high school – Ava's Journal Entries!

May 15, 2009

Friday

Didn’t have to work today!

Today during school Brandon gave me a hug every time he saw me, which was nice 😊. And after school him and I went shopping and got stuff for Rhonda. It was good, none of that awkwardness and I felt like we were a couple kind of. He made fun of me in a flirty way, and we like had a good time. I took him home and then picked up Delia and we went out for dinner. It was really good! After that we went to Target and then Borders and then Garrett’s house with Harry and we learned to play poker! 😊 I took her home and got back home around 11. I had an awesome day. And Brandon and I have like three or four inside jokes, shit stick, blow job with your hand, you look so lonely in the rain – I’m hot – take your shirt off. This is our song – Hotel California. Any who I think and hope Brandon likes me, and maybe/hopefully will ask me out? Oh! And we went to Goodwill to get my check, while I was filling out my time off sheet in the break room I was talking to Derek, and later Brandon asked me who I was talking to while I was in there. Hehehe. 😊 so that’s about it. Tomorrow night is Rhonda’s birthday party!

<3 Ava Estelle 😊

Present day me: I remember learning how to play poker and thinking I was so cool!

May 7, 2009

Thursday

Last night was my last band concert ever! Yay! It was a lot of fun. Yesterday after school was really good. I took Brandon and Delia home. Brandon and I walked to my car, we talked about Rhonda. We drove back to the school and picked up Delia. We listened to Brandon’s zune. He has some strange music on that thing. Dropped him off. We went to my house to pick up some stuff and then went over to Delia’s. We stopped at Walgreens and I got eyebrow trimmers and bobby pins. I stopped to get gas and then got ready at Delia’s house. I wore her yellow skirt and a pretty dragonfly clip in my hair. We had brought a bunch of my scrapbooks over so we looked at those while we ate Culver’s for dinner. Then we went to the concert! We played first. Once that was done we got pie and went and looked at the art show. Brandon had a cool teapot. Tabitha had a pot thing too. There were a lot of cool pieces. Hannah had the painting of us four. Sort of awkward. She also had a self portrait. Really freaky. So I hung out with Delia, Brandon, Rhonda, Tabitha, Rayla and Brad. We took some good pictures. And afterwards Delia and I went to sonic and I took her home. Today it started raining in Ecuador. And I have to go to school tomorrow. It’s Rhonda’s birthday and I have to work. So yeah. That’s about it for now.

<3 Ava Estelle 😊

OH! And Erin and Nate are going out.

APRIL -> Bad friendship month.

MAY -> good relationship month! Hayley & Elliott, Erin & Nate, Devin & Kimberley, am I next??? Maybe???

Present day me: I really enjoyed being in band! I miss it nowadays. I remember taking lots of pictures that night and putting them in a scrapbook. The term, raining in Ecuador, means that my period started. Back then, I would have really heavy flow the second day and I would try to stay home from school every time.

April 30, 2009

Thursday

So last night I hung out with Ashley. We went to TJ Maxx to get some stuff for her bathroom and then we ate dinner at Pad Thai. I had egg rolls which were really good. It was good to hang out with just her. She is so funny and a great person to talk to about stuff. I told her I like Brandon and she supports that which makes me happy and then we went to the park and walked around. We sang along to Cobra Starship songs in the car, it was so much fun!

And today. I had asked Rhonda to talk to Brandon to tell him that he should talk to me during lunch. She did. But I chickened out and didn’t talk to him. I want to ask him about just dating instead of a serious relationship. Haha or friends with benefits 😊. But who knows. I want answers but am afraid to get them. Ugh!

Anyway, I haven’t talked to Hannah in ages or seen her even. Whatever though.

G’night!

<3 Ava Estelle 😊

Present day me: Even though I had all of these friends to hang out with I was still shy at times…

April 19, 2009

Sunday

I have a ton to write!

Last Thursday Andrea told me about something Hannah had said in Hawaii to Rhonda, about me. Rhonda had told Andrea, who told Bridget, who told Samantha. So, in biology Andrea and Samantha told me what she said. Rhonda and her had been talking about me and Brandon and how we’d be cute together and Hannah said, “Well, Ava has a nice smile and beautiful eyes and just a pretty face but I don’t think Brandon would go out with her because she doesn’t have a body as perfect as mine.” Yeah. So, I’m pissed off at her. After all that I’ve done for her, staying a true friend through everything. She just says that and yeah. I’m done with defending her and being her “best” friend. I knew she was superficial and selfish, but I didn’t think it was this bad. So, Rhonda is as pissed off about this as I am. Rhonda wanted to slap her when she said that. So, her and I and pretty much everyone else is going to ignore her tomorrow. Which will be interesting. Friday came and went. Hannah wasn’t at school so I recruited people for my plan to ignore her, which worked good. I had to work for three hours. It was a long three hours. But I made it through…. Saturday was the band thrift sale. I picked up Rhonda and we hung out there for about an hour with Abby, Brandon and Craig. It was okay. I talked to Brandon about maybe hanging out that night. But he ended up having to stay home and do homework.

