February 1, 2009

February 1, 2009

Sunday 8:47pm

Friday I stayed home from school partly because I have a cold and partly because it’s raining in Ecuador pretty hard. So, I just chilled out at home, read Breaking Dawn. Then Phoebe texted me asking if I’d want to go to the mall to look for another dress because the one she got for me is more of a prom dress.

So we went to Younkers, Deb, Macy’s and Express. I found one at Younkers and she ended up buying it for me because I couldn’t get a hold of my parents. So, I came home and mom was the only one here. I made a pizza for dinner. On Saturday I had band practice at 10 in the morning. Then Samantha and I went to wal-mart after because I had to pick up some nail polish remover. I stopped at Tabitha’s dads to pick up $10 because she didn’t go to the dance and I had bought her a ticket. I came home and got ready, did my nails, make up and mom did my hair. I picked up Rhonda at like 5 and we went over to Ashley’s house to meet Hannah, Gwen, Kayla and Delia. We took pictures, ate food, listened to music and chilled. Hannah and I left around 8 to go to the high school. We got there at the same time as Brandon, Harry, and Garret. I was so excited. We checked our stuff in and started dancing! We danced on a table and I grinded with Brandon like a ton! And I danced with a lot of other people. A lot of our friends didn’t come, but it was still a ton of fun! They played really good music and we were all comfortable with each other. After the dance I went to Perkins with Hannah, Delia, Kayla, Gwen, and Ashley. We all got food. Breakfast and dinner. I was so hyper! It was a perfect thing to do after a dance! We were there until 2am. It was really busy! Hannah stayed over. We both slept in my twin bed. We talked for like an hour and went to sleep. This was an awesome weekend!

Ava Estelle

Present day me: I miss being awake enough to go to perkins that late at night and just have a good time!

November 16, 2008

November 16, 2008

Sunday

Just got done watching Jeff Dunham’s Christmas Special which was pretty funny. Not as good as his others. So today I hung out with David. Which I now know that I don’t like him as much as he likes me. We met at the mall. Hannah and I were sitting in the café court and he like comes out of nowhere and sits by us. We talk for a bit. I can tell he was really nervous. I was a little bit too. We just walked around the mall, Grace and Maddy showed up for a bit. While we were walking around it was kind of awkward because he was either walking in front of us or behind. I was just shy…jeez. I hate that about myself. But Maddy and Grace left, and it was a little bit better. Hannah and I and him went to Deb and tried on these dresses for him. Mine was black, it looked So good. And we just hung out and talked. It was an alright day.

<3 Ava Estelle

Present day me: This was the first and only time I ever spent with David in person. We connected while at a summer camp when I was in middle school. He left me a note on my seat in the cafeteria. We talked on the phone and on aim for months and then broke up. We never saw each other in person until this time when we were older and not going out anymore. We were getting along on the phone, but ultimately, I wasn’t physically attracted to him. I didn’t want to waste any more of his time after seeing him, so I let him know the same day. I do still remember calling him after seeing him and letting him know. I had to call his home phone, and his mom answered, and I remember feeling so bad about having to tell him. I wanted to be truthful though. I knew I deserved to be with someone who didn’t live a couple hours away too. So good to know for sure!

February 24, 2008

February 24, 2008

Dream from last night.

Hannah was having a party, but it was up at my cabin. Aaron was over (of course) and it was winter out. The layout of the cabin was different though. So, I guess all we did at the party was lounge around in my room and have a treasure hunt with everyone. It was kind of cool. Then I had a dream that I was hanging out in my room here in town and I hear my dad come home and yell up the stairs, “Gram’s is here!” and I rushed down the stairs and saw her wearing the same outfit that she was wearing in the picture that I have of her on my whiteboard. So, I give her a big hug and tell her about my life.

So yesterday I went to see Definitely, Maybe with Rhonda at 1:30 and that ended around 4. We walked around the mall until Delia, Beth, Hannah and Tabitha were coming. So, they got there and we hung out til about 6. Then Hannah and Rhonda had to leave so it was just the four of us. We went to Deb and tried on dresses. Then we went to Inside Scoop and bought candy because we went to see the movie 27 Dresses! So I saw two movies in one day! They were both really really good! After 27 Dresses we went home. Tabitha gave me a ride home. Then today I played DDR a few times and just hung out. It was relaxing. G’night!

