January 4, 2009

January 4, 2009

Beach/Pool day

Instead of swimming I read a book called Anatomy of a Boyfriend, all of it. It’s a good book, dirty but good. I want Rhonda to read it. It is also pretty funny. So yeah. I’m sitting in the balcony writing in here and listening to that dirty song – Give it Up by Pepper. Wow. Today is just a *potatoes* filled day for me. Haha. Mentally not physically. Reading about it and listening to it. Haha. Today has been a good day. It’s probably around 3ish pm, not really sure and the weather is pretty overcast so no hope in the getting tan department today. Dang. Oh well. I have the rest of the week yo! And at the moment I don’t miss anyone, yet. I know I will. But its good to be out of town and away from the cabin. And after reading this book, sorta makes me want a boyfriend more. Ugh! That’s like the only thing I desperately want right now. And I might just be desperate. At Ashley’s sledding party Brandon was there, I hadn’t of seen him since Andrea’s party and like I had a feeling when I first saw him… a like kind of awkward feeling at first around him. Ugh! I don’t want to like him like that at all. It would screw lots of things up. And like both of Brandon’s friends were there and picking on me. I accidentally kicked Brad where it really hurts when I came sliding into him. And I helped Grace hide Devin’s shoe…it was pretty funny. Anyway, I NEED to meet some new guys that I can get into. Yeah. I guess that’s all I have to write down for now. So, I guess I’ll go back down to the pool by Oma.

Hasta Luego!

<3 Ava Estelle

Present day me: I was so eager to experience what all teenagers are curious about, being intimate with another person aka, sex. Hahaha. I also didn’t want to be interested in the guys in my class because I had a preference for guys who were older than me, from a year to a few years. No more than 3 years older than me at that point. So when there as a possibility that Brandon and I liked each other I didn’t want to/it.

January 1, 2009

January 1, 2009

New year! 😊

Last night I went to Grace’s party at her house. It was a lot of fun. I gave Tabitha a ride. We played ping pong, air hockey, guitar hero and just hung out. As soon as it was midnight, (we all had our cups of sparkling cider in hand) Grace shot her hand up and hit my glass and it spilled all over. Great start to 2009. And like five minutes later someone, I think Craig, spilled his drink next to me. Yeah. I gave Tabitha a ride home and stayed at her house because mom, dad, Eddie, and Meryl went down to the Phillips for new year’s. We stayed up til 3 watching the Hannah Montana movie. Yep, and today I just lounged around. Mexico is the day after tomorrow!

<3 Ava Estelle 😊

Present day me: I love this memory!

December 23, 2008

December 23, 2008

Tuesday

Today was the last day of school before Christmas break! Pretty normal day. Got lots of cookies and candy from people and some pretty awesome presents! 😊

Andrea had a Christmas party also. It was a lot of fun! I took pictures and a video. I drove Tabitha to and from there. We had fun singing on the way back. We ate mini wieners there, watched Elf and just hung out. Devin and I shared a piece of Patrick’s birthday cake. Hehe. And yeah. I think a bunch of people can come to my party on Saturday which I am so excited for!! And I am so tired now so ttyl!

<3 Ava Estelle 😊

Present day me: I remember this was a fun time. Everyone was dressed up in their nice dresses and suits. Great way to celebrate Christmas with friends.

August 24, 2008

August 24, 2008

Sunday 8:47pm

Yesterday I had my sweet sixteen birthday party. Paula arrived first around 1. We took our bubbles and went for a walk down the street without our shoes on. Bad idea. The blacktop was so hot, our feet are burning. We walk all the way down to the street just before the county highway. Then we walk back, and we see Tabitha, Catherine and Beth come down the street. They have music cranking. So, we all go down into the back room and have some snacks and talk for a little bit. Paula had blisters on her feet, and I was getting them. So, it’s about 2 o’clock and us 5 kinda chill out, take pictures, talk and just do whatever.

Then around 3:30-4 we see Aaron and Austin walk over to us in the driveway and they’re carrying one of their puppies! We all say hi, and we named the puppy Noah after the guy in The Notebook. Aaron didn’t like the name. But we stood there and talked for like 15 minutes, I guess. Then they leave. We go for another walk and Rhonda shows up. We tell her we had just seen Aaron and his puppy, so we walk over to his house. And when we get there, I told Rhonda to tell Aaron Thank You. AND she gave him a hug! It was good. I laughed so hard. After that we walked back, and Rhonda changed into her dress. We take a few more pictures and then go sit on the deck.