Rhonda and I went out to eat at Culver’s for lunch and we sat at the high school and talked until her mom came to pick her up. Since I had a car and some money, I did some shopping. I got page protectors for my summer scrapbook. Which is so awesome! And came home and chilled until about 7 o’clock. I called Rhonda and Brandon and decided to go up to Rhonda’s neighborhood to hang out with Rhonda and Brad and Devin. We walked over to the guys’ house and played Rock Band! I got to sing, it was fun. Devin and Brad were invited over to Garrett’s, so I gave them a ride with Rhonda. We hung out there for a bit and then I had to take Rhonda home but I had to go back to Garrett’s to get my phone. I ended up hanging out there for a couple hours with Harry, Timmy, Garrett, Devin and Brad. It was fun being the only girl. 😊 we had a ”talking circle” instead of the guys’ usual pow wow. I took Devin and Brad home and then came home. It was a fun night!

Today I went to self defense class with Grace and Maddy. That was fun too. And my hand hurts to more later!

WORK FOR 5 FRICKEN HOURS TOMORROW! UGH!!!

WORK SUCKS. LIFE IS ALRIGHT. Hopefully going to hang out with Brandon soon?

<3 Ava Estelle 😊

Present day me: I wish I wasn’t such a “mean girl” when I learned about what Hannah said about me. I think because so many other girls already knew before me and I was told by two girls who weren’t even hanging out with us in Hawaii, it made it more intense to react the way I did. I’m not proud of that choice. Ladies, especially in high school: communicate with your friends! If you find something out that you aren’t happy about TALK to your friend and get things straightened out!

April 1, 2009

Wednesday

April Fools Day!

Today was an okay day. Tabitha and I took all of Rhonda’s stuff out of her locker and put it in Tabitha’s. But Tabitha blew it after 6^th hour. Oh well. After school I went to the mall with Delia. It was good. I got applications and we talked a lot about everyone in our group. She found out that I like Brandon and I found out that she still kind of likes Devin. So, we’re both going to talk to them and ask what they think of us. Hopefully it’ll go well. And we made a pact that if for prom no guys asks us out then we’ll ask them. It’s kind of a given everyone needs a date for prom. Maybe Brandon will be mine? Hehe. Who knows. So yeah, that was my day pretty much. Oh! And I’m going to have a party on April 17^th!

G’night!

<3 Ava Estelle <3

Present day me: I don’t remember this day in particular reading it as an adult. I do remember deciding on a date for prom. It didn’t end up being Brandon, unfortunately.

October 5, 2008

Sunday 8:07pm

So, this past weekend was homecoming! Friday was spirit day at school, so everyone dressed up in their school attire and beads. I painted my nails while and purple. They looked so cool. Friday night was the parade and game. We marched in the parade, played Ghost Busters. It ended at the park, and we hung out there, had dinner and got in free at the game. It got really cold, Tabitha and I were freezing. We got hot chocolate, stood in the stands, and danced to the drumline and marching band. Midge hung out with me, Tabitha, and Rhonda. Dad picked me up from the game and I came home to Brenda, Bill, Elaine and John. I did a puzzle with Elaine. Then went to bed. The next morning, we went to the parade for the university and ate lunch at Erbert & Gerbert’s. I got home and got ready for the dance, curled my hair, painted all my nails white and took a few pictures.

Then went over to Erin’s. We get there, take pictures, and then go to Panera. Only me, Rhonda, Tabitha and Erin go to Panera because Hannah went over to Derek’s for dinner. We also went to Coldstone. Then mom picked us up to take us to the dance. We had to wait in line for a bit. The dance was alright. The music wasn’t that good. I got a few pictures. Then left with Erin around 11. I was so tired. And it started raining in Ecuador today. So, I might not go to school tomorrow. 😊

<3 Ava Estelle

Present day me: The term raining in Ecuador meant it was my time of the month. My friends and I would say that to each other, except the country would be different for each person. I like revisiting this entry because it’s about a time in my life where friends were my top priority and we all had fun together.

September 27, 2008

Saturday 10:08pm

Today we had a massive garage sale. Our family got a total of $394.97! Rhonda came over for the day, too. We walked around the neighborhood, talked about my freshman buddy, and lots of other things. We called Aaron but he was sleeping. So, then Rhonda left, and the sale was pretty much ending so I helped move some more stuff by the street. And we had a bonfire, we got pasta for dinner. And then guess who called me back: Aaron! Haha we only talked for 5 minutes – school, told him we sold our green, nasty chair that we had at the cabin. Spencer had come over to his house, so he had to go. So, I called Rhonda and we talked about getting Aaron to go to homecoming with us. He could bring Tori if he’d want. Yeah, then we got done talking. I went out by the fire, and we listened to the dirty/funny songs I have on my ipod. We did the cha cha slide and I texted with Tabitha and Tori. That’s about it.

G’night!

<3 Ava Estelle

Present day me: I like this entry to share about a typical Saturday in 2008.

