February 23, 2009

February 23, 2009

Monday

This morning when mom was taking me to school, we were driving down the curved road and a van came the opposite way around the curve and slid across the street and hit the telephone pole. Mom and I saw it happen. We drove past him, and I saw that his air bag opened, and he was okay. Mom stopped to help him, and another guy stopped and called the police. They came, and mom took me to school. Then after third hour I heard from Samantha that Erin had been in a crash last night. She slid into a ditch and hit a tree. She had bled all over her seat from her head, which is stapled up now. She wasn’t at school today, so I was texting with her during gym. I just feel really bad for Erin and this guy from this morning. Otherwise, this past weekend was alright. Rhonda and I went to see Fired up! On Friday. It was really funny. Saturday, I went shopping with mom and Meryl. I got two new tank tops and a swimsuit bottom for Hawaii! Which is less than 3 weeks away! I’m SO EXCITED!!! Sunday we went to church. And I worked on my homework. Now I should write a letter to Aunt Brenda asking her for money for Hawaii.

Gnight!

<3 Ava Estelle 😊

Present day me: I remember being absolutely stoked that I had the opportunity to go to Hawaii with my school’s band with ALL of my friends! I miss having all of these friends as an adult.

February 16, 2009

February 16, 2009

Monday

This past weekend was alright. Saturday was the fishery. Us girls went into town and “shopped.” We got ice cream and went to a few really lame stores. Everywhere in town is kind of gross. We had a big turkey dinner that night with amazing stuffing! Eddie, Meryl and I took a video of us talking like Darth Vader. It’s really funny! Sunday we all got up, hung out. They left about lunch time. Meryl and I drove home. I cleaned and unpacked because Hannah and Rhonda were coming over for the night. They both got dropped off. Hannah and I had gone to rent movies. We hung out, talked to David on the phone. Rhonda and he got into a fight. He and I were texting, and he wanted to know what Hannah thought of him. He likes her. Ugh! Another creeper. Anyway. We made chocolate cake. And then at like 10:30 Harry and Brad show up. We sat in the kitchen talking with them until like 12:15am! Then we sat in Harry’s car for a bit. It was one of the dirtiest conversations ever! But so funny! We went to bed at like 3am.

Today we woke up at 8! Way too early. We had more cake for breakfast, and we found a candy bouquet at the front door. Rhonda left at like 10:30. I took Hannah home. Came back, cleaned, got ready, then she came back over, and we got gas and went to the mall! Tried on crazy awesome clothes. And then came back here. I had a doctor’s appointment. And I got the meningococcal meningitis shot. And I came back home, finished watching My Best Friend’s Girl – good movie – and I took Hannah home again. Yep, good last 24 hours!

<3 Ava Estelle

Present day me: This entry makes me remember all the things I’d do with my friends. Go to the mall, have guy friends stop by to chat, surprisingly until late at night. The town I was referring to in this entry is the town nearest to the cabin my family had at the time.

February 12, 2009

February 12, 2009

Thursday

 Today was a pretty good day at school. We had a potluck lunch! I brought white cheddar pasta roni, Delia brought mac and cheese, Beth brought ramen noodles, we had bread, blueberry muffins, Nutella with rolls, cupcakes and cookies. So good! And we had a Spanish test, which I think I did really good on! Yesterday Bailey and I finally went to Sonic! We got large slushies and large tater tots. She drove and we didn’t go over the curb when we went through the drive thru. Which was a victory! It was her first time going through a drive thru. She did good. Oh! And David has been texting me lately, which is fine. I still want to be friends with him. I gave him Hannah’s number because he asked for it. So, he texted her last night too. I guess he thinks she’s really cute and well who (out of all guys) doesn’t? anyway, I’m glad me and him are friends. I kind of feel like I want to hang out with him again…. maybe. But I don’t know where and when and with who exactly. Who knows… the night before last night Rhonda had a really funny dream about her and Cameron and then me and Nathan. We were in a contest to not touch each other for three hours and we had to stand a foot away from each other and the prize was a night at the  hotel. Nathan and I couldn’t handle not touching each other for three hours so we went away. So, Rhonda and Cameron won. Hannah comes in holding a cat in her arms. Nathan and I come back and told everyone Nathan bought the hotel. Let’s go party there! Hannah said, I want to come! I told her it was couples only. She holds up the cat and said, I have a boyfriend! Meet Ginger! SO FUNNY! Rhonda had another dream that Nelly got pregnant, so she told Rhonda and her first words were, “CAKE AND ICE CREAM!” hahaha yeah. I’ve laughed with Rhonda SO MUCH these past two days. We talked about “pickle” juice today. Pretty great thing to talk about. Haha. G’night!

