May 15, 2009
Didn’t have to work today!
Today during school Brandon gave me a hug every time he saw me, which was nice 😊. And after school him and I went shopping and got stuff for Rhonda. It was good, none of that awkwardness and I felt like we were a couple kind of. He made fun of me in a flirty way, and we like had a good time. I took him home and then picked up Delia and we went out for dinner. It was really good! After that we went to Target and then Borders and then Garrett’s house with Harry and we learned to play poker! 😊 I took her home and got back home around 11. I had an awesome day. And Brandon and I have like three or four inside jokes, shit stick, blow job with your hand, you look so lonely in the rain – I’m hot – take your shirt off. This is our song – Hotel California. Any who I think and hope Brandon likes me, and maybe/hopefully will ask me out? Oh! And we went to Goodwill to get my check, while I was filling out my time off sheet in the break room I was talking to Derek, and later Brandon asked me who I was talking to while I was in there. Hehehe. 😊 so that’s about it. Tomorrow night is Rhonda’s birthday party!
<3 Ava Estelle 😊
Present day me: I remember learning how to play poker and thinking I was so cool!
April 26, 2009
YESTERDAY! Pretty great day!
I went to the mall with Brandon and Delia. I picked up Brandon at his house and we met Delia there. He wanted to get boxers, so we went all over. At Old Navy we found some with crabs on them, which I thought were so funny! And then we saw Hannah with Stacey! Weird, we thought Stacey hated her. They found us in Hot Topic. And Hannah stupid bitched with Stacey the whole two seconds we were talking with them. Brandon had gone to the back to look at stuff so us four girls were talking. Delia and I turned around to look for Brandon and those two just left without saying bye. It was awkward. We were walking down by Maurice’s and Riley (from middle school) comes up to us and gives us all hugs, she was with her boyfriend. That was weird, too. So, after the mall we went to Border’s. Brandon got a zombie magazine. Then we went to Target and looked at boxers there. There was a pair with “I <3 some girl’s name.” Delia and I are going to get that pair and put our names on it for his birthday along with the crab pair. After Target I had to take Bradon home because he was invited to go to Abby’s to see Gabby. Yeah. Bad, but he didn’t’ seem like he really wanted to go there. After that Delia and I were just driving around and we decided to go to Perkins. We picked up Andrea because we wanted a third person.
So we ate there and then went to Coldstone and sat in the car and ate our ice cream and talked, two people we knew were working at Coldstone, so that was kinda weird to see them. Then we went to drop off Andrea. We ended up staying there and talking for like two hours. And Delia helped me realize something about Brandon. We analyzed his past relationships and figured he had been pressured into all of them and I should talk to him saying that I don’t want to pressure him, I want to know what he’s feeling but I don’t want him to pull this “I don’t know how I feel” or “I have to think about it” because that isn’t a good answer. But whatever. I’m thinking of having him teach me how to play videogames – then we’d have something in common. 😊
Well that’s it for now.
<3 Ava Estelle
Present day me: The stupid bitch saying was used when one person would try and talk at the same time as another person, usually the end of the sentence or talking part. It made some of us laugh when we had a name for it and realized how much Hannah did that with everyone she was around. Brandon DID end up dating Gabby, after this date. So knowing he had spent all day with me and Delia, then seeing Gabby was telling…. This is a comforting entry to revisit as an adult. I had so much packed into one day!
April 22, 2009
Today was a pretty good day. I didn’t have to work! So I had a free day. (work is going pretty good, btw). So I went out to eat with Delia and Grace at Texas Roadhouse. It was pretty good. We talked about people and the guys and stuff. After we ate we stood outside for a little while and talked, and then Grace had to go home and clean so Delia and I decided to drive around, we got gas and then drove up by Rhonda’s house and ended up stopping at Brandon’s and talked to him for a while. So yeah. It was a good day. And I think hopefully Brandon and I will finally get to that shopping trip on Saturday. If mom and dad let me go. Of course. so yeah that’s about it for now.
<3 Ava Estelle
Present day me: I miss having so many friends to do things with and make memories with.
April 19, 2009
I have a ton to write!
Last Thursday Andrea told me about something Hannah had said in Hawaii to Rhonda, about me. Rhonda had told Andrea, who told Bridget, who told Samantha. So, in biology Andrea and Samantha told me what she said. Rhonda and her had been talking about me and Brandon and how we’d be cute together and Hannah said, “Well, Ava has a nice smile and beautiful eyes and just a pretty face but I don’t think Brandon would go out with her because she doesn’t have a body as perfect as mine.” Yeah. So, I’m pissed off at her. After all that I’ve done for her, staying a true friend through everything. She just says that and yeah. I’m done with defending her and being her “best” friend. I knew she was superficial and selfish, but I didn’t think it was this bad. So, Rhonda is as pissed off about this as I am. Rhonda wanted to slap her when she said that. So, her and I and pretty much everyone else is going to ignore her tomorrow. Which will be interesting. Friday came and went. Hannah wasn’t at school so I recruited people for my plan to ignore her, which worked good. I had to work for three hours. It was a long three hours. But I made it through…. Saturday was the band thrift sale. I picked up Rhonda and we hung out there for about an hour with Abby, Brandon and Craig. It was okay. I talked to Brandon about maybe hanging out that night. But he ended up having to stay home and do homework.
Rhonda and I went out to eat at Culver’s for lunch and we sat at the high school and talked until her mom came to pick her up. Since I had a car and some money, I did some shopping. I got page protectors for my summer scrapbook. Which is so awesome! And came home and chilled until about 7 o’clock. I called Rhonda and Brandon and decided to go up to Rhonda’s neighborhood to hang out with Rhonda and Brad and Devin. We walked over to the guys’ house and played Rock Band! I got to sing, it was fun. Devin and Brad were invited over to Garrett’s, so I gave them a ride with Rhonda. We hung out there for a bit and then I had to take Rhonda home but I had to go back to Garrett’s to get my phone. I ended up hanging out there for a couple hours with Harry, Timmy, Garrett, Devin and Brad. It was fun being the only girl. 😊 we had a ”talking circle” instead of the guys’ usual pow wow. I took Devin and Brad home and then came home. It was a fun night!
Today I went to self defense class with Grace and Maddy. That was fun too. And my hand hurts to more later!
WORK FOR 5 FRICKEN HOURS TOMORROW! UGH!!!
WORK SUCKS. LIFE IS ALRIGHT. Hopefully going to hang out with Brandon soon?
<3 Ava Estelle 😊
Present day me: I wish I wasn’t such a “mean girl” when I learned about what Hannah said about me. I think because so many other girls already knew before me and I was told by two girls who weren’t even hanging out with us in Hawaii, it made it more intense to react the way I did. I’m not proud of that choice. Ladies, especially in high school: communicate with your friends! If you find something out that you aren’t happy about TALK to your friend and get things straightened out!