April 13, 2008

April 13, 2008


I have gotten 2 messages from Courtney. Here’s what one said, subject: hi. I got it on April 6th. “Hi Ava, what is up sorry we have not talked lately it just seemed like you did not want to me very much please write back and maybe we could do something again. Courtney P.S. Please write back and what is your cell number”

I haven’t written her back. Then I received another one today. Subject: we should talk. Well, all it basically said was, if you want things to be good again between us you have to make the first move. I read it out loud to Meryl and she said it sounds like we’d broken up. Haha. Yeah, soooo I’m not going to message her back. A) I’m grounded from the computer still and B) I honestly don’t want to.

So, since it’s Sunday night it’s the end of another weekend. It had snowed here Friday night, but it was mostly gone this afternoon. So, we stayed at the cabin Saturday night. There was no sign of Aaron being home. So, no luck there. Oh well, probably after last weekend he’s too embarrassed? That would be pretty funny. Um, so I took him off my top 8 on myspace today. I think I’m just going to go slow, way slow. And only be obsessive to myself. Because everyone else makes fun of me. But whatever. I would totally go out with him, but I don’t know…  my impression of him isn’t what I thought he’d be like…but whatever. If he wants me, he can come and get me and if I happen to flirt or be some kind of bait I hope he’ll enjoy it! Even if he does have a girlfriend, I don’t care!

Present day me: Wow. Reading this at age 29, makes me feel bad for Courtney. I handled my friendship with her very poorly and back then I thought I was being cool and getting closer with other people. It was a mess. Thankfully I have been able to reconnect with Courtney as adults and I call her a good friend today.

I remember having thoughts of who’d have a crush on me, who’d be looking at me when and just feeling into boys so much and looking cute. Teenage years, sigh. I’m glad to have made it through those times.

February 14, 2008

February 14, 2008


Hey, now I’m grounded from the computer. Ugh! But I have Eddie able to sneak on every now and then. So tomorrow night I’m staying at Hannah’s house with Rhonda, Beth, and hopefully Tabitha. If she texts me back telling me she can go. And so tonight was valentines. So, me and Rhonda wanted to call Aaron. So, she called me on my home phone, and I put my cell on speakerphone, and called him. But somebody was online! I tried like three times! But anyway, Eddie was online, and he wanted to send Aaron a comment. So, he logged into my MySpace account and sent him one saying, “This is Eddie, Ava’s little brother,” and Aaron commented back, “Hi Eddie tell your sister is retarded” Yeah! Those exact words! So, I commented him back saying, “Haha why is she retarded?” to sound like I was Eddie. So hopefully he’ll comment back tonight. And I’ll check it in the morning. But he could always not comment back and be a jerk about it. Grr!

 Well after this commenting fiasco I called Rhonda and told her about it. And she said, “Wow, why would he say that?” And I was thinking, what does that even mean? He wrote it like he’s in third grade or something.  Yeah, and Eddie listened in on like my whole conversation with Rhonda and he said, “Aaron was just joking,” and that’s what mom said too. And I’m realizing that me and him are really different. We don’t have anything in common except our taste in music. That’s pretty much it. So yeah, I think I’ll just look at him as a friend and see how that goes. Plus, since he got that stupid haircut, that kind of makes me pissed. Because I really liked his hair. But oh well, I guess I’ll just wait til he comments back. I really really hope he does. Well, that’s it for now.

Happy Valentines Day!

<3 Ava Estelle

Present day me: I don’t remember why I was grounded from the computer…maybe because I didn’t do the dishes correctly the first time (I got frustrated with large pans easily). I also am glad I didn’t get too upset about this commenting situation. I’m grateful for the support I had with my brother and mom and friends when I needed it.