We play the game Never Have I Ever. After a little while the guys and Katie show up. We played a little while longer then went to the front of the house. We did presents and cake and dinner. We took walks in between all that too. And we just pretty much hung out by the firepit. Once it got dark everyone was getting cold, so we changed out of our dresses and into clothes and walked out into the street to play Truth or Dare. The worst er, most interesting thing was Brandon got dared to kiss me on the cheek and he did. Paula was sitting between us, so she leaned back. It was nice, I guess. We played around with the glow sticks I had given everyone, and made smiley faces, staring contests with them around our eyes, spelled words – boobs – and talked about explicit commercials we have seen. After a while we got really cold, so we huddled together.

I was between Brandon and Beth. Brandon was like grinding up against me and Paula and grabbing our butts. It was pretty funny. We kept having to move out of the way for cars, but after one I got to stand in the middle of everyone. I was inside the Circle of Warmth. It was sorta weird. Then it became 10 o’clock and the guys left along with Katie. I wish they didn’t have to leave. So, we go inside and lay down in the loft and talk about the night. Paula thinks me and Brandon would be a good couple…I don’t know…maybe? Rhonda, Tabitha, and I talked about Aaron and me. Rhonda asked me if he asked me out what would I say. I’d say yes, just to see what would happen. Like I obviously don’t like him as much as I did. So, yeah.

I’m actually glad Aaron couldn’t come for the whole time; it would have been awkward. So yeah, I think we finally all fell asleep at like 4am. Half of us wanted to sleep earlier but some of us kept everyone awake. We all woke up at quarter to 10. Went swimming, er skinnydipping! And this time, we had time to swim around naked. I did somersaults and stuff. We used one of the pink rafts to hold our suits. Everyone got naked except Rhonda and Tabitha. They didn’t go swimming. Then we got out and tanned/dried off out in the street. Our favorite place. Took pics, talked, figured out what time everyone was going to get picked up. Then we changed, packed up and they wrote on my board. It was the best birthday party I’ve ever had!

<3 Ava Estelle

Present day me: when we’d go skinnydipping we’d get into the water with our suits on, then remove them under the water and just be naked in the water. We then put our suits back on while in the water before getting out. It was a very freeing experience! This birthday party was the first time a few of my friends visited my cabin. It was a really awesome feeling to have so many people comfortable enough to drive 30 minutes out of town to spend my birthday with me.

August 11, 2008

August 11, 2008

Monday

Actually, today all I did was read Breaking Dawn. I’m almost done! Umm, so last week on Wednesday I went to Brandon’s 16th Birthday Party. I hung out with Tabitha and Delia. It was a pretty good party. We played wii tennis and went down to this really small park. The girls and Brandon played 500 with a frisbee but instead of yelling numbers he yelled other things like, “free back massage from me.” We went back to his house and sat by a bonfire and had some smores.

So then on Friday I went to the mall with Paula and Rhonda. We went to Charlotte Russe, Younkers, Macy’s, deb and Ragstock. Tried on a bunch of dresses and took pictures. Then Friday night I went to Bridget’s house for some board game olympics. I was on the yellow team with Stacey. Then Delia and Bridget were on the pink team and Bailey was the only one on the green team because Tabitha couldn’t make it at the last minute. So, we played Guess Who, pink team won. Twister, pink team won. Sorry, yellow team was winning then pink won. And they were bragging and boasting. Stacey and I were getting really frustrated. But we kept playing. Catch Phrase, Clue, Apples to Apples – Yellow team won! (only game) and watched the show My Boys. I stayed up til 5 and fell asleep. Bailey slept too, but the other three went outside to walk around the block. I woke up at 8. Bailey had left already. And we played Sorry again, then mom came to pick me up. Some of my night was fun, but overall, it was pointless.

<3 Ava Estelle

Present day me: I enjoy reading about these memories. They were fun times to remember as an adult! Even though board game olympics ended up being a losing streak for my team it’s still a fun concept to maybe try again with my current friends!

June 27, 2008

June 27, 2008

Friday 10:04am

So, it’s the morning after my party. And I’m the only one awake. Sadly. There are a lot of trucks out here and noises and sleeping in a tent isn’t very comfortable. So last night 😊

Delia, Stacey, and Beth got here around 4. We went for a walk down past Tori’s house and as we were walking Aaron came down the street behind us on his atv and passed us. Beth yelled out, “Thanks for saying hi!” he just smiled. So, we walk past Tori’s place and see them talking in her driveway together. Just talking, nothing gross. And everyone is asking me, “Is that her?” and I just nodded my head.

