of work so I was placed to work with all the guys I’ve been hanging out with that summer, what a day.

August 25, 2009

August 25, 2009

Tuesday

NSFW entry!

Had off of work today!

This morning I hung out with Derek, in his room, on his bed. He’s a lot more gentle than Kyle, but I think I like Kyle better. And that only lasted like 20 minutes, and I walked home. I got ready, Delia picked me up and we went to Kayla’s, Garret, Harry, Timmy, Devin, Brad, Brandon and Craig and Grace were there. We watched a movie and then played poker. Us four girls ate dinner out and then we decided to have the guys come back over to Kayla’s for some strip poker since her dad wasn’t home! So, it ended up being us girls, Grace, Devin, Brad and Harry, we played strip spoons. It was so much fun! Kayla, me, and Delia were down to our underwear and bras, after Devin and Brad left Harry had to strip down to his boxers. It was so awesome – then Delia had to take me home. So yeah. So great to see everyone again! And I’ll get to see them all and more on Saturday! I’m really excited! So yeah. I talked to Kyle on myspace last night for a bit and told him I still want him in my life and that I miss him, but he signed off in the middle of our conversation. So I messaged him and he told me if I want to talk to him I should call him. So I got his number again and will probably call him tomorrow. I have mixed feelings about this, part of me wants him back and part of me just doesn’t want to go there again. So yeah. That’s about it for now. So more latah!

<3 Ava Estelle

Present day me: I remember how fun it was to play strip spoons with everyone. We laughed a lot and it’s a great memory. It also entertaining to read about how I juggled boys at this time in my life.

August 24, 2009

August 24, 2009

Monday 11:45am

Bored at the cabin.

Oma and Opa are here, I’m extremely bored and just want to see my friends. I miss them so much. I talked to Rhonda today and told her about this past week. It was a week ago today that I met Kyle and now it’s all over. It was a lot of fun while it lasted, that’s for sure. But it’s almost better that it ended the way that it did because I know in the back of my mind my relationship with him wouldn’t have really lasted once school started and then I’d have had to break up with him and yeah. We went out for about 24 hours. Oh well, now I move on and focus on school. I have my birthday party on Saturday! I’m so excited for that! And I’m thinking it’ll be even better than last year! And tomorrow I’m going to Kayla’s creek with people, so that’ll be good. So, I’m still being hopeful through it all, things will get better. I’ll get my parents to trust me again and I’ll get my car back and it’ll all be fine. And hopefully when school starts I’ll meet a new guy, and now I better be done writing, Eddie and Meryl will probably come find me soon. More later.

<3 Ava Estelle

Present day me: This was a period where I was thinking about my actions and how I lied to my parents and was caught. I definitely learned from this experience but it was still a struggle between my parents and I when it came to me hanging out with people who I met at work.

August 22, 2009 (2)

August 22, 2009

Later the same day.

In major deep shit.

Mom and dad came to work and found Kyle waiting for me in my car. Dad told him to get out and he can’t date me and stay away from me. Kyle called his mom to pick him up and mom told her I’m not allowed at his house. I came out of work happy and excited and was greeted by that. Mom and dad standing there pissed off. I can’t drive my car until I find a new job, or until Kyle is done with community service. Then they might negotiate. So, I texted a few people and chatted with Kyle on myspace when I got home. He said it’ll be too hard to see me at work and get over me, so he might just go to jail for 8 days. So yeah. I feel like my parents are being really judgmental. But he wouldn’t of gotten along with my friends – they wouldn’t of liked him. So yeah. I really really want to hang out with my friends though. So bad right now. So yeah. Let’s hope my parents don’t make me cancel my birthday party. I talked with Brandon, Garrett, and Cathy on facebook. I feel sad and bad and guilty. But it was fun while it lasted. My second relationship of the summer only lasted for almost 24 hours. Ugh!

I hate this. G’night

Ava Estelle

Present day me: My parents were skeptical about me wanting to just be friends with Kyle so when I told them I was going to night games that night they came to my work to try and bust me in the act. They found Kyle in my car before I got out of work so they were alarmed and then made the decision to force him away from me. In retrospect it was a good move but at the time I was really frustrated and mad.

August 22, 2009

August 22, 2009

NSFW entry!

Saturday 9:31am

Need to write down about the last couple of days.

Wednesday – I had the house to myself, so Kyle came over and we hung out. We got hot n heavy in my bed and cuddled. We both put on the Team Blue 5XL shirt. I got ready for work and stopped at the mall and got food, chicken teriyaki and we shared it. We took break together in my car. Then after work I drove home to change and then his Grandma’s house to get some food and to get his stuff from that morning. He ended up leaving it there because mom called me. I told her I was at home watching tv and she told me to go downstairs to listen to the messages. Fuck that. So we rushed home, I called mom back and told her I was in the bathroom and wasn’t feeling good, so she wanted to sit on the phone with me and talk to me about what I’ve eaten that day, I told her I was tired and just wanted to go to bed. So, she said good night and hung up. I laid in my bed with Kyle. We fooled around more, didn’t have sex though. I could be ready, but don’t want to risk it yet. Around midnight we went into the kitchen and looked through the booze. We took some shots of whiskey and crème de cacao. It tasted nasty. We went back upstairs and in bed again. Then around 3 am he got really hungry, so I ended up driving up to the gas station with him. He bought Flipz and stole other things. Came home, ate food, fooled around, and fell asleep together. It was nice. I made him cum during the day and it was a lot faster than Derek. And he said he’d only came from a hand job twice – counting that time. So yeah.

