June 6, 2009
A lot of things have happened since the last time I wrote in here. Last weekend, a guy at work, named Hunter caught my attention. 😊 yeah, and on the way home from work last Sunday I was at a stoplight to turn left, he was two lanes over and when he passed we made eye contact! And we had break at the same time, but didn’t talk because there were two other ladies in there. And this whole Brandon thing – I don’t like him anymore. It’s weird that I go from one guy to another over a weekend, and I don’t feel guilty at all. So this past week was the last week of sophomore year. It was an okay one. Monday – went to Nelson’s for lunch. Tuesday – ordered Green Mill. Wednesday – Kwik trip with Rhonda, Craig and Brad. Thursday – Culvers with Andrea and Tabitha. I took pictures almost all days, in every class. Thursday night we played night games up by Brandon’s. There were five girls and all the guys. Wasn’t as good as the last time. I was partnered with Brandon though, which was fun. Friday I went out to Panera with Delia and then went to her house to work on the end of the year slideshow – which is amazing! Then we went to Andrea’s party. There were only five girls there too and a bunch of guys. Delia and I stayed over and now I’m at the cabin. Today was a lazy day. And now my hand hurts.
<3 Ava Estelle
Present day me: New job brought more than just one new boy into my life back then! This is just the beginning of my boy stories!
May 24, 2009
I am in a state of happiness today. Eddie, Meryl and I came home from the cabin today and I hung out with Rhonda and Paula. We talked about the whole Hannah thing and then Brandon and me. After that a bunch of us went and played night games at Brandon’s. Paula, Delia, me, Ashley, Brandon, Brad, Devin, Harry, Garrett, Craig and Timmy. It was a good group. I got a sweatshirt to wear from Brandon and he gave me two hugs before I left and walked me to my car. 😊 and I think he was looking me over when I first got there and we were waiting in the street for everyone. I was wearing a tank top and shorts and I’m kind of tan. So, today was a pretty good day and tomorrow is pretty much going to suck. I’ll end up writing all about it in here. So yeah. I feel like Brandon and I are literally this close -> <- to going out. That’s about it for now.
<3 Ava Estelle
Present day me: I really miss having all of these friends to do things with! High school friends were many and I wish I could have kept in touch better with everyone over the years.
May 20, 2009
Frustrated with life.
Need a change.
Went out to Buffalo Wild Wings with Tabitha, Grace, and Maddy. Went to the choir concert with Rhonda and Stacey. My cold is getting worse. I hate school so fucking much. And I’m in desperate need of hang out time with Paula!!! Yeah. I want summer so bad right now.
And I want Brandon to ask me out. C’mon, he could just try out another relationship, it could turn out good, maybe, unlike his other ones.
Present day me: I tended to usually write about good things and I like how this entry is basically me complaining and feeling bad for once.
May 15, 2009
Didn’t have to work today!
Today during school Brandon gave me a hug every time he saw me, which was nice 😊. And after school him and I went shopping and got stuff for Rhonda. It was good, none of that awkwardness and I felt like we were a couple kind of. He made fun of me in a flirty way, and we like had a good time. I took him home and then picked up Delia and we went out for dinner. It was really good! After that we went to Target and then Borders and then Garrett’s house with Harry and we learned to play poker! 😊 I took her home and got back home around 11. I had an awesome day. And Brandon and I have like three or four inside jokes, shit stick, blow job with your hand, you look so lonely in the rain – I’m hot – take your shirt off. This is our song – Hotel California. Any who I think and hope Brandon likes me, and maybe/hopefully will ask me out? Oh! And we went to Goodwill to get my check, while I was filling out my time off sheet in the break room I was talking to Derek, and later Brandon asked me who I was talking to while I was in there. Hehehe. 😊 so that’s about it. Tomorrow night is Rhonda’s birthday party!
<3 Ava Estelle 😊
Present day me: I remember learning how to play poker and thinking I was so cool!