We came back and stood in my driveway for a bit. Then played a few games of BS on the deck while we waited for Paula. Then we went inside and ate some food. Then Paula showed up. We got into our suits and dad took us out on the pontoon boat so we could swim off of it.

Just before we get into the water Andrea calls me and tells me she’s coming also. So, we go swimming for a while and then get out because Bridget was on her way here and we weren’t sure when Andrea was going to show up. So, we come back up here and change back into our clothes, get waters and then Andrea and Bridget show up. I decided to take whoever would want to go on an atv ride. I took Beth and then Stacey, but it ran out of gas in the middle of the yard. So, riding the atvs was done.

So, we go for a walk. We make it to the top of the hill kind of and start talking and tossing my water bottle around. Then Austin comes out and stands there with us. So, we get done playing toss and Austin goes, “I’m going to go get Danny.” Some guy that also lives up here back on the other side of the bird lady’s house. We walk down there, and he isn’t home. So, we walk back and Austin said we can go see their puppies. Aaron comes outside and meets us on the road and says to me, “Ava, do you have enough friends?” I smiled, “Yeah, there are some new people this time.” And they introduced themselves. Then we went to see the puppies. 😊

They were just as cute as before. We just stood behind his house for a while and got bitten up by mosquitoes. Then we moved to his driveway where there were less bugs. He had a radio on the back of his atv so we listened to music. I told him to change it to a certain station and some other people were telling him other stations. He said, “I’ll just listen to Ava, because Ava’s the best.” And I smiled and said, “that’s what I’m here for.” I don’t know if that was really the right thing to say to that. But whatever.

So, after we stood outside for a while we went inside to play some apples to apples. We had to sit on the floor because Meryl was using the table. So, I sit down on the pink chair and Aaron comes and says, “Where should I sit?” and I say, “Sit here,” I think Beth wanted him to sit by her but he sat by me. 😊 “I think I’ll just sit by Ava, she’s the only one who wouldn’t kill me,” he said. So, we played apples to apples. And I was helping him with putting the best red card down.

When it was his turn to judge he had the green card for outrageous, and I put down corn on the cob. I didn’t pester him that hard, I was just being silly but I won it! 😊 he’s like “Fine you can just have it.” In like the middle of the game Austin goes and tries to get Danny again. And we kind of stop playing apples to apples and start reading the cards from the “would you rather” game. Aaron and I keep making small talk every so often. Then Austin shows up with Danny.

Turns out Danny is a year younger than us. And Aaron hadn’t of seen him for a while because when Danny got into the room Aaron stood up and gave him a hug and asked him if he’s lost weight. It was really funny. Then the boys talked with the boys and girls talked with the girls. Aaron, I think, showed Danny everyone but I wasn’t listening. Aaron asked anyone for a cell phone and I gave him mine to use he called Spencer to tell him that Aaron and Austin’s little black boy statue was stolen. So now I have Spencer’s cell number, haha. I’ll probably never call it.

After talking for a while and having Paula and Beth try to get me to go skinny dipping, Aaron, Austin and Danny left. Aaron came up to me and told me they were leaving, and I had the courage to hug him! It was awesome. 😊 I FINALLY got to hug him!

What Stacey said later was “It looked like he clutched on to you.” He had given me a little squeeze. So, they left, and I was like glowing and super high off of hanging out with Aaron. So, we grab a big flashlight and use our phones and walk down the street. I play all my new ringtones and we like jump up and down and sing and dance to them. It was SO fun! We got back, ate some food, and went into the tent and stayed up til 5am!

I ended up falling asleep for about a half an hour to an hour this morning. At like 4:30 me, Beth and Paula walked down the street a little ways because the sun was just rising and there was fog down the road, it was so pretty! Then we got back to the tent and fell asleep. Now it’s 10:01 and already Delia and Bridget left. So, it’s just me, Paula, Beth, Stacey and Andrea. Everyone else is still asleep. I had an awesome summer all nighter! It was much better than I expected.

Now it’s 8:02pm. Here’s what I did today:

At around 11 we all woke up, and Andrea left. So, it was the four of us. We got up and went swimming in the rain. It was only drizzling. And while we were in the water, we took off our suits. We skinny dipped! It was really fun, very free! No wedgies! After swimming we came back up, changed clothes and went for a walk. The road was paved this morning! So, we got to walk on it bare footed. It was still sticky. On the way back we saw Aaron drive over to Tori’s with his mom and he was wearing some really hot red shorts. They were plaid. HOT! Yeah, then we came back inside and chilled in my room.

