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November 29, 2009

Sunday

Shit. Fuck. Retarded. Ugh! Damn it. Laaaaame!

Friday: went to Delia’s at 4:30am. Mom and dad made me stay at the lake and drive into town early in the morning. So, I picked up Delia and Andrea. We went just to Target because it was so busy! I parked at Goodwill. I bought two seasons of House and new earrings. I took those two home, came home, showered, went to the bank – took out $350!! And bought a new ipod! Came home. Synced it. Went to New Moon with Delia and Rhonda. It was pretty good the second time. Came home, went to work. Saw Derek. We had break together. He was all over me again. We texted after we closed, and we said how excited we were to hang out tonight. I came home after work and kept pleading with him to come over and then I hear a car door shut. Mom came home. I texted him DON’T COME! And that was the last thing. Mom took away my phone again for “lying” to her. I was going to go to Paula’s house but got out of work late and was exhausted, so I came home. So yeah. I’m screwed again. Saturday, I went to work from one til close. Long shift. Went to Delia’s after and stayed over. We watched Sonny with a Chance and talked about a bunch of stuff. Woke up this morning, came home, went to work from noon til 6:30 and am now home. Ugh. I’m sick of working. I have to go tomorrow too; Derek won’t be there. I really want to see him and tell him he’s not in trouble. Just I am. So that’s all for now. Bye!

Ava Estelle

Present day me: I remember being so busy and worried about my mom busting me for doing nothing. Like, I get punished for coming home after getting out of work late and not going to my friends house like I had told her? Sure, I could have called her to let her know the change but at that time I didn’t see the point. Instead she worried herself and thought the worst of me and took away my phone anyway. Well, that keeps her from getting in touch with me when I’m still going to work and school and seeing my friends from school….

November 26, 2009

NSFW entry!

Thanksgiving day

Well let’s start off with yesterday:

Phoebe came over, she hung out with Eddie, Meryl and I. It was awkward honestly. Everyone went up to the cabin except me because I was called into work. So I went from 3:30 until close. It was actually a good shift. Took a lunch break, got a pizza treatza lunchable! I had lunch break with Diane, Dawn, and Derek. At one point the two ladies were in deep conversation and Derek was reading a book, he started rubbing my leg under the table. Nobody noticed. He went really close to me; it was nice. And then we had our 15-minute break together and I was standing looking at the schedule. He came in and grabbed my ass and was basically all over me all during break. He vibrated his phone right on me through my pants and rubbed my leg and I made him hard. So, he let me touch him there. I gave him a hug and he grabbed my ass again. He was making me go crazy! When I took the garbage back there, he showed me a book he had found in donations about a ton of different sex positions. He’s like, “I’m going to do these with you,” and then when we could clock out, he came into the room right after me and grabbed my ass, back and front. And he’s like, “could you be late to your cabin?” and I said, yeah. But I didn’t have my phone so yeah. I want to hang out with him soooo bad. I’m hoping tomorrow night after work!

So today was thanksgiving. It’s been a pretty lame ass day. It’s just the five of us up here at the cabin. Eddie and Meryl have teamed up together and are excluding me, so I’m hating this. I am not in a good mood. And I just want to leave. I’m staying at Delia’s tonight and then going shopping tomorrow with her and Andrea. Oh! And I got my phone back today! Because I went to work last night and made the “right choice.” Yeah. So now I’m going to find something to do and try not to kill myself. (joke) ttyl!

<3 Ava Estelle

Present day me: My mom was so weird with her punishments and expectations. She still didn’t trust me entirely but I still had to go to work and school so she had to get in touch with me somehow. I think having me go to work without my phone she realized I should have it anyway and made up that excuse to give it back to me then.