<3 Ava Estelle

Present day me: This entry is basically a collection of inside jokes and good memories. This was right before I would get my first job and things changed a lot.

February 8, 2009

February 8, 2009

Today I made, well decorated this new journal of mine! I like it for now. I’ll probably change it later. So today we came home from the cabin. It was uneventful up there. Eddie and I went on the atvs, I finished reading Breaking Dawn last night. I insanely love the twilight saga! I could read those books over and over again. But anyway, I am in pretty much desperate need of a boyfriend. Like I feel like I’m going crazy without one. I want to have my first kiss, I want to cuddle with someone, flirt with them. Spend a lot of my time with him. But I have no one. Not even close to a guy I could like or go out with. Ugh! And lately I’ve been having dreams about “potatoes” and I feel like I want that. Well, not all the way. Just the stuff that leads up to it. I want a guy I can hold hands with down the hall, who I can make fun of and he’d do the same but it’d be a way of flirting. And those lovey dovey moments when we just give each other compliments and stare into each other’s eyes. See? I know a lot about relationships, and I’ve only been in one! But I don’t know if that could really count as a real relationship. Oh well, I guess I’ll just keep praying. If I could have a guy to like me for me, and maybe be going to Hawaii with the band that’d be so amazing! Haha. Well, I guess I better be going to sleep so I can fantasize and dream about potatoes with that cute guy. *wink wink*

<3 Ava Estelle

Present day me: “Potatoes” is code word for sex. My only relationship at that point was on the phone and through aol instant messenger, so I was ready to have someone I could go out with who lived in the same town as me.

February 7, 2009

February 7, 2009

Saturday

This past week was a really long one and lots of things happened. On Wednesday night Hannah called me and I told her all about how many girls who I hang out with don’t like her anymore. They all think she’s a slut. So, I wanted to tell her the reality of the situation. While she’s sitting at lunch with Tommy and Derrick and other nasty guys, everyone at our table is dissing her and calling her names. Anyway, I tried to tell her about it as nicely as possible. What Rhonda had found out – pretty much everyone that we had hung out with at the dance doesn’t like her. So, it wasn’t looking good for Hannah on our end. But when I told Hannah everything she listened and understood. She said she wasn’t/isn’t very close with these girls. She had met them just this school year, which is totally true. And that doesn’t really matter to Hannah what other people think, just as long as she has a good relationship with each, Tabitha, Rhonda and me. Which is good. But while this little stressor was going on for Rhonda and I and Hannah something else happened.

While (one day) Beth and Hannah were working out at the Y together, Beth had asked her how far she’s gone with a guy. Hannah told her some things had happened up at Jared’s cabin between her and Jared. Tabitha and I were the only ones who knew about that. But Beth went up to Jared and asked him about it and he said nothing had happened at all. He lied. Hannah would not make up those things just for attention or the hell of it. She didn’t want to tell Rhonda because she didn’t want to see/know Rhonda’s reaction to it. But Beth talked to me and Tabitha about it during lunch one day with Rhonda right there. My only thought was how the hell did Beth find out about that?! So, Rhonda figured it out and was really disappointed and hurt that Hannah didn’t tell her something that important. And the fact Beth knew before her pissed her off a lot.

So, Rhonda finding all that out changed the way she looked at Hannah. I told Hannah that Rhonda had found out about it and was really hurt and mad. So, Wednesday night I also talked on the phone with Rhonda realized it seemed like Hannah was treating her like a secondary friend not a best friend. There are many explanations. I don’t need to write them all down. But the next morning before school, Hannah and Rhonda talked about it all, I walked with them. It came out to seem like Rhonda didn’t want to be her friend anymore or to just take a break, which I did not want to happen at all. But it wasn’t the best conversation between them. Hannah was all apologizing and Rhonda’s tone wasn’t helping the situation. I didn’t say a word the entire time. Just listened. During band I told Tabitha about everything, and Samantha listened in. Later at lunch Hannah looked really sad, and Rhonda didn’t want to talk to her because she might say something wrong or it might just be a repeat of the conversation that morning. So, I went over to Hannah and I asked her if she’d want to walk. I told her “Rhonda is hurt, and at the moment doesn’t want to talk to you because she can’t look at you the same.” I could tell Hannah was really sad about it. But to just give Rhonda some time to cool down and think it over more. After school that day Rhonda and I were talking, and she asked me what my opinion was of her reaction and Hannah’s actions. I told her I thought she was overreacting a little bit, but I understand how she felt. I understand both sides of them. If I was Rhonda I would have reacted the same way, but not talked to her as harshly as Rhonda had. I had told Hannah that I’ll be her friend no matter what and I would be there for her whenever she needed. Which helped. Thursday night we had pep bad. I gave Tabitha a ride and asked her what her opinion was of the situation. She said she understood both sides but doesn’t want to be involved in it. (Like I was, right in the middle of the two of them) and I think Tabitha was in a good spot. She knew she wasn’t as close with us at the moment because she’s been really busy with basketball. Friday morning Hannah and Rhonda walked and talked without me there. Which was good because they worked everything out and their fight was over. And I was really happy about that, well ecstatic. After school yesterday, Hannah, Tabitha and I went to Starbucks and talked about it some more. We said how much high school drama sucks and how out of hand it gets. Especially with the people who we’re friends with.