Newflash: I only want to be friends with Aaron. Since he’s taken, I don’t want to break them up. So, I’ll just be friends with him and see how time goes.

Great night! <3

Ava Estelle

Present day me: This entry is bittersweet now because I’m not friends with anyone who was at this all-nighter anymore. I don’t even talk to any of the guys. I remember this party and how fun and almost electric it was. Everyone got along, and everyone had a good time! Reading this as an adult it gives me comfort.

May 11, 2008

May 11, 2008

Sunday – Happy Mother’s Day!

Well, this past Friday was Rhonda’s birthday party. I went to drivers ed after school and then went to Rhonda’s house, then we had to rush to the bowling alley! It was really fun!! We couldn’t get bumpers, so we got a lot of gutter balls. It was me, Erin, Hannah and Rhonda on one lane/team and Beth, Tabitha, Grace and Richie were on the other. We had a game and half about and then we did cake! We got to all sign a bowling pin for Rhonda, too. We ate pizza, cake and ice cream and talked about pretty hilarious stuff. At about 8 we went back to her house and just hung out, did presents, and watched John Tucker Must Die. Erin and Beth had to leave at like 10, so at midnight we decided to make a Reese’s no-bake dessert thing. It was good. We ended up going to sleep around 3! We got up at 9 and ate breakfast. Then me and Hannah were the last ones there.

That’s pretty much the highlight of my weekend.

<3 Ava Estelle

Present day me: This was a fun birthday party I remember! The cake and ice cream, just the words, were an inside joke of ours. So, we had many things to make us laugh. I bet Rhonda’s parents would hear snippets and think, “what is so funny about Arby’s?” another inside joke of ours.

February 24, 2008

February 24, 2008

Dream from last night.

Hannah was having a party, but it was up at my cabin. Aaron was over (of course) and it was winter out. The layout of the cabin was different though. So, I guess all we did at the party was lounge around in my room and have a treasure hunt with everyone. It was kind of cool. Then I had a dream that I was hanging out in my room here in town and I hear my dad come home and yell up the stairs, “Gram’s is here!” and I rushed down the stairs and saw her wearing the same outfit that she was wearing in the picture that I have of her on my whiteboard. So, I give her a big hug and tell her about my life.

So yesterday I went to see Definitely, Maybe with Rhonda at 1:30 and that ended around 4. We walked around the mall until Delia, Beth, Hannah and Tabitha were coming. So, they got there and we hung out til about 6. Then Hannah and Rhonda had to leave so it was just the four of us. We went to Deb and tried on dresses. Then we went to Inside Scoop and bought candy because we went to see the movie 27 Dresses! So I saw two movies in one day! They were both really really good! After 27 Dresses we went home. Tabitha gave me a ride home. Then today I played DDR a few times and just hung out. It was relaxing. G’night!

Ava Estelle

Present day me: I remember this being quite an awesome thing! To be able to see two movies at the same theater in one day, with different friends! I also remember having that dream about Gram. I still miss her very much. I believe when a soul that’s passed shows up in one of my dreams that is their way of connecting with me again. This was my first dream with her in it since her passing. I gave her the biggest hug I could when I reached her!

January 1, 2008

January 1, 2008

Well, it’s the first day of 2008, and I’m starting a new diary/journal. My old one is falling apart so this is a new one! Over Christmas break I had a party at the cabin! Six girls came over and stayed the night.

Well, everyone showed up around 2ish. We all got settled in and then we took some pictures inside. We talked and exchanged cell numbers since I got a cell phone and some others got new ones. So, we sit and talk. And then we decide to go outside, to go see if Aaron wanted to hang out with us. 😉

Yeah, so Delia and Paula go up to his door and I guess his brother answered. Delia asked for Aaron and his brother – Austin – said we’ll be out in a minute. So, they come out and we start throwing snow at them. After a little while we all got cold, and we invited Aaron and Austin in to play Apples to Apples with us.

So we all sit down in the back room and Aaron sits between Beth and I think Catherine. And what Beth told me later is that Aaron tried to play footsie with her, but she scooted towards Hannah. Well, Apples to Apples was getting old so, (I’m not sure how it came up) we started talking about phones and I got Aaron’s number! Well, we all did. So, pretty much we kept talking, I played DDR with Paula and I challenged Aaron to play the Block Puzzle game on my ipod. Hehe. Him, Rhonda, and I were trying to figure it out. We got so close but then Eddie messed it up. But whatever. Anyway we just hung out in the doorway from the kitchen to the living room. And I actually talked to Aaron a lot more than last time. It was good.