Ava Estelle

Present day me: I remember this being quite an awesome thing! To be able to see two movies at the same theater in one day, with different friends! I also remember having that dream about Gram. I still miss her very much. I believe when a soul that’s passed shows up in one of my dreams that is their way of connecting with me again. This was my first dream with her in it since her passing. I gave her the biggest hug I could when I reached her!

January 20, 2008

January 20, 2008

Sunday

Copied from notes on my ipod touch <3

Friday, Jan. 18, 2008 – 4:47pm

Just found out Aaron wants a girlfriend!!!! Said so on his headline on myspace! But the comments I sent him last night (3-4) he deleted! Well one of them had my cell number on it… but still why would he delete them?? Rhonda said maybe he wants to keep his plans a secret from his friends, because then that means he’s coming to the mall or something… but I don’t really know for sure. I’m staying at Hannah’s house tonight with Rhonda and we’re going to call Aaron and Rhonda said she’ll act like a stalker and ask him why he deleted my comments. 😊 I just hope he’s home and not doing anything and would want to talk to me at least. And I said I’ll have to be all flirty because he’s looking for a girlfriend now and I’m pretty desperate for a boyfriend. I hope when we call him, he doesn’t say, “Guess what I did today! I asked a girl out named (insert name here) and now we’re going out!” If he says that I’m going to scream! Or (we were joking around) if he said, “Guess what I found out today! I’m a homosexual!” Hannah and Rhonda would laugh, and I’d start crying…ugh! Why can’t I get to know him better? I need to be more outgoing or flirty…yeah.

Yesterday – Jan. 19, 2008 – 9:11pm

So last night I stayed at Hannah’s with Rhonda. It was a lot of fun! We had mashed potatoes, gravy and turkey for dinner 😊 Then we hung out in her room and called Aaron 😊😊😊 Rhonda talked to him first and then I did. He sounded bored when on the phone with Rhonda and sounded happy when he talked to me! We talked about my cabin and his house and why he deleted my comments! He said his brother sent him some comments that he didn’t want anyone to see so he went crazy on the deleting. Yeah, likely story. But he said he had an old pinball machine! It sounds really cool, and he has a piano. But he doesn’t know how to play chopsticks, so I told him I’ll teach him sometime. We talked about movies too. He’s like, “I can never sit still,” and I’m like, “then what do you do at like movies and stuff?” he’s like, “I get up and walk around or I go to the bathroom 20 times,” I’m like, “there’s not reason to see a movie then,” but he said, “well it’s just chick flicks I don’t like.” And I’m like, “Well, yeah you’re a guy. I’d never take you to a chick flick.” He said, “well I’d sit through one if it was with a girl I really like,” I KNOW!!!! That made me smile. I’m just like, “Oh, that’s good to know.” Yeah, when we were talking about his pinball machine, he told me his backdoor is always open. And that I can go into his house whenever. Yeah, I gave him my cell number so he could call me today telling me if he could go to the mall or not. So, after that we just hung out. Went to sleep at midnight and woke up at 9. Good nine hours of sleep. So, Rhonda’s mom picked me up and took me home. I took a shower and got ready for the mall! Thinking that Aaron would be there (I was getting too excited for it) But he wasn’t there!!! We walked around the mall like a ton of times looking for him, but we never did 🙁 so we gave up. I found a dress and that was it.

Ava Estelle

Present day me: My friends back then were so funny. This makes me miss myspace too and being able to leave comments and read people’s headlines. We had nicknames for everything back then, especially sexual things so when we learned we were having mashed potatoes, gravy, and turkey for dinner that night we giggled to each other about the inside jokes we had. I also love those foods together still! Reading about Aaron and my conversation on the phone made me laugh a lot. His pinball machine was real, although I never was brave enough to go to his house and enter through the back door myself. Also, reading this entry today I’m not certain he was flirting with me with those lines, but I felt like I was trying to flirt with him!