November 21, 2009 (2)

November 21, 2009

9:46pm Saturday

Let me write down about the last couple of days:

Thursday – well actually Friday morning I went to the New Moon premiere at midnight! With Delia and Tabitha. We had made shirts, and I drove. We got to the theater at 10, I had brought candy, we sat for two hours and then the movie came on. It was SO good! Jacob Black = so fucking hot! Yeah, and I’m team Jacob now. After the movie I saw Bailey from work going to the 2:30am showing. I told her that it was really good! She said, have fun going to school later! So, we slept for a total of 3 hours. I felt fine first through third hour and then crashed fourth, fell asleep in fifth, sixth (failed my civics test) and seventh. Came home, took a nap/rest for 45 minutes and then went to work. I worked with Aimee, Mildred, Layla, Derek and Erin. We got out on time. I was holding up pretty nicely too! So, I came home and Meryl was here with her friends and I waited for Gil and Emily to come.

Let’s skip to today now. Woke up this morning and took Meryl’s friends home. Came back, opened all the windows upstairs to air it out, it smelled like pot, smoke, and sex. Ha wow. Ironic huh? And I turned on the fan. I pretty much sat around all day. Mom came home and blew up at us, Cathy called her. She made us clean. But she just knows about Meryl, not me. 😊 but we got our phones taken away for a week. Whatever. And yeah. Now I’m going to go talk with Meryl about my night and the 3 sum! 😊

<3 Ava Estelle

Present day me: I remember my mom took away my phone too because I allowed my sister to have friends over while she was gone. Having my phone taken away for a week wasn’t that bad at the time. Looking back on these few days as a 30 year old it’s amazing what I could get through without much sleep and still be okay overall. These days I could not do a full day of school and working on little sleep like that. It’s a fun experience to look back on.

November 21, 2009

2:54am

NSFW entry!

Derek and Jimmy just left!!!

Meryl and I had the house to ourselves, so we invited some friends over 😊 I had to work so I didn’t get home until around 10ish. Gil and his girlfriend Emily came over and we watched The Big Lebowski. That was entertaining. They brought pizza and movies. Around 12:30am Derek and Jimmy showed up. They said hi to Gil and Emily and they had brought over beer and such. Gil and Emily had to leave. I told Derek that my sister was upstairs with her friends smoking weed. He got excited. We went up to her room, sat in a circle and everyone smoked except me. Peer pressure didn’t do me in! Then we went downstairs for a bit, then came back upstairs because Meryl and her friends wanted to watch a movie. So, us three sat on the S chair, and started the whole “she-bang” (literally!) and yeah. Derek and I kissed, and I did a hand job and he fingered me. Jimmy ran his fingers over my body. That definitely turned me on. He fingered me too. (I’m sore down there) they both did for a total of 4 fingers. We couldn’t turn any lights on, so that was good. We moved into my room, all three of us on my tiny bed. I think a board broke actually. Made out with both, got fingered by both, Jimmy has a way bigger dick than Derek, which is different. I was thirsty so I went into the bathroom and Derek followed, we humped standing up and then Jimmy walked in. After we were taking a break, Derek took a smoke. Jimmy and I went back to my bed. I sat on top of him, and we dry humped and kissed. He knows how to move his hands. And then Derek came back from his cigarette and said they should leave in 10 minutes. I didn’t want them to go.

So, I put my pj’s on, Jimmy came up to me hugged me, kissed, picked me up so I was straddling him. I think possibly/maybe Derek got a little jealous and at one point when Jimmy was fingering me and I had both my hands on both of them Derek whispered in my ear, “if he wasn’t here, I would have sex with you.” Eeeep! 😊

Next time.

SO yeah, I’m going to air out my room and get some much-needed sleep.

G’night!

<3 Ava Estelle

Present day me: What an entry to revisit. No sex, but just a lot of fooling around with two hot guys when I was also hot. Hahahaha. I do remember this time and actually forgot the Gil and Emily were hanging out with me the same night before the guys came over. Looking back, Gil did flirt with me and hang out with me outside of work a few times. If he wasn’t in a relationship he and I probably would have gone out a few times too. They’re still in a relationship to this day as far as I know! I admire the trust they had and still have together.