Oh! And between talking in the living room, everyone crammed into my room! We just sat in it and, of course, talked some more. I showed everyone the board that we wrote on at my all-nighter. Aaron saw his nickname word and everything else. And then it became 10:30 and my parents said the guys had to leave at 10 so all of us walked them outside and we talked with just Aaron for a while longer. His brother went in because he was cold.

So, we stayed up until 3. I fell asleep first. Before we went to sleep everyone said me and Aaron would look good together! 😊 so, I’m happy about that. And Hannah didn’t’ flirt with him at all! Hehe. She knows I like him, and she doesn’t so she respects that. So, the next morning we woke up about 9ish and we told Aaron to meet us outside at 10. But we all still had to get ready, so we did and ate breakfast. But we didn’t get out there until 11:30! So, he didn’t come out and we decided to send some of us up to his door. Me, Rhonda, Catherine, Paula, and Hannah walked up there. I was really shy about it. Paula walks up to the door and knocks, and Hannah stands on the stairs. After a minute nobody came so we left. We went back inside, and someone came out of the laundry room with Aaron’s gloves that he left here. 😊😊😊 So! We decide to write him a note and put it in his gloves. We all wrote little funny things from the night before and signed our names and numbers. And then we went and put his gloves on his doorstep for him.

So after all that everyone left. And I spent the rest of the day sitting around watching Charmed. He never called me. So, I kind of stopped hoping. But I had a really fun time. I’m glad Aaron could come to another of my parties! 😊

Ava Estelle

Present day me: Another fun visit down memory lane! This party of mine was really fun because some of the girls went to a different school, so we got to see each other and make more inside jokes. We spent a lot of time outside in January I remember. I guess it must’ve been warm enough for us hahaha. I enjoyed reading about how we hung out in a doorway between two main rooms of the house. Such a random “cool” thing to do. I also remember when we found Aaron’s gloves feeling so excited, I had another opportunity to maybe get to see him!! In hindsight, he was probably overwhelmed by receiving all these girls’ numbers at once, who all lived in a different city. I’m not sure if he actually caught on to my crush I had on him at that time. He hung out with us when I had my friends over, which was once every few months or so. I didn’t hang out with him by myself.

November 3, 2007

November 3, 2007

Saturday

OMG! Today, well actually last night Tabitha, Delia, Rhonda, Hannah, Beth, and Courtney came up to the cabin for my all-nighter. So, we get up there and we start going for a walk, and “that guy” comes out on his four-wheeler and comes over to us! We all stop, and everyone knows that this is the guy I’ve had a crush on for like the past three years. So, Beth pushes me like over by him and yells my name. So, he asks us where we’re from and why we’re in this tiny town. And we just talked until it got like pitch black out. Yeah, we were all cold, so he went in to get something to eat and we went in to get warm. As soon as we got in and sat down he comes over and comes and eats with us!!! Yeah, he brought over a box of cheese crackers. After eating, we went to play LOL – Lines of Laughter. But we all just kept talking. Hannah was really flirting with him. But she didn’t even know she was doing it. I didn’t get mad at her. It wasn’t a big deal. And then we played BS. After that he had to leave. Then we went to bed. Well, no, it’s an all-nighter! We talked and played the circle game. That was really funny. Courtney fell asleep at 2:30 and everyone else fell asleep past 4. It was a lot of fun! Then in the morning, we went outside to take pictures, and to “get the mail” and he came out again and we talked to him some more. Hannah didn’t flirt as much. And I was standing right across from him in our circle! So, I think he was looking at me a lot. And he had a little five o’clock shadow, that was so cute! 😊 yeah, well then, we left. But that night was one AWESOME night!!! I will never forget it. Oh! And his name is Aaron! He’s a sophomore in a different high school from ours, and he has his driver’s license!

Ava Estelle

Present day me: this entry was a fun memory to revisit. This was the first time a guy was almost geographically close enough for me to interact with in person and possibly go out with or date. But he ended up going out with a different girl. It was probably because I lived in a different town full time, went to a different school. He dated a girl who went to his school and lived down the street from him/my cabin. My friends were funny around him too since they didn’t have much experience around guys. I remember staying up all night and then getting ready in the morning before taking pictures. I stayed in my pajamas, but I did my hair and made sure I looked good.