New rule – don’t tell Beth anything that you’d want passed around to people, who especially don’t need to know. And know who your true friends are because they can help you get through everything. And that is so amazingly true. So, we came up to the cabin last night and that’s where I am right now. I rearranged my things on my walls in my room and moved my bed. I’m reading Breaking Dawn for the second time and in love with it! I SO want a boyfriend right now!

So, I guess this notebook has come to an end. ☹ too bad. now I have to start another one haha. But I like writing in journals and looking back over it years later and see how much I’ve changed. So, I guess this is good-bye! There is some juicy stuff in this journal that’s for sure! The first half of my sophomore year of high school! Aww! Well, cya!

<3 Ava Estelle

Present day me: this is just the beginning of high school drama between all of the girls….

February 1, 2009

February 1, 2009

Sunday 8:47pm

Friday I stayed home from school partly because I have a cold and partly because it’s raining in Ecuador pretty hard. So, I just chilled out at home, read Breaking Dawn. Then Phoebe texted me asking if I’d want to go to the mall to look for another dress because the one she got for me is more of a prom dress.

So we went to Younkers, Deb, Macy’s and Express. I found one at Younkers and she ended up buying it for me because I couldn’t get a hold of my parents. So, I came home and mom was the only one here. I made a pizza for dinner. On Saturday I had band practice at 10 in the morning. Then Samantha and I went to wal-mart after because I had to pick up some nail polish remover. I stopped at Tabitha’s dads to pick up $10 because she didn’t go to the dance and I had bought her a ticket. I came home and got ready, did my nails, make up and mom did my hair. I picked up Rhonda at like 5 and we went over to Ashley’s house to meet Hannah, Gwen, Kayla and Delia. We took pictures, ate food, listened to music and chilled. Hannah and I left around 8 to go to the high school. We got there at the same time as Brandon, Harry, and Garret. I was so excited. We checked our stuff in and started dancing! We danced on a table and I grinded with Brandon like a ton! And I danced with a lot of other people. A lot of our friends didn’t come, but it was still a ton of fun! They played really good music and we were all comfortable with each other. After the dance I went to Perkins with Hannah, Delia, Kayla, Gwen, and Ashley. We all got food. Breakfast and dinner. I was so hyper! It was a perfect thing to do after a dance! We were there until 2am. It was really busy! Hannah stayed over. We both slept in my twin bed. We talked for like an hour and went to sleep. This was an awesome weekend!

Ava Estelle

Present day me: I miss being awake enough to go to perkins that late at night and just have a good time!

January 25, 2009

January 25, 2009

Sunday 7:19pm

This past weekend I went to the Kalahari with Hannah! But first let me write down about Friday. We had finals, so school started a half hour later. So, it was Rhonda, Hannah, Kyle and I talking. We talked about nasty stuff. And then Rhonda says she had a mint chocolate condom in her backpack that she’d gotten from Crissy. Funny, huh? Rhonda gave the condom to Kyle. Funny because Hannah and him broke up this past Monday. But it was one of the funniest conversations ever! Brandon came over and I told him Rhonda had given Kyle a condom. Brandon was really surprised. We had finals – world studies, I don’t think I did very good on that one. Then wrote an essay on Of Mice and Men. I think I did really good on that and then we had an hour and fifteen-minute lunch!

Samantha, Ivy, Gwen, Rhonda, Hannah, Tabitha and I went to Taco Bell! I had a chicken taco. It was pretty good. It was freezing outside! So, we got back and I took my geometry final, I think I did really good on that one too. After school Rhonda and I went to Hannah’s house, then the Kalahari!

