April 26, 2008

April 26, 2008

Saturday at the cabin. 7:50pm Listening to Bust a Move.

So today was a day of realization, I guess. I found out both Aaron and Tori like each other. And duh, there’s nothing I can do about it. So, I’m going to move on, completely. Me and him have like nothing in common. So, I don’t think me and him would work out. Jeez, I really want to talk to like David about all this. I talked to Tabitha and Hannah about it and a little bit with Rhonda. But I really wish I had other candidates for a boyfriend. But I don’t. Oh well, there is this one boy that I’ve seen around school, I think he’s a sophomore. He has curly dark hair, and he sits at the lunch table next to ours. He sits by Hannah’s “Henry” (the guy that looks like her dream guy she’s drawn in her sketchbook) so me and Hannah made my guy’s name be “Michael.” I really like that name. But I just wish I could talk to David and get his opinion and see what went wrong. Maybe me and Aaron just need to get to know each other better?? Well, I guess I’ll just have to wait and see what happens like over the summer. Have another amazing party and have Aaron attend. 😊 I can still flirt with him, right?? I need Hannah to give me tips on that. Sooo, anyway I’m still really bummed without an ipod. But me and Rhonda and maybe Tabitha or Hannah are going to have a baby-sitting business this summer and I’m thinking of working at DQ so that’s all for now.

<3 Ava Estelle

Present day me: I got myself so hung up on liking certain boys and finding comfort in it. Typical teenage angst. I’m really thankful I had so many friends to talk to about things.

January 20, 2008

January 20, 2008

Sunday

Copied from notes on my ipod touch <3

Friday, Jan. 18, 2008 – 4:47pm

Just found out Aaron wants a girlfriend!!!! Said so on his headline on myspace! But the comments I sent him last night (3-4) he deleted! Well one of them had my cell number on it… but still why would he delete them?? Rhonda said maybe he wants to keep his plans a secret from his friends, because then that means he’s coming to the mall or something… but I don’t really know for sure. I’m staying at Hannah’s house tonight with Rhonda and we’re going to call Aaron and Rhonda said she’ll act like a stalker and ask him why he deleted my comments. 😊 I just hope he’s home and not doing anything and would want to talk to me at least. And I said I’ll have to be all flirty because he’s looking for a girlfriend now and I’m pretty desperate for a boyfriend. I hope when we call him, he doesn’t say, “Guess what I did today! I asked a girl out named (insert name here) and now we’re going out!” If he says that I’m going to scream! Or (we were joking around) if he said, “Guess what I found out today! I’m a homosexual!” Hannah and Rhonda would laugh, and I’d start crying…ugh! Why can’t I get to know him better? I need to be more outgoing or flirty…yeah.

Yesterday – Jan. 19, 2008 – 9:11pm

So last night I stayed at Hannah’s with Rhonda. It was a lot of fun! We had mashed potatoes, gravy and turkey for dinner 😊 Then we hung out in her room and called Aaron 😊😊😊 Rhonda talked to him first and then I did. He sounded bored when on the phone with Rhonda and sounded happy when he talked to me! We talked about my cabin and his house and why he deleted my comments! He said his brother sent him some comments that he didn’t want anyone to see so he went crazy on the deleting. Yeah, likely story. But he said he had an old pinball machine! It sounds really cool, and he has a piano. But he doesn’t know how to play chopsticks, so I told him I’ll teach him sometime. We talked about movies too. He’s like, “I can never sit still,” and I’m like, “then what do you do at like movies and stuff?” he’s like, “I get up and walk around or I go to the bathroom 20 times,” I’m like, “there’s not reason to see a movie then,” but he said, “well it’s just chick flicks I don’t like.” And I’m like, “Well, yeah you’re a guy. I’d never take you to a chick flick.” He said, “well I’d sit through one if it was with a girl I really like,” I KNOW!!!! That made me smile. I’m just like, “Oh, that’s good to know.” Yeah, when we were talking about his pinball machine, he told me his backdoor is always open. And that I can go into his house whenever. Yeah, I gave him my cell number so he could call me today telling me if he could go to the mall or not. So, after that we just hung out. Went to sleep at midnight and woke up at 9. Good nine hours of sleep. So, Rhonda’s mom picked me up and took me home. I took a shower and got ready for the mall! Thinking that Aaron would be there (I was getting too excited for it) But he wasn’t there!!! We walked around the mall like a ton of times looking for him, but we never did 🙁 so we gave up. I found a dress and that was it.

Ava Estelle

Present day me: My friends back then were so funny. This makes me miss myspace too and being able to leave comments and read people’s headlines. We had nicknames for everything back then, especially sexual things so when we learned we were having mashed potatoes, gravy, and turkey for dinner that night we giggled to each other about the inside jokes we had. I also love those foods together still! Reading about Aaron and my conversation on the phone made me laugh a lot. His pinball machine was real, although I never was brave enough to go to his house and enter through the back door myself. Also, reading this entry today I’m not certain he was flirting with me with those lines, but I felt like I was trying to flirt with him!