May 7, 2009
Last night was my last band concert ever! Yay! It was a lot of fun. Yesterday after school was really good. I took Brandon and Delia home. Brandon and I walked to my car, we talked about Rhonda. We drove back to the school and picked up Delia. We listened to Brandon’s zune. He has some strange music on that thing. Dropped him off. We went to my house to pick up some stuff and then went over to Delia’s. We stopped at Walgreens and I got eyebrow trimmers and bobby pins. I stopped to get gas and then got ready at Delia’s house. I wore her yellow skirt and a pretty dragonfly clip in my hair. We had brought a bunch of my scrapbooks over so we looked at those while we ate Culver’s for dinner. Then we went to the concert! We played first. Once that was done we got pie and went and looked at the art show. Brandon had a cool teapot. Tabitha had a pot thing too. There were a lot of cool pieces. Hannah had the painting of us four. Sort of awkward. She also had a self portrait. Really freaky. So I hung out with Delia, Brandon, Rhonda, Tabitha, Rayla and Brad. We took some good pictures. And afterwards Delia and I went to sonic and I took her home. Today it started raining in Ecuador. And I have to go to school tomorrow. It’s Rhonda’s birthday and I have to work. So yeah. That’s about it for now.
<3 Ava Estelle 😊
OH! And Erin and Nate are going out.
APRIL -> Bad friendship month.
MAY -> good relationship month! Hayley & Elliott, Erin & Nate, Devin & Kimberley, am I next??? Maybe???
Present day me: I really enjoyed being in band! I miss it nowadays. I remember taking lots of pictures that night and putting them in a scrapbook. The term, raining in Ecuador, means that my period started. Back then, I would have really heavy flow the second day and I would try to stay home from school every time.
April 30, 2009
So last night I hung out with Ashley. We went to TJ Maxx to get some stuff for her bathroom and then we ate dinner at Pad Thai. I had egg rolls which were really good. It was good to hang out with just her. She is so funny and a great person to talk to about stuff. I told her I like Brandon and she supports that which makes me happy and then we went to the park and walked around. We sang along to Cobra Starship songs in the car, it was so much fun!
And today. I had asked Rhonda to talk to Brandon to tell him that he should talk to me during lunch. She did. But I chickened out and didn’t talk to him. I want to ask him about just dating instead of a serious relationship. Haha or friends with benefits 😊. But who knows. I want answers but am afraid to get them. Ugh!
Anyway, I haven’t talked to Hannah in ages or seen her even. Whatever though.
<3 Ava Estelle 😊
Present day me: Even though I had all of these friends to hang out with I was still shy at times…
April 19, 2009
I have a ton to write!
Last Thursday Andrea told me about something Hannah had said in Hawaii to Rhonda, about me. Rhonda had told Andrea, who told Bridget, who told Samantha. So, in biology Andrea and Samantha told me what she said. Rhonda and her had been talking about me and Brandon and how we’d be cute together and Hannah said, “Well, Ava has a nice smile and beautiful eyes and just a pretty face but I don’t think Brandon would go out with her because she doesn’t have a body as perfect as mine.” Yeah. So, I’m pissed off at her. After all that I’ve done for her, staying a true friend through everything. She just says that and yeah. I’m done with defending her and being her “best” friend. I knew she was superficial and selfish, but I didn’t think it was this bad. So, Rhonda is as pissed off about this as I am. Rhonda wanted to slap her when she said that. So, her and I and pretty much everyone else is going to ignore her tomorrow. Which will be interesting. Friday came and went. Hannah wasn’t at school so I recruited people for my plan to ignore her, which worked good. I had to work for three hours. It was a long three hours. But I made it through…. Saturday was the band thrift sale. I picked up Rhonda and we hung out there for about an hour with Abby, Brandon and Craig. It was okay. I talked to Brandon about maybe hanging out that night. But he ended up having to stay home and do homework.
Rhonda and I went out to eat at Culver’s for lunch and we sat at the high school and talked until her mom came to pick her up. Since I had a car and some money, I did some shopping. I got page protectors for my summer scrapbook. Which is so awesome! And came home and chilled until about 7 o’clock. I called Rhonda and Brandon and decided to go up to Rhonda’s neighborhood to hang out with Rhonda and Brad and Devin. We walked over to the guys’ house and played Rock Band! I got to sing, it was fun. Devin and Brad were invited over to Garrett’s, so I gave them a ride with Rhonda. We hung out there for a bit and then I had to take Rhonda home but I had to go back to Garrett’s to get my phone. I ended up hanging out there for a couple hours with Harry, Timmy, Garrett, Devin and Brad. It was fun being the only girl. 😊 we had a ”talking circle” instead of the guys’ usual pow wow. I took Devin and Brad home and then came home. It was a fun night!