September 14, 2008

Sunday 8:02pm

Last night was Tabitha’s 15^th birthday party. It was so much fun! We all got there around 7. I had made a cake, chocolate. There were 7 of us, Tabitha, Hannah, Rhonda, Bailey, Grace, Maddy and me. So, we just sit around her living room and all talk about stuff. Then at like 8:30 we must go to the grocery store to pick up more smores stuff and drumstix (ice cream cones) so Grace drives all of us in her van! We get to the store and kind of just all split up and get food. We knew this one fat guy who worked there, and he gave them the marshmallows and such. We took video and pictures while Rhonda, Bailey, Tabitha, and Hannah were buying the food. Grace, Maddy and I ran around the store telling everyone “Happy Saturday Night” that we saw. They didn’t like that very much. So, we get back to the cashiers and those four weren’t there so we wait next to the doors for them to come back in looking for us and three guys who look like seniors leave, they’re looking at us. We end up going out there and Grace is like, “They’re probably in the van, I left it unlocked.” Turns out they were. We all pile in and go back to Tabitha’s house. We unpack the drumstix and put in the CD that I made. We listened to the vagina song by the bloodhound gang. Then tried to find the music video on youtube but we found other *ahem* music videos. Then we ate my cake, and put chocolate frosting on our faces, took pictures, danced to the music. Then we kinda chilled out for a bit and played Never Have I Ever, right before Rhonda left. After she left, we all went outside and over to the elementary school nearby to play night games. We walk over to the playground and see three guys playing frisbee in the parking lot. Grace walks over to them and asks to play, then we realized they were the same guys who were at the grocery store. They said they were 22 and 23. We told them our real ages. Then they left, we just stand there on the edge of the grass. Then two guys and a girl come over to us and ask which middle school we went to. We walked away from them; they were smoking something. Grace yells back at them, “we’re from out of town!” they just insulted us while we were walking away. They were following us and then they left. We didn’t want to walk directly to her house, so we just stood by the batting net for a while and talked, then went and walked around her house the long way, in the shadows. We go back in and just sit and talk and chilled. We all went to sleep around 3 and woke up at like 8ish. And I was the last one there, we also had smores for breakfast. It was a really fun party!

<3 Ava Estelle

Present day me: The town I grew up in had weird people in it. This memory was a fun one to revisit. I remember telling strangers “Happy Saturday Night” and my two new friends finding it so funny and entertaining to do. I felt so cool!

June 1 & May 3, 2008

There are a few entries here and there throughout my notebooks that represent two days. I would finish writing an entry in the beginning of the notebook then I’d flip to an empty page near the end and write down information from that day. Then when I’d reach that page in the future, I’d write down information from that day from the same prompts. This is one of those pages. Line 1 is from May 3^rd, 2008 and Line 2 is from June 1, 2008.

When I get to this sheet….say the date.

Today is May 3^rd, 2008 Saturday
Today is June 1^st, 2008 Sunday

It’s 5:56pm, at the cabin, still single ☹
9:18pm at home, yep…doing okay

Just listening to Love in your Arms by Eleventy7
Listening to Green Onions by Booker T & The MGs

And still have no ipod.
Ipod back! 😊😊

No job. Thinking about working at DQ.
Hmm…babysitting this summer?

Talked to Paula today.
Talked to Rhonda. <3

I’m pretty bored.
Getting ready for bed.

Tell me about your life! <3 Ava
Saw Aaron with out a shirt on today! Pretty hot! 😊 I’m over him, but I can still admire his bod, right? Went paddleboating today! Not that great actually. Got a good tan, though. 😊

G’night. <3

Present day me: I really like that I decided to do this within my journals. Its fun to see where I was and where I’m at when I get to those pages.

April 26, 2008

Saturday at the cabin. 7:50pm Listening to Bust a Move.

So today was a day of realization, I guess. I found out both Aaron and Tori like each other. And duh, there’s nothing I can do about it. So, I’m going to move on, completely. Me and him have like nothing in common. So, I don’t think me and him would work out. Jeez, I really want to talk to like David about all this. I talked to Tabitha and Hannah about it and a little bit with Rhonda. But I really wish I had other candidates for a boyfriend. But I don’t. Oh well, there is this one boy that I’ve seen around school, I think he’s a sophomore. He has curly dark hair, and he sits at the lunch table next to ours. He sits by Hannah’s “Henry” (the guy that looks like her dream guy she’s drawn in her sketchbook) so me and Hannah made my guy’s name be “Michael.” I really like that name. But I just wish I could talk to David and get his opinion and see what went wrong. Maybe me and Aaron just need to get to know each other better?? Well, I guess I’ll just have to wait and see what happens like over the summer. Have another amazing party and have Aaron attend. 😊 I can still flirt with him, right?? I need Hannah to give me tips on that. Sooo, anyway I’m still really bummed without an ipod. But me and Rhonda and maybe Tabitha or Hannah are going to have a baby-sitting business this summer and I’m thinking of working at DQ so that’s all for now.

<3 Ava Estelle

Present day me: I got myself so hung up on liking certain boys and finding comfort in it. Typical teenage angst. I’m really thankful I had so many friends to talk to about things.