November 6, 2009

Friday

NSFW entry!

So it was the last day of late start week, kind of overall lame because we didn’t do anything before school in the mornings. We were going to go to AFR but didn’t because Tabitha and Rhonda didn’t want to. They’re lame. So, after school I went to work, I worked with Aimee, Layla, Mildred, Paul, Derek and Mary. We got out at 9:32! Yeah. Derek got a ride from Jimmy, and I parked on a street nearby his house and went to his house because his parents weren’t home. Jimmy went into his room and we went in the guest room. It was one of the better times with him. 😊 man, it was amazing! Lasted about an hour. We were standing and kissing, he picked me up and laid me on the bed. We made out more, turned off the lights, and took off our clothes and did all the fun stuff. He fingered me with three fingers! It hurt a little but felt good. He also ate me out and I gave him a hand job of course and we both came. When he turned on the lights there were little prints of blood on the bed. I think he just went in too deep, so we were done with that. We went downstairs and he made a pizza. Jimmy, him, and me sat on the couch, me in the middle of course. At one point Derek got up and I laid down because I was really tired so my butt was to Jimmy and he smacked it. Hehe. He was drinking. So yeah. I ended up leaving around 11:45 and drove home. Good night. Uhm, and at one point we rubbed our….. together, skin to skin and I made the most noise I ever have. Hehe. So yeah. That’s about it for now.

<3 Ava Estelle

Present day me: Another sexual escapade of before I actually had sex. It’s interesting to relive some of these moments because they’ve been almost scraped from my memory it’s been so long. I really got excited to have any attention from men on me. It was new and exciting to explore what sex and foreplay was all about.

October 25, 2009

Sunday

Worked for 8 hours. Saw Derek at the end of my shift. He was on break, and I clocked out he smacked my butt twice and we were smiling at each other and the whole conversation with our eyes. (So cute) and then I see Delia in the window. So, his attitude just changes. But it was nice. I ended up going out to eat with her and her mom at Olive Garden. I didn’t eat much. I was sick Friday night and all yesterday. I’m feeling better for the most part. And am sad I didn’t get to hang out with Derek last night. But maybe on Tuesday, he has the day off. I know he really wants to hang out, so hopefully. And I hope this week goes by fast because I just want Halloween to come, Delia’s party! Woot! Just what I need, a party with my friends! 😊 hm, maybe I could hang out with Derek on Sunday. Well, that’s all for now.

<3 Ava Estelle

Present day me: I remember seeing Delia peeking into the break room through the window on the door and being alerted. She didn’t know about my secret relationship with Derek and we kept it on the down low with people at work too.

October 18, 2009

Sunday

Been sick since Wednesday night.

Missed two days of school and work. Came home from work today. Feeling better now. Haven’t written in here for 10 days. Wow. Lame. Not much has been going on. Haven’t been talking to Derek much. I don’t know if I really have feelings for him. But, it’s good I don’t really need to make a decision because we can’t date anyway. So, yeah. I’m going to school and work tomorrow so it’ll suck for school but be find for work. That’s it.

<3 Ava Estelle

Present day me: I find it refreshing that at this point with my interactions with Derek I wasn’t obsessed with him or needed to see him all of the time. I still focused on other things.

October 8, 2009

Thursday

NSFW entry!

Great day! Didn’t have school!