It was so much fun!! We went swimming and hung out around the hotel. Rhonda, Hannah and I sat on some couches and talked for a little while but then some guys came and sat on the couch next to us, so we went back up. We came back down later, sat at a different couch and then two girls (our age) came up and asked us for drugs. And then Bobby and Greg were with us, and this little kid yelled at him to suck his balls. We got that on video! Haha. Greg is so funny! We ended up staying up until 1, we messed around with the elevators, ate chocolate and ice cream and yeah.

The next morning, we got up and got ready. We went to the theme park. Rode on the Ferris wheel, go karts, merry go round and laser tag. There was a really hot guy in a red shirt that we saw down there. We all were so exhausted by the end we left at about 3pm. And got home later. It was a good time! Today I went to church with mom, and we went to the humane society and asked them if they had any kittens that look like ours, they had one who had gotten frost bite and was at a foster home. But it wasn’t ours. I didn’t know where he could have gone. I’m thinking he’s probably dead from the cold. I miss him. ☹

G’night.

Ava Estelle

Present day me: At this time my family had three cats. The cat that was lost, was the most recent cat. We found him at the cabin the summer before and he never got along with our other cats. We think when we got home from Mexico and let the cats out, which we did regularly, they’d come back. Our little kitty didn’t come back that winter.

January 9, 2009

January 9, 2009

Last day. Thank god.

Well, yesterday we hung out here at the hotel. I sat up in the balcony and did my homework because my sunburn was killing me. And then I painted a bowl and frog. We all went to Habanero’s last night for dinner. It was pretty good. Today mom, Meryl, Oma, and I went into town in the morning to do a little bit of shopping. Then we all went to a really nice beach, we went swimming and I tanned, but didn’t get much. Then we went to the sea glass beach. We came back to the hotel and had dinner. We sat by the fire and had a cake to celebrate Susie’s birthday next week and Uncle Pat graduating. Um, not for me for getting my license because it’s not as important as those things. What the fuck ever. I was pretty pissed tonight along with Eddie and Meryl. We sat in our room complaining about the family and how Phoebe is turning into a really big bitch. But whatever. I’m so fucking glad we’re going home tomorrow!

Ava Estelle

Present day me: This was the year when these family vacations started to become less enjoyable. I do remember feeling unappreciated by my grandparents and aunts and uncles on this side of the family. Maybe I should have spoken up for myself, in hindsight, but I was very shy back then. When it came to standing up for myself, I didn’t know how to do so, especially with family members who were older than me. In my mind they knew best. I just vented to my siblings about any frustrations.

January 7, 2009

January 7, 2009

Wednesday

Beach/in the city day

This morning Meryl, Phoebe, Aunt Blanche, Uncle Pat, Meredith, Susie, and I went to a public beach. It was really nice, we could go swimming, but I didn’t because there were stingrays flopping around and jumping out of the water. I found a ton of sea glass. Mostly little pieces but they’re so pretty. Then we went into town to pick up everyone else from fishing. They had caught marlin and derado. We ate them for lunch. The dorado was better. We walked through the harbor and then changed into different clothes. We walked to Sammy Hagar’s bar – Cabo Wabo. And took some pictures. Then walked back to the car. And went back to the beach from this morning. So, Oma could go shelling. I found a ton more sea glass. We came back and went to bed.

G’night.

<3 Ava Estelle

Present day me: I remember feeling the absolute coolest going to Cabo Wabo. It was empty when we visited so we just took some cool pictures and relished the place. I was so excited to show others where I’d visited.

January 6, 2009

January 6, 2009

Pool/beach day

It was finally sunny out today! I got burned on my right side but not on my left. Ha. Yeah, it sucks. But today was a good day. I worked on a little bit of homework and went swimming. A bunch of us went for a walk down the beach and we found a baby sea turtle on the shore. It was so cute. I took some pictures of it. Eddie and I watched The Biggest Loser on tv, and it was really motivating. We had chicken and mashed potatoes for dinner. After dinner Phoebe and us three took Eddie’s slingshot and shot grapes off of Uncle Leroy and Aunt Margot’s balcony. It was really funny. We shot at the maintenance man and tourists and Eddie went down there and Uncle Leroy threw grapes at him. So that’s about it.

G’night!

<3 Ava Estelle

Present day me: I remember throwing the grapes with the slingshot! It was another good memory with my family. I enjoy reading these entries.