Thursday – we woke up around 11. I took a quick shower and then mom called to tell me they were coming home in a half an hour to pick me up and go to the mall with them. Uhmmm, I was really sore, it hurt to walk and sit down. So, I got off the phone with her, woke up Kyle, went to the bank, then got gas and dropped him off at home. I came home, told mom I was really tired and needed to take a nap, so I stayed home. Called Kyle, went to pick him up, we stopped at his friend’s house. Then came back here. We fooled around and “took naps”, got ready for work and went. I couldn’t work in donations because Kyle was back there, so I was out on the floor. Grr, oh well. After work I stopped at home and then picked up Kyle and we went to the gas station together, ate food, made out, and I took him home and drove up to the cabin. I was greeted by the adults, and we had a long talk about Kyle, saying he’s not good for me because he drinks and does drugs, and has gotten in trouble. But dad wanted to know what he did to get community service – he was in the wrong place at the wrong time – so I went to bed. Exhausted beyond belief.

Friday – (Great day!) Woke up, came home with Meryl, mom came home like an hour later. I called Kyle and we talked for about an hour. I had a talk with mom about Kyle. She knows he stayed over, but we didn’t have sex. And she just thinks that if I go out with him my reputation at school would be shot, because I’d be going out with that type of guy, I kind of understand what she’s saying, but I don’t agree with her and dad, “You’re only as good as the people you hang out with,” <- lame. I know my friends are amazing people, but my life is changing. I’m meeting other people, and everything happens for a reason. I really like Kyle, he’s fun and outgoing and has a life as opposed to Hunter. And like with Hunter I agreed with mom and dad and what they were saying, now with Kyle I don’t agree. So, mom and Meryl went with me to run errands – bank, michael’s, mall and goodwill – got some awesome boots! After that the four of us went out to eat at Milwaukee burger with Oma and Opa. It was so long. I told mom there was a movie night at Delia’s, so I went to that once we made it home. I picked up Kyle, we went to a park. It was a park on the other side of town with a big cliff over the river. So awesome! There were two guys there fishing, a 10-year-old and a freshman. Kyle messed with them by making them jump off with the rope. It got dark out and we walked back to my car on the way he asked me out, we were holding hands and I said yes! 😊 we went in the back seat of my car and uhm, fooled around and then went to the gas station to get some drinks. He drove my car down there. I got 2 mountain dews and some candy, and he stole a colt 45. We went to a school and hung out in my car and then to his grandma’s house to pick up his stuff and then I took him home – came home 20 minutes late. Mom sat me down and talked to me, she didn’t believe I was at Delia’s. I smelled like Kyle’s cologne. I told her I was at movie night and that I thought about what her and I had talked about earlier and it’d be better if I just was friends with Kyle. And I think she believed me. So yeah, came up stairs, laid in bed, called Kyle, told him everything and we want to hang out tonight after work but I don’t know how to cover that up. So yeah. We had phone sex kind of and I was tired so I fell asleep after I hung up with him.

So that’s been my week, pretty great. I really like him and he really likes me, we have fun together and I’d like him to meet my friends like at a poker night or something. And at this very moment mom and dad are talking about meeting him tonight after work 😊. I think dad is a little easier about it than mom. So, I’m hoping for the best.

I’ll write more later.

<3 Ava Estelle

Present day me: it’s fun to read about the shenanigans I got into as a teenager. I knew Kyle wasn’t a good influence but at that point I did care. He was around my age, cute and liked to have fun.

August 18, 2009

August 18, 2009

Today I woke up and had to drive to the cabin to see the Phillips. On my way up I texted Eric asking if he knew the community service kid’s name. He didn’t. And as I was driving down the road before the Uhaul place I see him in a car next to me! I waved and he recognized me, and I just laughed. I called Rhonda and told her about him and a few other things. Then I was at the cabin and came home and went to work. I saw cute community service kid 😊 He asked me about when he saw me on the road and we laughed about it. Later he asked to use my phone, and I let him and when he came back, I asked him his name and he said Kyle. I ended up giving him my number and we talked for like 3 hours. He really wanted to hang out tonight but instead it’s going to be tomorrow. And after work he said he really likes me and wants to have a relationship with me, and I’d like that too. So, no more Derek. I was supposed to hang out with him tomorrow, but I won’t now. So, I’m going to have to tell him that I’ve found another man. So yeah, that’s about it. I have a feeling I will have a ton to write about tomorrow.

G’night!

<3 Ava Estelle

Present day me: this is a fun memory to revisit!

August 17, 2009

August 17, 2009

Monday

Had to drive up to the cabin and back to pick up the cats because The Phillips’ and their dog came up today. But I am staying in town all week because I have to work every night except Friday. So I think I’m going up there tomorrow during the day, dad will probably make me. So today at work I saw this cute community service worker. I didn’t find out his name, but he’s 17. I got to help in donations with Eric and him for about an hour and a half. And during that Shelby called me up to the registers to take her hanger boxes back and I told her I thought that kid was cute and she agreed. After I was done in donations I went out on the floor and found Craig and Brandon! They followed me around for a little while, which was fun. I told them about the cute kid and they saw him. I had to get my drawer counted down so they left and left me a note on my car saying they waited for half an hour and had to leave. So around 9 I went up to Shelby’s register and asked her if she knew community service’s name and she said, “no, bit he’s got a hickey.” I repeated it and he was behind me! But he left at that time. While in donations he told me he thought I was 20. But no, I’m 16, almost 17! Yay! My birthday party is in less than 2 weeks! Yay! I’m so excited! Well that’s about it for now.

G’night!

<3 Ava Estelle

Present day me: I remember this day and how I was being eyed by this guy and how I thought to myself wow, another good looking guy who’s also into me!