I had to work last night, so after work I came up to the cabin and texted with Derek until I went to sleep. This morning I told mom I was being picked up by Delia at 11, so I took Meryl home and then went over to Derek’s. He went above my underwear and when I first got there, I was freezing, so we went under his blankets and warmed up. I gave him a hand job of course and we kissed and caressed, and I warmed up quick. I ended up getting really into it and scratched him right in the middle above his abs. It only lasted for like 45 minutes. I wanted to keep going but every time after he cums, he’s done, and we clean up. So, I hung out at his house for a little while longer and then walked home. Delia picked me up and we went to the store to get discount movie tickets. Then stopped at Starbucks for her and Wendy’s for me. She took me home and I hung out there until 4:30 because I had to pick up Brad, Devin and Rhonda to go to Zombieland! It was us three, Delia, Craig, Brandon, Harry, and Garrett. It was a pretty good movie, I liked it. Us three girls went out to eat afterwards. I took Rhonda home. I told her about Derek, she’s the only one who knows. And Meryl, but I completely trust her. Then came home, packed, picked up Meryl and the cats and came back up to the lake. Aaron was having a bonfire and called me to invite us but instead we hung out in the street, Eddie threw an ice cube at the cars, and I guess made a dent, but whatever. That’s it! G’night!

<3 Ava Estelle

Present day me: I remember seeing Zombieland with everyone and having a great time. Also, having more fun with Derek is a little cringe to revisit but still helpful in looking back on my past.

October 4, 2009

Sunday

Yesterday! -> went out to eat with Tabitha and Ashley. It was really good. Ashley took us back to my house. I grabbed my stuff, and we met Delia at Starbucks. We rant over to Shopko for ribbon and then to Tabitha’s house for her stuff and my place for her wallet she left. Then we went to Grace’s to get ready. Delia did my hair and make-up. We were all so pretty! We went to Katie’s for pictures and then Green Mill! We took more pictures at Green Mill, ate, and then went to the dance. I pretty much hung out with Tabitha and Delia. The dance was lame. The three of us decided to leave around 10:30. So I could take Delia to Katie’s to get her stuff, went to sonic, we were really hyper, we sat there for like an hour and then came back here. Stayed up a while longer and slept. I was texting with Derek at Sonic and until I went to sleep. This morning they left right away. I uploaded pictures and chilled out. Called Rhonda – walked around – met up with Derek and his friend Jimmy. We went in the woods at the end of my street and fooled around. I didn’t let him in my pants because it started raining in Ecuador today. So I came home, and just been chillen out. Going to team member night with Delia later.

G’bye!

<3 Ava Estelle

Present day me: The term raining in Ecuador is a phrase my friends and I used to mean it was our time of the month. This was a fun memory to relive because it was right around the time when I was stressed about my work friends and still able to hang out with my school friends.

September 20, 2009

Sunday

Pretty good weekend. I think my life may be getting better. Friday after school I got to drive up to the cabin, I picked up Eddie at school and then met up with Uncle Charlie and Aunt Ivy, Uncle Gil and Aunt Bea at the cabin. I was in a really good mood since I got to drive! We went out to eat and there was a cute waiter there who served us. I think he was looking at me, he gave me my food first when he brought it all out. Hehe. We came back to the cabin and played Butt Darts! That was a lot of fun! My team won! With Aunt Bea, Uncle Gil, Eddie, and Preston. We put a quarter between our butt cheeks and walked across the room to try and drop it into a cup on the floor. After that we played LOL and I went to bed around midnight. Woke up, got ready for work, and drove back into town and worked for 8 hours. That was one looooong day. I went out to eat with Tabitha at Fazoli’s and then to Rachel’s to babysit for a few hours. Her kid slept the whole time and woke up once, so I watched tv and came home around 1:30am and went to bed. I woke up, went to work for 4 hours, came home and Delia brought over the laptop! 😊 it’s awesome! We went to Starbucks and talked for a while. She brought me home and I just sat on Facebook for a while. Now I should do some homework.

G’night!

<3 Ava Estelle

Present day me: I remember this time. It was so much fun playing games with my family and laughing a lot. The game LOL stands for Lines of Laughter, which is based on scenes from a hat from the show Whose Line is it Anyway? Its nice to read an entry just about my happenings for a few days. Family time, work time, and friend time!