Today I went to self defense class with Grace and Maddy. That was fun too. And my hand hurts to more later!
WORK FOR 5 FRICKEN HOURS TOMORROW! UGH!!!
WORK SUCKS. LIFE IS ALRIGHT. Hopefully going to hang out with Brandon soon?
<3 Ava Estelle 😊
Present day me: I wish I wasn’t such a “mean girl” when I learned about what Hannah said about me. I think because so many other girls already knew before me and I was told by two girls who weren’t even hanging out with us in Hawaii, it made it more intense to react the way I did. I’m not proud of that choice. Ladies, especially in high school: communicate with your friends! If you find something out that you aren’t happy about TALK to your friend and get things straightened out!
April 1, 2009
April Fools Day!
Today was an okay day. Tabitha and I took all of Rhonda’s stuff out of her locker and put it in Tabitha’s. But Tabitha blew it after 6th hour. Oh well. After school I went to the mall with Delia. It was good. I got applications and we talked a lot about everyone in our group. She found out that I like Brandon and I found out that she still kind of likes Devin. So, we’re both going to talk to them and ask what they think of us. Hopefully it’ll go well. And we made a pact that if for prom no guys asks us out then we’ll ask them. It’s kind of a given everyone needs a date for prom. Maybe Brandon will be mine? Hehe. Who knows. So yeah, that was my day pretty much. Oh! And I’m going to have a party on April 17th!
<3 Ava Estelle <3
Present day me: I don’t remember this day in particular reading it as an adult. I do remember deciding on a date for prom. It didn’t end up being Brandon, unfortunately.
October 5, 2008
So, this past weekend was homecoming! Friday was spirit day at school, so everyone dressed up in their school attire and beads. I painted my nails while and purple. They looked so cool. Friday night was the parade and game. We marched in the parade, played Ghost Busters. It ended at the park, and we hung out there, had dinner and got in free at the game. It got really cold, Tabitha and I were freezing. We got hot chocolate, stood in the stands, and danced to the drumline and marching band. Midge hung out with me, Tabitha, and Rhonda. Dad picked me up from the game and I came home to Brenda, Bill, Elaine and John. I did a puzzle with Elaine. Then went to bed. The next morning, we went to the parade for the university and ate lunch at Erbert & Gerbert’s. I got home and got ready for the dance, curled my hair, painted all my nails white and took a few pictures.
Then went over to Erin’s. We get there, take pictures, and then go to Panera. Only me, Rhonda, Tabitha and Erin go to Panera because Hannah went over to Derek’s for dinner. We also went to Coldstone. Then mom picked us up to take us to the dance. We had to wait in line for a bit. The dance was alright. The music wasn’t that good. I got a few pictures. Then left with Erin around 11. I was so tired. And it started raining in Ecuador today. So, I might not go to school tomorrow. 😊
<3 Ava Estelle
Present day me: The term raining in Ecuador meant it was my time of the month. My friends and I would say that to each other, except the country would be different for each person. I like revisiting this entry because it’s about a time in my life where friends were my top priority and we all had fun together.
September 27, 2008
Today we had a massive garage sale. Our family got a total of $394.97! Rhonda came over for the day, too. We walked around the neighborhood, talked about my freshman buddy, and lots of other things. We called Aaron but he was sleeping. So, then Rhonda left, and the sale was pretty much ending so I helped move some more stuff by the street. And we had a bonfire, we got pasta for dinner. And then guess who called me back: Aaron! Haha we only talked for 5 minutes – school, told him we sold our green, nasty chair that we had at the cabin. Spencer had come over to his house, so he had to go. So, I called Rhonda and we talked about getting Aaron to go to homecoming with us. He could bring Tori if he’d want. Yeah, then we got done talking. I went out by the fire, and we listened to the dirty/funny songs I have on my ipod. We did the cha cha slide and I texted with Tabitha and Tori. That’s about it.
<3 Ava Estelle
Present day me: I like this entry to share about a typical Saturday in 2008.